hais no mood to post. always in my mind all day long yet i hurt another. what decision shld i make? this time im really lost.

busy new year, shall update when im free and i when i can use com cos now using sis com for a while only.

so busy this whole week. super busy. dont even have time to touch the com, no time to practise piano and study as well..

cant wait for every friday ((: oops forgot i went watch red cliff on fri actually haha. next movie will be jack neo's new movie & fann wong's one. jack neo's one is so funny, saw the trailer before the red cliff started. one part is a woman asking a man, "are u really benny's father?" the man replied "then do i look like his mother?" LOL so funny! then got one part hui ge was so funny he said he can form a sentence using colours which is.. "When the phone rings "Green, Green", I "pink" up the phone and say "yellow", "Blue" is this? "White" do you want? You dont "purplely" call me. If you make me angry, I wont call you "black". lols so funny la. It should be, when the phone rings "Ring, Ring", I pick up the phone and say hello, who is this? What do you want? You dont purposely call me. If you make me angry, I wont call you back. hahas.

trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzVgbZE22Jk

nites off to bed.

went to watch red cliff 2 last fri at amk hub. nice movie! so funny, we kept laughing hahaa.

i kept asking myself what for i think. useless also ma. i should just get on with life, lead a happy life, do well in studies. why emo for what also pointless. no more emo posts ((:

why is my life always like that? why is it always filled with obstacles? why is it not smooth-sailing. why is it always be filled with bitterness, pain, sorrows. so unfair. WHY?!!! each time im feeling more sad. will i ever be happy? charmaine, stop thinking too much! so stressed up by everything. prelims coming soon it's final exams. time passes so fast.

<3

my mum just left for hongkong this early morning. last nite 4 plus am she suddenly came down to my room to use the com -.- gave me a big shock cos sachi was in my room den she suddenly howled and barked so loudly. mum forgot to choose her plane seat haha. in the end she switched on com and went in the website only to realise the seat was chosen for her already :/ den she went upstairs to her room le haha.

yesterday (sat)
woke up straightaway bathed went off wif parents. fetched sis from comfort driving centre cos she still has 45 mins to her final theory test 12.50pm, den went enterprise 1 office to buy tea and kaya toast. dad dropped mum and i at office cos the accountant is there doing last year's account and my dad sent my sis for her test. dad came back sat for 20 mins den left to fetch my sis lol grats she passed her final theory test on 1st attempt too! cant wait for her to pass her practical driving as well den both of us can drive haha! maybe dad's buying a car for us YEAH! dad came back to fetch mum and i, den dad dropped mum and sis at city plaza to get clothes den dad dropped me at amara shopping centre at 2pm to help my aunt at my mum's boutique. so messy z den i climbed up and down packing those clothes stock in the cupboard cos it's till the ceiling -.- whatever tedious stuffs my aunt want to do i just tell her i will do lol cos she's already 60. like packing all these, i'll label all the clothes and carry up, my aunt just passed the clothes to me.. ironing i also go "snatch" from her to do cos i know it's tiring using that standing steam iron, den let her go think what clothes shld be wore on the models haha. my mum also said we must have initiative ma. we were packing and hence didnt open up the shutters fully den many wanted to come in but we told them to come in later. we opened near 3pm no choice.. one indian customer came to collect her clothese cos my mum said will shift the clothes button for her. my mum even put a stud dere & shifted the 1st button. she came in she wasnt happy and said it's to shift all the buttons not 1. my aunt was saying no she said first button only and my aunt kept insisting on that -.- den the customer said "im so disappointed with you all. is this how you treat your customers, dont even take in customer's instructions." my aunt was like grumbing that she only said shift first button only zz. when i heard it i was like die den i put on a smile, told her nicely "im so sorry abt that, i will shift all the buttons for you and put another stud there. im really so sorry about that." after which the indian customer cooled down and said "i will come back in 10 days. get this done." -.- zz. soon mum, dad, sis came wif new stocks. dad left for home den mum, aunt, sis and i were in boutique.. den so many pple came.. it was like non stop -.- me and aunt didnt even eat lunch at all cos too many customers zz den all the customers only left near 7pm. i went to tanjong pagar plaza buy cai fan cos it's really cheap 2 bucks. so i dabao, ate my lunch and dinner tog at boutique lol. den settle all the accounts, dad & bro came to fetch us den we went pasa malam at there, i just buy pokka green tea. back to hougang to buy dinner and dropped aunt den went home (:

