on tues nite my bro and i watched SEA games. the tv stated live telecast and it was showing the swimming events. it was 800m women's medley i guess, my bro & i was watching closely & we're like so damm excited lols. then she won YEAH. after tt it was 4x100m medley for men then i tot the whole swimming event was repeated cos i rmbed seeing on straits times sports section that the 4 guys got gold medal in a swimming relay hence i tot it was that one. however it wasnt cos they came in 3rd. not bad. the guy swimming freestyle is good man. best in asia woah.

my room is flooded wif clothes.. belts..

Wednesday 12 Dec yesterday watched enchanted at ps GV. nice show it's super funny. everyone shld go watch. it's so cute. when the princess is in the real world when she sang the song all cockroaches, rats, mouse etc came out LOL instead of those chipmunks, rabbits, swallow etc in the cartoon world. then in the real world, she makes dresses using the curtains & rug super funny. the curtains all got that shape of her dress LOL. anw after movie went white sands shopping mall met tatarah pple & sis' frens. went kfc to eat. wow big gang LOL. 10 guys & 2 girls in black. guys all 16 years old zz but one girl is 12 dots. that grp wanted to go escape but i cant go la im wearing dress ma.. so my sis, sis's 2 frens suggested pool so we went lor then the big grp went escape. reached downtown went arcade first.. then we played car racing daytona de. i competed wif my sis's 2 frens advance de cos play be4 ma & also learnt be4 how to turn at sharp bends and i got 3rd sobs meaning last lol. then walked round arcade see after which went pool.. played for 2 hours plus.. we had a fun time laughing LOL it's super funny. both my sis and i dunno how to play but her frens know so teach us lor. then her frens paid for us leh my sis gave him 10 bucks no matter wad he still dun wanna take. my sis tried all kinds of ways even when gg home that time take same bus.. my sis gave him the money. both of them pushing each other to take the money till whole bus pple watching LOL. in the end he faster alight at his bus stop then push the money back to my sis. back to story.. after pool went arcade again. my sis played basketball wif her fren share one machine after tt she played alone.. her fren also took one machine to play.. then my sis play stage 2 then tired asked the other fren take over play.. went mac eat mcflurry yummy then walked past a performance being put up for children.. then home sweet home.

took me unnoticed lol.

performance

after reaching home not long ago piano teacher came.. guess wad i broke down infront of her while playing the 3rd movement sonata by clementi and it was near the end of lesson alr. i was stressed up cos didnt practise tt movement at all rather hardly practise piano at all. then i told her wad happened.. yeps.

SUNDAY 19 DEC last sunday didnt attend youth service so just stayed home. bathed etc to get ready to go to grandma's hse. dad came back ard 3 and sudddenly popped out a bubble tea lols. i was happy :) it's my favourite chocolate milk tea hahas. first time he bought for me wifout me telling him to buy lol. i was really surprised. then my mum jokingly said he pampers me haha. every week i'll drink at least 3 times bubble tea. when i was working, i drank chocolate milk tea frm monday to friday. crazy huh. then ard 4 plus went to grandma's hse. oh ya mum bought a chocolate sponge cake frm bengawan solo (since no more prima deli which we used to buy frm) for my 14 year old cousin cos her bday's on 10th (monday) plus her mum & sis came back only on that day frm msia.. so celebrate for her at grandma's hse.. good man she got 2 cakes lols.. one on 9th the other on 10th wif her family. then we played carrom again.. had to wait quite long so in the end didnt play. this period is carrom be4 that was captain's ball LOL. instead i played wif the 2 year old girl so cuteeee.. i had to feed her dinner haha cos she dun wan her maid to feed her. im used to feeding small kids alr cos ive been feeding my 5 year old cousin since she was 2 as well. taking care of her is really tiring haha. she's hyperactive & i muz make sure she does not fall.. soon it was dinner. my oldest aunt & family came over and guess wad- another cake. we were all so shocked then realised oh it's my oldest cousin bday haha. he bought frm four seasons the mango cake. after dinner my cousins and uncles continued playing carrom while my aunts and i were watching star awards prelude. it was really touching and sad watching tt. all their hard work in the past, those memories.. really nice. i watched till 9 plus.. i LOVE the KOPI-O song haha i watched that show every monday to fri morning 10am de on days which ive no sch. then it was bday time. took out both cakes then my 2 cousins-2 & 5 year old rushed to there and stood on the chairs cos the cake was placed on a mahjong table haha. then everyone were like oh it seems as though it's their bday LOL cos the 2 bday cousins dun wanna stand there.. they paiseh haha. then we took plenty of pics. ate lots of cake cos got 2 cakes YUMMY YUMMY.. took many photos. it's really nice gathering.. Every sunday we'll gather & everyone will bring raw dishes then all cook together de.. after tt we'll haf desserts like ice-cream wif 7-up or coke or grass jelly/almond jelly/longan drink/green bean soup.. depends lor haha. so when it was time to go home.. everyone dun feel like gg home.. that nite we went back late cos bday celebration. then my aunt forgot to bring back fruits etc so we make a trip to her hse to pass to her then after which sent my cousin back to her home.

TUESDAY DECEMBER 12 i'll go crazy one day.
i think im too slipshod in some stuffs.
i saw this jc photo.. how i wish it was back to tt time but i still miss sec sch days.. im watching enchanted tmr. at last! nice show i heard.

today went winter wear warehse bought many stuffs like beanies, ear muffs, scarfs, warmer etc.. i cant wait to wear the beanie lol. there are so many mirrors there then saw this mirror make me looks tall lol. decided to wear dress today cos it has been long since i wore one.

