haven been updating my blog at all. neglected this blog totally. anyway it's time for me to prioritise my time. thinking of two months down the road & it's my final exams. im so stressed up by so many matters. no idea why things turn out like that. simply put, many things in life are unpredictable & only God has control of it. But i thank God for putting me thru these days. studies will be the first for me right now & i hope i can make it thru till the exams are over.

cny's over, lots of fun. too much to blog again -.- hence im not blogging abt it.

time for spring cleaning. today i was late for school & my teacher walked up the lecture hall to the back and asked me why was i late -.-

studying time! prelims beginning of march. revision in march & april. finals in early may. haven been contacting joyce and clique.. only contact joyce regarding schoolwork.. i dont like to blog, i find it boring. so it will be short and sweet.

does anyone know anything about polaroids? i've been asking all blogshops selling that about it, seen plenty of different cams on blogshops, hardwarezone forums, ebays every nite for 2 weeks plus le.. those polaroid onestep, cool cam 600, all really nice! but after reading many comments about the films which are difficult to purchase, i decided not to follow on that. hence fujifilm white mini 7s would be better. anyone has any suggestions? i need it in 4 to 5 months time.

didnt post for super long already, decided to post one now.. i am not going to state any resolutions because i always do not follow it and will forget after a day -.- have not met up with any frens for more than a month since my sec school cca gathering last dec. met up with iras pple last fri finally. met up at cityhall den walked to suntec b1.. lots to catch up since we did not meet up or really contact for 1 year le lol, plus i dont sign in msn, neither am i active in facebook.

today actually wanted to buy lunch for myself and bro den head home when parents fetched me there.. at hougang mall, my parents and i went ntuc to buy plenty of oranges, all different brands, 3 big packets of rice again plus some other stuffs. they needed to give the oranges to customers.. we took abt an hour to buy everything, i filled in the lucky draws as usual, hope we can win haha. we went to the car, afterwhich i went to buy lunch for my mum and me, bro didnt want to eat. back to car, mum said dad needed to send the oranges to several customers in tuas/jurong like last year when i went wif dad to send mooncakes.. hence i dont mind going with my dad since my mum is afraid of him driving alone for long hours. fetched mum to office first, we went up to have the customer names written on the stickers to stick on the mandarin orange cartons. 9 to be given out, all different packagings. left wif dad and we started sticking the names on the cartons. it was 1.25pm. i told dad to head home to pass to my bro his kueh, same time wanna take my school notes lol, i was thinking i can study in the car -.- went to serangoon gardens after that to look after the car while dad went to dbs bank. left to hougang area to pump pertrol, bought 2 bottles of pink dolphin, 2 bucks for 2, cheap - one for me, one for dad. left to start the journey. took street directory and in the car with dad to find the places. 2 hours plus journey to 6 places, a great time catching up with my dad about his stories again. we didnt get lost at all in those tuas & jurong industrial areas haha, i was sitting at the back telling him to turn where from street directory, there were two he can still remember the directions! i was flipping within page 69, 79, 100, 101.. we went dso, it was troublesome at there again cos need to put hp in lockers and our ICs at the guard hse.. den still need to check the car.. at 4.10pm, we finished everything at last! dad suggested gg to tiong bahru to eat his lunch cos he has not eaten. mum called and suggested to us gg to tiong bahru too lol den i told her that's what dad said too, she laughed. i ate fried kway teow, 2 bucks, cheap. dad ate bak ku teh plus fried kway teow too! dad bought mum's hot cheng teng.. head back to office at 5.50pm, helped mum wif tagging of clothes since she needs it urgently.. finally finished everything at 7.10pm, quickly left office. dad sent mum to bible study, we went hougang mall 4th floor kopitiam den 1st floor to buy bro & sis dinner. dad and i didnt eat cos we were full but i feel hungry now lol. i have not studied today ah! didnt do my bible study yet!!!! went home after that! hammies have grown fatter each day -.- still timid as usual but they're really really cute and chubby. orange one fatter & bigger than white one. sachi also become bigger size ever since we weighed her last time till this year, gained 1 kg.

now my life is just home lol. i just dont feel like contacting or catch up with any friends.. i complained i have no time to meet up with them when im working for my parents, i can only meet my friends on sunday, i dont like to just go for work as and when i like, to me is not right. For me, though they're my parents, still i must treat it i am working for other companies as personal and work are two different matters hence when i am at work, i am 100% into work, no distractions. so right now, im not working after the big argument with my mum last dec. Throughout the years, i have matured alot & it may me think alot. I know how tough my parents work, hence i am really satisfied with what i have, im trying hard to save, like my phone bills, i proudly say i didnt exceed continously for a year le.. last time i do exceed but is a few bucks. if i can walk to and back from hougang mall, i'll walk & save transport fees when i buy lunch for siblings or return from school. i didnt want to trouble my dad to buy lunch cos i know it's tiring for him driving up and down & by the time, he has no time left to do his work, that's what he said repeatedly in office for many occasions but he dont dare to voice out. i dont ask my dad to fetch me from school at all, i dont mind taking public transport back no matter how heavy my schoolnotes are. he's my dad, not my chaffeur with just a call and he's here, i feel that's not right. my dad always insisted on fetching me back to sch, i strongly object & wanna go back myself. they didnt know why till i flared up one day when i waited one hour for him to come. they said they do not want me to be xinku, carry many notes but to me, i told them i do not want them to be xinku instead. however, lessons early in the morning, i need my dad to fetch me to school which is twice per week cos i cant wake up & i need to wake up at 6.30am when my bro already uses this com in my room till 10pm to 12 midnite. i do not switch on the water heater to save electricity bills unless it is early in the morning or my dad will switch on for me because he kept thinking i forget to switch on. usually when i sleep den i'll just switch on the air-con for half hour, in the end i often wake up in the middle of nite sweating zz hence sometimes i switch on for awhile to cool the room down. there are plenty more to say. there's always a purpose behind stuffs i do but i dont say out. family are always there for u, friends do help but they cant be with you all the time. i do not want to add more burden to my parents, hence im trying to help by these mini actions cos they also wont stop working till they're 60 over, so by helping them would be better after all they're my parents, plus seeing how my friends around me are helping their parents to lift the burden too, i really respect them. i am not trying to show how great i am, but i am being truthful here. though there're many attractive stuffs in life like my favourite clothes etc, but i never tell my parents how much i like it, i dont request stuffs from them, but somehow my mum can read my mind -.- also, thank God for the many stuffs which my mum showered on us - facials, clothes, facial products etc.. i know im fortunate but sometimes still i'll quarrel with her over my results which made me boiled up. to me results is not associated with freedom. i feel as a parent, character of a child is very impt. i know every family has different rules, my parents aint strict except wif r/s stuffs where i know some girlfrens my age do have 12 midnite curfew. but for me whether or not there's curfew cos it doesnt matter cos i'll definitely return before 12. in my opinion, i think is dangerous to be out there at nite & it's inappropriate for a girl to be out there late and i do not want my parents to be worrying and staying up late at nite. they're getting on age, it's not good to let them stay up & i wanna let them to have good life. so actions are better than words. i do not like to act filial infront of my frens, i want to be real and truthful. im rather low-key also hence no one knows what's happening to me lol, i also dont blog but after seeing many issues, i decided to just type here about how i feel. everyone has different opinions of course, this is just part of how i feel in my heart.