last tues (6/1)
after corporate finance lect i was walking down wif my 3 girlfrens to the bus stop to take bus home. den suddenly joyce and weifang said they're gg to jurong point cos got new extension den joyce also need to wait for her frens at there till 6 plus. den they asked me and jiaying if we wanna follow along.. so i was like anything ba den i followed them but jy went home.. so went jurong point, ate at subway, shared wif joyce a subway melts footlong meal den we went walking round whole of jurong point, went in most of the shops. joyce bought a top and i just tried a top as well for fun haha. then we went skin food, thefaceshop which was in korea as well cos i wanted to check the prices haha. yeah in spore they sell the mask for eg thefaceshop 3 for s$10 but i bought in korea 1 for s$1.90 only lol. then skin food mask sells 1 for S$5 and S$8 also have in spore but in korea they sell only 1 for S$1.90 -.- so much cheaper la zz. then we walked den looked at those cute stuffs so cute!! got toilet paper holder which is toothpaste the big tube design thingy, dont know how to explain. many many stuffs. den weifang bought a small scooter display for her fren's bday so cute and nice! we went drink sweettalk bubble tea sat down and talked den soon joyce's fren came le.. so me and weifang left to go home!

it's no longer the same.. le. things really aint the same anymore. i still rmb how particular it was abt the.. but now.. it's like back to the incident in aug alr, i had enough le.

exams are coming. end feb's my prelims. may's my final exams.

sometimes im really so afraid. it's so unpredictable.. change my mind again after.. i shldnt think so much. be happy (:

ive already made up my mind, my final decision. memories are definitely there, no matter what it's always there cos it was simply too deep le. till now im still writing our names on my new foolscap cover cos my old one finished le. the old one also had our names on it.

on 31st uncle fetched quite early after which went his hse to fetch laura and aunty tong lynn den head off. uncle parked at suntec from there we walked to spore flyer cos he reserved tables at O'Learys SPORTSBAR & GRILL zz. i saw the menu in the car then i was like O.O cos all so ex. quite a long walk to spore flyer cos we didnt know where's the restaurant too.. den same time took pics of flyer. didnt know what happened to the flyer on 23rd dec till i came back from my trip on 28th. at the sportsbar, uncle ordered mocktails for us.. 10 mocktails and 1 ice lemon tea for laura. mocktail costs 7 bucks each -.- 6 of them ordered fish and chips and it's 17 bucks each. aunty tong lynn and me ordered linguini, 20+ bucks. laura ordered a plate of 6 chicken wings wif fries, my uncle ordered spare ribs 26+ bucks, one cousin ordered steak 22+bucks. den uncle ordered 1 extra fish and chip and spare ribs for us to share -.- altogether 13 dishes o.o we all like all stuffing ourselves zz so full they kept asking us to eat. den i almost finished my mocktail when i found an ant in there z den they gave me a new cup. uncle paid all :/ my cousins and i were whispering to each other how to pay him back really feel so bad. the whole spore flyer there was so empty also. they got mini performance there but so little pple z den went over to the grass patch near floating platform but need to stand till 12 when it was only 9 something den so empty as well probably cos too early so we walked back to spore flyer area. to our delight, we found so many stone tables empty.. so we cousins sat one table, my uncle, 2 aunties & laura sat another table. 7 of us played taiti, took turns 4 first den winner get to play wif the 3 later and so on. den uncle and aunts played donkey wif laura -.- we played halfway got cockroach z den all ran to another stone table den continued playing. i stopped playing after that.. auntie came over to learn and play taiti too.. soon it was 11.45pm.. den we just walk over to the sea there den a grp of 5 pple just shouted 10,9,...3,2,1 then we saw fireworks.. so nice!! so big, so much.. super nice. den finished watching went off le. walked back to suntec den uncle fetched wenyi, xinyi back home. bro and i went to their hse to wait for parents to fetch us. home sweet home.

yest packed my whole table, so clean and neat le :) printed out mthly time table also. that day went library borrow a storybook yet to read yet.. printed all my macro lecture notes as well. last nite wrapped my bro's sec 4 books -.- 8 books zz.