After which went hougang mall to eat.. watched the Act 3 drama.. bought somemore wool clothings.. went home.. came out an hour later to eat at Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant at Turf City cos auntie, uncle treating my family.. i didnt know they ordered so many dishes.. somemore so little of us.. my sis didnt go.. they ordered big plates zz. 2 different vegs, prawns, salted egg crab, chilli crab, roasted chicken, pork ribs, red garoupa fish plus one more i forgot and their desserts da mai & mango pudding..

this is my little boy cousin so cute.. he's sleeping..

i cannot let my time juz pass like that.. better spend time wisely...



i cant let myself to be in this situation again. i muz wake up man. i wonder when can i really wake up and do my stuffs properly..


it's nice to have someone to be there for u whenver u need. care and concern being showered upon u.. stuffs done together.. so much memories and feelings. yea frens are there for u but they cant be there for u every sec every minute whenever u need them.. they have their own stuffs as well.. wadever it is, i know it's time to let go.. painful and terrible process juz cry whenever i feel like so tt i'll feel better but i know this is part and parcel of life.. life's never smooth sailing for me ever since Os.. many obstacles but i know all these are meant for me to learn my lesson like wad i learn in my bible study.. wad ive to do now is trust in the Lord.. pray that the right person will come by.

i hate it! i'll never take the bus back home alr, it's too torturing and painful. i'll juz take the train.



my fren and i didnt go in maths lecture today cos the teacher taught probability today.. we sat outside the lecture hall doing the probability tutorial haas... during poa cant concentrate at all argh. it's time to stop!



i wan to watch enchanted!! it's so nice..


this is my pair of eyes haha.. i got nth better to do.

YEAHHHhh i PASSED my FINAL THEORY TEST haha. im super duper HAPPY lols. it was rather scary cos final theory is more difficult than basic theory plus they test all the gears, pedals etc.. i was really scared to click on the button 'End Test' lols.. i clicked many times cos it juz dun wanna end test. finally the window popped out asking if i really wan to end test.. i didnt dare to click then rest back on the chair. then i decided juz click yes ba then i click then black screen wondering if it's a pass or fail lols. then it's pass haha i so happy then i went out of the room a big group of pple sitting out there wondering if i pass lols. they kept looking at my expression.. even the guy sitting on my rite during the test also wondering if i pass. then they know i pass cos i was smiling haha. then i printed the receipt out :) at last this burden is off dun need worry so much haha.


wish u are back.

tmr final theory test and i hope i'll pass. Lord give me wisdom for tmr's test and guide me thru the test. i think im really easily affected by pple lols cos my fren said he passed at second attempt and his fren passed at 3rd atttempt making me more worried..

today during banking many pple were collecting stuffs frm the front la so i tot it was notes. so my fren went down helped me collect then realised it was the first banking test. i tot i would just get a 70% or wad la.. then my fren passed my paper to me. i saw 25 out of 25 i so shocked. Thank God for it. i was like really super shocked cos that day he went thru then he was like saying this point muz haf this and tt then i dun haf ma. then came back he all close one eye sia then i got full marks zzz. today's banking test didnt study at all superb man and tt teacher's super lazy la haha same test paper for all. thnks kong but also useless man i didnt even study at all.. but thnks joyce for helping.. no choice i got ftt tmr i busy studying cos all my facts are jumbled out ahh.

like what she said mentality & determination// no answer then juz wait// reading it makes me more uneasy only. maybe i shld juz disappear for a period of time.

this coming tues is my final theory test im mugging hard for it so that i can pass for the first attempt but i neglected my banking test which is tmr.. i really need to buck up for banking, poa and econs & exams are nearing.. christmas and 2008 nearing too and it's gonna be a quiet night again..

this morning went to plmgss for plmc youth service. today's the first day the service was held at plmgss concert hall. my siblings and i went for it and we were late and we had to enter frm the front so embarrassing. most of the ushers are pl pple lols. i didnt really expect so many pple at the TNG(The Next Generation) service. so many teenagers there lols. went in concert hall my sis saw her fren le then sat together. i saw jessie as well playing the organ up the stage.. then other frens which i saw as well. Rev Peter Koh gave the message today.. then Pastor Reuben Ng was there as well to talk about the youth christmas service on 22nd dec. after which there was holy communion had to go down and take it..

after church service went kovan to eat & buy stuffs, went home followed by grandma's hse.. at grandma's hse played carrom board again.. all the uncles and my dad played hahah all pros de LOL. even my phd uncle came down juz to play dots. then juz now 3 of my uncles and my dad playing wif each other DAMM fun to watch. my auntie also play. rather those who knows how to play carrom all went play. so there were many pairs haha all take turns to play like some competition. whichever pair loses goes out then the next pair comes in.. there were 7 pairs wor.. so need to wait damm long for our turn.. then we were discussing to go for relatives outing.. talked abt wild wild wet, ice skating, zoo, night safari, cycling.. cos we went malacca together one whole group.. six cars driving up together then my dad leading lols. then we went lim chu kang farms & sungei buloh together as well fun!! we're planning to go together again to msia next year cos my cousin still young few mths old only..

i sseug mi gniod enif zuj taht nehw mi ton deipucco fiw sffuts i lliw leef ylenol neht trats ot ome niaga dna kniht fo mih. mi gniyrt drah ot pots gnikniht fo mih hgis. won eh si ta pmac tonnac ees mih enilno. i tnod neve erad ot gsm mih ta lla. i decrof flesym ton ot gsm mih neve hguoht i yllaer tnaw ot gsm mih os hcum. nehw i dehctaw esoht citnamor evol dnik fo amard slaires i dnet ot kniht fo mih hgra.

went cycling today. bro wanted to tag along so let him tag.. supposed to meet derick and kong at eunos mrt station at 1.30 then all of us were late lols. kong was still at ica waiting to do his passport thingy so went off wif derick & bro first. took 155 to east coast park and we had to ask the driver if it does go there & he said yea and he said he'll tell us when it's supposed to stop so nice of that uncle (: reached the bus stop alr then we had no idea how to walk there then this kind auntie came to ask us if we need help then she taught us how to walk till the underpass and we found it. reached east coast finally and saw the water skiing thingy so FUN i wan to try lols then saw the banner at every lamp post standard chartered spore marathon.

This is the banner..

After which we went to find the bicycle kiosk and walked rite for 30 mins juz to reach mac there zz. then kong has no idea how to go to east coast then taught him on the phone but then cannot find the underpass so he took cab to mac there wif his fren lols. we 3 went bicycle kiosk first then chose bikes got offer wor. 1 hour then next 1 hour free so it's really cheap. soon after kong came then also rented bike. then put stuffs in locker.. we cycled starting on the left side first.. cycle till we saw another bicycle kiosk then saw a grp of guys walking opposite then i find few of them familiar la then realised one of them is frm sr de.. kaiyuan.. then we both like shocked like tt.. then cycle & cycle go park at bridge there then derick took this photo.

LOL so windy la.

continued cycling then juz took random pics..

then while cycling saw this angmoh cycling and got this small cute little dog following it like mad la. the angmoh quite bad leh cos the dog is that kind not for training type.. it's like maltese that kind but the owner let it run after his bike for the whole east coast park distance then we juz followed it. everyone who go past the puppy all said eee so cute haha. we took a rest when we cycled for 90 mins like tt.. went to fitness corner there then they make me hang at the bar thingy for 5 secs zz then i feel so paiseh lols. wahlao both of them can do chin up man. so many times zz. derick took video of me zz.

turn on volume if wan to hear some voice lol.

After cycling dad fetched us to dhoby ghaut station cos i meeting mum at her facial place for manicure then both derick & kong took train home..

at facial there lols . my nailss.. manicure..

wondering what's he doing these few days..

dead tired.. went vivo today wif my "workplace" fren lols .. ate at superdog.. nice wor.. the ice lemon tea is freshly brewed de... but it tastes like english tea haha but i love it this way.. after that walked rd vivo then went to see the scenary at the 3rd floor.. nice wor. the cable car is so nice.. yea it would be nice to haf dinner up there..

anw knocked down previous table and my room was in a mess. all the internet were disconnected on tues nite then cant find the rite wire to fix it back cos all the wires were unplugged. that's why dced frm msn for 1 hour plus. this is the new ikea table. DIY de. looks empty haha cos haven put stuffs there yet..

where did he go? why not online.. IM him. he's online finally but i dun dare talk dots.

maybe it's time to stop. im not needed.

this is taken frm someone's blog.. i agree wif it. Life makes a sport of all of us one time or another. Things never go the way we want them to and somehow, when things don't go our way, it happens at the worst possible time. When you think that by making some decisions to move on from where you are , to start piecing pieces back together, you end up having more pieces fall apart, more questions unanswered.

this blog tends to be my personal diary. i tend to say everything here and confide in here as well. probably i shld lock this blog or wad. im blogging frequently and i think tt's not good.. i juz shelf all my stuffs aside.. my studies, quiet time, driving etc. and now im thinking whether to change the date of the final theory test.. i wanted to change but the earliest is only in late feb. ive trial test as well but it cant be changed. i think i shld juz go for it. i really hope i can pass.. but i need motivation to study.. Lord i hope u'll give me this motivation to carry on with life..

can someone pls tell me wad shld i do? instead of making him happy, i make him sad and disappointed.. now i think the more i say the worse it becomes. how i dun wan this to happen.. im angry wif myself. now im like making things worse.. i cant even salvage the situation.. i caused more hurt to him. Lord, pray that you'll give him strength & happiness in wadever he does and that yr angels will encamp ard him and watch over him. Pray that he'll recover soon and that u'll guide him throughout this difficult moments..

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not just somebody just to get me throught the night

Every morning when I'm awake
I've this nostalgic feeling
I hope to see the familiar message
Of greetings we send to each other
However it is no longer there anymore
No longer there anymore

I'm seriously sorry for what i've done

I sincerely seek for your forgiveness

I regretted what i said and wished

It would be erased away

I hope for things to turn back

Clinging onto every hope I have

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

I wish for that moment to come

For I'm waiting for that day to come

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

ive decided to change my final theory test date cos it's next tues and im not prepared at all & i dont think i can study for the next few days.

the way we talk to each other is totally different now.. so formal worse than how frens talk.. it's not even like the way we talk be4 we're together. right now there's nth i can do to make him happy wor sadded cos i disappoint him too much le. im really sorry.

i really hope things will not continue like this. past 3 days i stop crying alr & yet recently ive started crying secretly again. i cant sleep.. i know my family is worried for me.. my mum cried when we were at church on sunday & i heard she has been crying secretly as well.. she consult ms teo when ms teo called. i dun wan her to worry for me.. i dunno why time seems to passs very slowly. i tot this happened like 2 weeks ago.. but it's last thurs only. 5 days passed only.. sometimes i got no appetite to eat but ive to force myself to eat.. i dun wan to see my parents worried for me again..

i read the news about the dragon-boaters and i feel sad for them. 5 lives were lost juz like that. their families are devastated for losing their precious children. it makes me realise how fortunate am i to be able to live in this world. One of the victims is mr jeremy goh who's frm sim-uol. even though ive not seen him or known him be4, i can tell he's really a good fren to many pple. i saw video clips on straits times interactive where his closest frens were interviewed and his frens were very sad.. It makes me realise how unpredictable our lives are. we must always treasure the pple ard us and cherish the precious moments. i hope that families of the victims & well as the dragon boaters will be strong and they muz pull themselves up..


Pictures for ice skating























haha my 5 year old cousin.. see the small girl rite infront. tt's her. she knows how to skate but she refused to take away the metal bar thingy.























my cousins and bro.. my aunt's at the back..
























my aunt teaching me how to skate.. lols i was scared..

























LOL look at my 5 year old cousin in the middle.. she's so small compared to other pple at the rink..

what am i doing..

Part of the 翅膀 song

空气中藏著你的香味
回忆里躲著你的眼泪
最后拥抱的温暖还有一些
看一看回忆是云朵一朵朵的飘过
若想要回头就无法傲翔
since i love him i should trust him.. why am i not like my fren.. wad the hell am i doing.. now it's his exam period moreover & i didnt even know till i read his blog. yea both of us are confused now. there're many misunderstandings btwn us. i didnt mean to hurt u.. i really wish we can clear all the misunderstandings.. i shldnt just jump into conclusion. it seems that we're drifting apart and i really dont wish to see that. i'll not haf doubts abt him anymore.

i know u all are trying to help me thnks alot but not to worry i know wad im doing and i trust myself k.. i know that wadever is ahead and wadever that happens, God always has a plan for us and he has a purpose for doing that. God will not forsake us & he will continue to live in our lives.

北极星的眼泪

像断了线 消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去 你的脸
再等一会 奢望流星会出现
愿 如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天 或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远

北极星的眼泪 说不出的想念
原来我们活在 两个世界
北极星的眼泪 你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言 淹没在心里面
我抬头看着 爱不见

再等一会 奢望流星会出现
愿 如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天 或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远

当对的人 等不到对的时间
就在放开手的瞬间 爱撕成两边

整个宇宙都 流眼泪

我可以

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你
幸福它真的不容易

im currently fine & i tot over it already :) i shldnt think too much. gosh i added more stress to him only. sorry.. only make him sad and stressed up. howhowhhow?.. i borrowed the final theory guide book frm ryuo, thnks alot.. cos he was a student at there so got that book. mine is the 400 qns de no info at all lols have to memorise frm qns which is quite difficult i guess. today's econs lecture was abit dry cos all formulas only meaning those different variables and symbols. can u imagine 10 over pages full of those variables and words. banking was quite interesting cos it's the female lecturer who's lecturing. she's so much interesting compared to jonathon peh. at least i manage to listen most of it and not stone during the lesson. and i juz realised that prelims's in feb when she was talking abt it during lecture. i was shocked. 2 mths plus left only. i better start studying soon.. oh yea this sat i guess im gg ice skating again lols. my cousins are addicted to it haha. there's piano lesson tmr.. replacement lesson..

mh: nope i didnt tell them at all. of course i wouldnt haha or else i'll be in a deep deep trouble haha.

:) im feeling better today.. at last he msged me wifout me msging first. i was overjoyed lols. anw wishing him all the best in his exams.. jiayou all the way. dun be stressed up. once this hurdle is over u can enjoy yr holis le :)

the post after this post is abt the ice skating thingy & at grandma's hse. since the post too long i create another new post ba..

anw i shall reply the tags here.
ryuo: yup i try not to post emo de. yep next time go ice skating muz be well prepared. didnt know u know how to skate wor haha.
josh: di faster come back spore wor (:
mh: yep hope God will open up my parents' mind but partly cos im the kind who takes up easily but cant put down easily. i'll be very emotional cos i put too much feelings into it.. they're afraid it'll affect my studies since it has alr happened be4 during A levels.
kong: wad u think ur doing lols. tt's lame.
mel: yupp hope so.. i'll remain strong (: thnks alot. u too take care as well.

thnks for concerns.. it's like i went msn then pple asking me how am i etc.. thnksss alot (: anw today had fun cos i went ICE SKATING! haha first time. actually i didnt wan to go cos of usual reason but my bro and cousin kept forcing me to go haas so i went. however all of us didnt wear jeans. i wore shorts, my cousins, bro and aunt wore till knee that kind of pants.. then my aunt said nvm juz go.. reach there realised no socks no gloves lols but they provided gloves.. then we didnt wear socks.. since first time skate.. my aunt taught us how to tie the laces of the shoes.. after which all of us were looking for the metal bar thingy then i was the only one who dun haf then i dun dare go in the rink.. after which my uncle managed to get one for me cos i cant walk wif that shoes thingy. after which he helped me to get in the rink lor.. then i realised every single one wore jeans. i was the only one who wore shorts dots. then the metal bar so low somemore, i had to make sure the front is okies cos my top is loose.. moreover those holding the walker thingy were only 5 year old kids. i felt so paiseh la. then i skate and skate and i fell dots on my knee cap. it was painful ouch. then i juz stood up and continued skating. not long after tt, this young guy who's one of those pple who watches the safety of everyone suddenly talked to me.. he said i teach u how to skate.. juz bring up yr 2 hands and skate v shape kind can de.. then i said i scared to fall moreover i fell juz now.. then he talked so much only to realised that he wanted me to give the metal bar to smaller kids cos he said many of them dun haf. then he added this metal bar thingy is only for 1.2m and below. at that time the small kids were surrounding me alr to ask me for it. i damm ps. then i juz give them.. then my bro was there then he argued wif the guy la.. then all of them waiting outside the rink cos they got blisters. i didnt have any at all haha but i juz went out as well then i took out the shoes only to realise there's BLOOD on my knee cap ahh. then i quicky went to the shoes counter there and tried to get my the other shoe back cos i said my knee's hurt. the same guy was there again instead he gave me a plaster zz cos cant take back shoe. anw thnk him for giving me a plaster even though i din know they have haha. after which my uncle came back wif socks and plaster wow. thnk my uncle.. he's so nice and thoughtful. then continued skating but i was the last one to go in again cos no metal bar thingy. then my aunt held me and taught me to skate.. quite fun though it was scary. then juz skate at the side.. my aunt told me to balance and skate wifout holding anything and i did it wif a few steps yippie but most of the time one hand was grabbing something.. thnk my aunt for teaching me so patiently. anw it was fun overall. my uncle took photos and videos.. i shall post it when he sends me.. after ice skating went back grandma's hse at 7pm.. and it was juz nice for dinner time.. all of us ate together.. as usual cousins all sit at those olden time tt kind of chairs there all gathering.. some of us at floor cos no space.. then all chit chatting.. adults all sat at the usual big oval table.. be4 that my cousins were playing carrom board.. after dinner all of us played and challenged.. my uncles and dad played as well.. they're good at it haha but we kids aint bad as well.. my cousin participate in the carrom board competition be4 and won.. but we're better than her LOL =x. all of us can play well LOL. played till 9 plus i guess then went back then brought carrom board back.. back home bro and dad competing wif each other... my bro's good at it. same as my dad ba.. so hard to say who win lor. normally i pair up wif my bro play against 4 other pairs de haha.. many pple play carrom at my dad's side..

my final theory test is coming omgosh la it's on dec 4th and banking test's on dec 3rd. at this point of time i wonder how am i gg to survive. final theory test is more important but these few days my mind got no mood to do anything. hope i can persevere on. i muz study my final theory test alr. thnks ryuo for offering to help me in revising for the final theory test and also for talking wif me last nite.. today had bbq supposed to be a bbq for my bro's, sis's and my frens de. but due to some stuffs it was changed to family bbq.. so my relatives came over.. i was at first rather not into the bbq thingy cos ive no mood. but during bbq.. i enjoyed myself talking wif my relatives and cousins.. it's like whenever im wif my relatives we play and talk and it's really like a big family gathering. it's really warm and it's really nice.. then we play the party streamers.. i ate fried bee hoon, curry chicken, satay, chicken wing and i bbqed mashmallows. many others like prawns, pork chop, sweet potato etc i never eat.. i got like no mood to eat much. after tt i ate chocolates frm japan. it's like so nice never seen that kind of chocolate be4. one was like crisy kind de the other chocolate is all chocolate but muah kee that kind soft de.. i used my hand to take then it's like gg to drop LOL. then suddenly all my cousins are gone except me and xy.. then we busy bbqing mashmallows.. then went up to my hse cos we know they muz be playing carrom. so went up then only seen 3 pairs of slippers-my bros and 2 cousins. then the rest were at the playground playing wif the small children.. soon after tt they came up.. ard 10 of us children were at my hse plus my uncle.. then my sis and i need to take care of the 2 year old de. suddenly she said she wanna go urinate then both my sis and i brought her to the toilet and i carried her up the toilet bowl lol. then after toilet she wans to play piano.. then let her sit and play.. then she anyhow play haha then she flipped the books then ask me hold the page for her zz then i hold.. then she plays and my 14 year old cousin and i wanted to play but she shoo our hands off haha. then after she played she flipped again and asked me to hold the page for her LOL. so cute rite. then my 9 year old cousin saw the rush hour mind boogling puzzle in my room and she wans to play so took it out to living room. me, she and 5 year old cousin played rush hour. woah my 5 year old cousin knows who to play rush hour cos she has one that is almost similar at home as well. then my 2 year old cousin wans to join in and she tries to put those trucks and car on top of the puzzle thingy haha then my 5 year old cousin stopped her and got pissed off lols. after tt they wanted to play heart attack so i played wif them.. so 3 of us playing. then 2 year old cousin wanted to play and she joined in. she said "heart attack" so loudly HAHA and placed her hand down on floor so cute la. she dunno how to play so my 5 year old cousin was angry and said told her to get away cos she dunno how to play.. then she was super angry la haha. then my 2 year old cousin still heart attack all the way haha. they were 27 pple in my hse all at living room. everyone sitting ard on floor and chair.. then whole hse very noisy can feel the warmth :) then my dad switched on the 2 big aircons in the living room.. everyone stayed till 11pm then they went off.. glad that my mind was distracted tonite..

this is the worse period of my life.. why are things getting this way. why am i so affected? i put too much deep feelings inside it alr. i must rmb the fact that i do not have much experience and hence i cant take this situation well. it's true that eventually we may not end up forever someday somehow we muz be be prepared for this heart breaking day. since it's 1 mth and im alr so sad wad more few mths.. thnks to all who comforted, persuaded and counselled me.. thnks kong for helping to distract my mind frm this till near 3 am last nite.. and my junior for talking wif me for the whole afternoon. i know all yr good intentions & yr concerns for me.. i've to pyscho my mind so that i wont feel that sad.. some tell me juz forget abt this some tell me no juz wait.. i think time will tell everything that's wad my frens say.. sometimes i wonder how he feels abt this but i dun dare to ask.. i still rmb he tells me dun put haiz. so every post i always rmb not to haiz cos he dun wan to see me sad. i wan things to turn out tt way but it's not. actually the hurt ive now cannot be compared cos it's really great. wad i can do now is to be strong :)

last nite i slept at 3.30 am.. i woke up at 6 something and suddenly tot of it and cried again. after which i never sleep at all. im super tired. mentally and physically.

to him if he's reading this. thnks for the moments we spent together for a period of 1 mth. i had many happy memories like at airport, amk hub, bishan park, stadium etc. u added colours to my life and make me haf a different perspective of r/s in my life. thnks for being there for me & for being caring and concern towards me..

why must this happened at this point of time when we're doing well. 1 mth only. im glad to know him.. my life became different.. i'll never forget 21st oct.. it will forever be in my memories.. if there's fate.. even after a period of time.. there's still chance. i must always rmb it's not the end. we're still frens and we can still go out wif each other.. the only difference is the status which is impt to me as well.. i really hope things can turn back.. im juz too affected. actually i dun mind if it cannot be an open one.. dun be too obvious can alr.. i really wan to be wif him. the pain i have is terrible rite now. i really hope my parents' mindset can be changed. although they dun mind me going wif him alone as frens but wad's the point.. frens only. Lord, i know that u want the best for yr children.. it's not that we're doing something that is dishonourable & disgraceful to yr name.. i know we muz be honourable to our parents but they're juz being too narrow-minded. I really hope their mindset can be changed.. our thinking is not that far yet but seriously if someone ask me if he's suitable to be part of my life i'll say yes. i still rmb during my workplace when ashikah was asking jason if he ever tot if his gf is suitable to be his wife.. he said he dun mind and as long as they're together till they're of marriagable age why not.

yes? no? i dont know.


time passes fast yeaaaa. coming 1 mth alr.. 25 days..


i think it's time for me to meet my frenss.. didnt meet them for so long alr.. miss themm..

ouch the mosquito bites are still there.. so itchy cant stop myself frm scratching.. argh. went facial wif mum and sis today and all of us did pedicure as well.. i chose a dark pink colour.. when the beautician was doing i was feeling quite bad cos it's like she's helping us to massage, scrub etc our feets. then she needs to move the stuffs here and there.. quite poor thing leh. i did facial first followed by pedicure. i love the ambience there.. the lightings and interior design are nice.. there's also those classical music being played.. everything ended at 7.45 after which walked over to plaza sing. since sis had piano tonite we juz bought stuffs at bysi.. i think their clothes are modern even though they're quite matured.. after which went back to haf our dinner..

omgosh die die ive been slacking all day long. i better buck up and work hard.

today's maths lecture was just purely teaching on simple, & compound interest and also savings. apparently we learnt it during our sec sch days. the lecture notes are only 4 pages but she took 3 hours to do that topic cos she went thru some egs. mrs mena told us today's lesson will be her last lesson teaching us, another teacher will teach us stats frm next week onwards. it seems sad like tt but then everyone cant wait for her lessons to be over. after maths was poa and it was rather fast. the teacher wrote many stuffs on the board & rushing like a bullet train then many of us are copying it hurriedly. we're behind time i guess.. after poa went meet at amk hub.. went arcade to see a while be4 heading to the library. the books there are rather little even though the library is big.. after which went walk rd the park and i got 8 mosquito bites frm there lol. then he bought bubble tea and cheese fries then we ate at the void deck then headed home.. then.........

i guess im too free ba hahas. time passes super fast and now's coming to christmas..

HAPPY BDAY PENG SIANG & MING!

today's rather boring.. i think i shld do something meaningful. anw im gg to beijing for 5 days frm 19 dec to 23 dec. im super excited cos this will be the first time ever to sit SIA flight lols. oh ya not forgetting my first time experiencing snow as well. cant wait for tt day to arrive..


anw i recd another msg in the morning at 5am.. the msg is 'hey.. just a short msg here to let u know i haven't forgotten u nor given up.. i really hope things will return to e past one day.. take care'. pls for goodness sake juz leave me alone. wad u've done is a great impact in my life. i cannot forget wad u did and how u treat me. this ending is wad u deserve. i really dont wish to be cheated anymore.

shall blog abt today.. guess wad i forgot to set my alarm on my phone. freak arh lol cos i went to charge my phone overnite. talked last nite till my batt left 4%. phew my maid woke me up at 6.50am but it's still late lols. i quickly rush like mad.. brush up, bathe, choose my clothes etc.. by the time it was 7.25am alr.. then when i reached the bus stop.. i waited so long for the bus argh by the time it was 7.40.. then i took 112 bus to the busstop of 151.. the 151 express bus had left quite long ago so i was left wif no choice but to take the usual 151 bus. as usual the bus was quite filled up alr and the time was alr 7.55. apparently i was late for sch and moreover it was econs lecture.. reached the lecture hall at 8.50 and when i walked in many eyes turned and looked at me. was late plus rite the lecture hall is the the small group kind ard 100 pple there. after econs was banking. the teacher is so boring sigh and practically everyone was stoning at the teacher haha. he's the worst teacher i ever seen. i can juz study banking on my own. the study guide's much better than his lecture notes seriously. after banking lesson i went wif joyce to vivo cos we're meeting peng siang there for dinner at 5pm . wow it has been long since i last visited vivo. went to walk round the 1st and 2nd floor. went in build a bear shop to see.. all the bears are so cuteeeeee haa :) we went many many boutiques.. then when we're at zara.. ps called joyce and he came to find us.. after which we went marche to eat.. i think heeren village is better than marche even though both's almost the same. we finished ard 7 plus then went starbucks to chill. shared wif joyce java chip while ps bought some hot coffee stuffs?? not sure.. then we were talking abt econs lecturer cos he's super lame. the egs he gave are "cold". then told ps abt that particular crocodile and ck brands eg. all of us laughed like mad la lol. after which since it was joyce's dad bday today we had to go back early. so after which we went back le....




im super disturbed.. got flooded wif msges and calls juz now. can u juz leave me alone pls. i know ur trying to make me think of u using psychology methods. argh.
irritating.. called me but i purposely miss it then he msged hey charmaine i cant understand why u're doin this to me, but all i wanna let u know is tt i miss u v much n i've realised ur importance to me so pls come back. so i replied back sorry im not able to do so. then he called and i miss it again and he msged i know ur're there but u just cant forgive me or sth right..? all i wanna let u know is tt i really just wish for one last chance to love u like how i should.. then he called twice and i missed it. then he msged honestly running away wont solve anything.. it'll just make me worse than i alr am n i aint gonna give up really.. pls just gimme five mins of ur time pls. then called 3 times i missed it then he msged alrite shall not bug u anymore.. good luck to ur current relationship hope he treats u well n u'll be happy.. pls take care of yrself.. i miss you. then tt's the end he never calls or msg le. called 7 times in juz less than 20 mins. crazy.

hmm sch started alr ever since 31st july. i purposely chose my time-table in such a way that i go to sch for only 2 days. great rite haa? anw because there're only 4 modules which ive to take meaning 4 lectures to attend per week. each lecture is 3 hours and there's no tutorials at all. all the tutorials are gone thru during lecture.. the bad part is there are no classes so it's like everyone goes for the lecture then after lecture everyone heads outside the sch alr. luckily be4 sch started i went for the 1 day freshman orientation.. make frens there and found out some of my sec sch frens are there & i think quite a number of my jc schmates r there too.. not only there, i went wif jiaying to the tennis camp.. make even more frens and coincidentally pearl lam is in the same group as me.. i was so glad haa. tennis camp was fun. we had those pick up lines stuffs of games which was super funny. we had post camp dinner after tt as well at heeren village but not many turned up. mostly were seniors and there were quite a number of them.. back to school stuffs, lessons are boring especially banking.. maths teacher was like quite boring as well and most of us have no idea wad's she talking abt due to her indian accent.. but gradually we get used to it and we slowly understand her lecture.. oh ya exams are like next year end may only pretty long to exams lol. hope i can do well for the exams..


ive long forgotten that person.. ive alr thought for very long and it's juz impossible.. anw that's past and history alr. wish tt e person wont contact me anymore i hope. but even if that person wans to contact i also wont reply nor call back cos wad he done to me was far too great an impact on me alr. besides now im currently doing well.. leading a happy life :) hope this can last forever :)


i'll update my blog often whenever ive time yups.

i decided to revive my blog yesterday.. so i continued changing the skin and stuffs. my blog's really deserted lol. many pple changed links alr... i think i'll update pple tmr..

omgosh. i highlighted my hair. wanted a colour that blends wif my hair. but it turns out like golden. the hairdresser insisted on me cutting my fringe also cos she thinks i'll look like wif short fringe. i said dun wan. but she said juz try... looks cute. i was like i dun wan to be cute. zz... in the end she cut. at first cut still okie.. the shorter she cuts.. looks too short alr. sigh. my fringe became so short.

wow after such a long time. i finally changed my skin and updated this blog. im finally quitting iras hahas. last day 4th july.

it has been long since i posted lols. anw it seems that i deserted this blog eh. i'll update the links one day when im free.. now working too busy le..

no time to change the background and blog.. cos im currently working at iras.. it was tough.. need to attend the training then ans calls.. i think admin is better lor.. same salary also.. 6.50 per hour..

i changed the background.. add something to the pic.. links not done yet.. but the background seems too bright and striking.. it doesnt match like tt..

under construction

i juz hope each day will be filled with happiness and that the next day will be a new beginning for me..

i went back to pl wif mel today. wow the whole sch's changed.. when we reached there, some teachers were there.. HODs plus vp. then both of us dare not go in frm the front cos there were reporters there. lol. then rite.. we decided to walk in frm the side gate. lol. saw few seniors there. we walked rd the whole sch... saw some teachers and said hi to them.. the sch's really very nice.. but the toilets were divided into 2. then the murals cant be properly. wat a waste.. then the sch hall is big.. 4 court size.. then the auditorium too but there were some works going on.. oh there's lift too.. finally... i wonder who is it for.. teachers only? then mr tang talked to us.. lol... i saw my cousin.. then saw esther wong too.. she came wif huiwen, shuyan and cherlyn.. oh 3 of them went back to become relief teachers. lol... after that juz see then went off le..

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

i dun feel like continuing the post abt prom.. cos i wan to blog abt my trip to genting. my cousin came along wif us cos my sister complained that my bro and i dare not sit space shot so she wans my cousin to accompany her for tt ride lol. first day of genting. everyone woke up at 6am. my sis didnt sleep at all cos she was afraid she couldnt wake up. left the hse at 6 something to fetch my cousin from her hse. we went to tuas checkpt.. to our surprise there was no jam at all.. only 4 cars were there.. so went past the checkpt quickly.. reached genting abt 1pm cos ate lunch too.. waited very long to check in first world hotel not because there were too little counters.. there were lots of them.. 20 over.. it's the processing of the keys and rooms.. my dad was at the counter at least 45 mins.. the lady said the room was no ready.. so haf to wait. we booked 2 superior rooms cos my cousin came along wif us.. actually we booked the world club room.. it's spacious.. has living room... very big.. but not enough for 6 pple which includes my cousin. at last the rooms were ready.. we went to the hotel rooms.. but they are non-connecting and the rooms are not side by side.. there was a room inbtwn.. so we had to walk to and fro.. my sis, cousin and i stayed one room.. my parents and bro stayed the other room.. it's at the 12th floor.. after that, we unpacked the stuff and rest for a while.. then we went shopping at first world.. my mum shopped as usual but we decided to go play.. so my dad brought us.. and my bro, cousin and i rock-climbed... it's indoor.. juz beside the one and only food court there.. omgosh. at first nobody was there... then i started to rock climb first cos my cousin and bro dun wan to do first.. they forced me to go first.. fine so i went first.. i never rock climb before so i was afraid i couldnt get up. lol. but quite ok la.. but once i started to climb, there were more and more crowds.. so embarrassing.. i was stuck when i climbed cos no suitable stone (is that called stone?) was there for me to hold on and step.. then i got no more strength so i decided to stop climbing and jumped.. then when i jumped, i hit the other side of the wall.. everyone was laughing like mad lol.. then next was my bro.. he's so thin but he managed to climb.. he had no strength halfway thru. lol. then my cousin climbed. she got so much strength.. she climbed higher than both of us.. but none of us can complete cos it's 2 stories high.. after that we walked and decided to go to the arcade.. but my sis, dad and i were tired cos we slept very little hours the night before.. my sis didnt sleep at all.. then my mum called to meet us cos she needs the world card frm my dad to accumulate pts. then we decided to go back to the hotel and rest first.. so my dad, sis, cousin and i went back to the hotel.. my bro wans to play so he followed my mum.. at the part where we went to different ways, we were outside the casino.. i wanted to go in to see.. so i asked my dad. then my dad dun wan cos he said see only then not fun.. he wans to play.. but i was not sure if it's 18 or 21.. so i went to the rules and regulation board.. it stated 21 and above.. dots.. i wanted to go in to fake but my dad dun wan to go... so we went back to hotel.. instead of resting we went down to starbucks to use the laptop till 6.30pm before we brought it up.. we bought lollipops frm starbucks cos need to buy some stuff as we used the wireless internet there.. i had only 10 ringgit wif me so cant buy drinks. not enough money.. the drinks cost at least 10 bucks. then i brought my cousin and bro across the big road to the outside of outdoor theme park. we saw the flying coaster.. so fun and decided to take that ride the next day. we went back hotel then went to the food court without my sis (she's sick) to eat hot rock. very nice food.. they heated the stone to over 100 degree celsius.. then put it on the plate.. put raw chicken on it with cinnamon.. there's also plain rice. we are supposed to cook the chicken ourselves and eat it.. yummy.. then we went to play arcade.... fun.. we got 428 tix.. after that went back hotel.. ate supper.. played uno till 1am.. shall continue tmr..

it's has been long since i blog.. anw i shall talk abt prom.. it was on nov 30th at marina mandarin.. ya it's marina mandarin again. sec 4 was there too lol. i wanted to wear that black dress which my mum bought early this year when we went shopping. my mum tot it shld be ard the hse since it's not worn before. ive been askin mum to find it... there are like too many clothes in the whole hse.. all stacked up.. very difficult to find.. 2 days before prom nite, my mum realised it's wif the manufacturer. omgosh i was so sad.. cant wear that dress.. so the next day my mum and i went orchard to find.. i dun even like the dresses.. went to future london.. i saw deepa.. then went daniel yan i saw 1 sr girl.. but i dun like the dresses there.. later my sis came to meet us.. then we left orchard at 9 plus to go to city plaza cos there's one gown shop there. my mum's shop there anw. tried the dresses there.. and finally found one. yippie. the bottom is super duper fluffy man. all lace.. it's black. wanted to buy white. but i think too attracting attention.. haha. then white's easily dirtied so bought black more class anw. haha. then on the prom day.. my cousin came to my hse. tt day was super busy for my mum cos she needs to collect my dress as it was being altered. then my mum came back to send me to a nearby salon for styling my hair. new hairstyle.. it's super high lol. then went back home. my mum and sis busy doing my cousin hair plus our make-up.. my cousin's hair done by my sis and touched up by my mum. omgosh every thinks my cousin went to salon to do... she didnt lol. they said her hairstyle looks like it's been done by a professional. wow my sis is so tt good haha. so both of us chose our heels and bags.. all last minute hahah. then my mum sent us to the hotel.. she wanted to go down to see.. i stopped her cos so embarrassing. entered the hotel.. so many pple there.. eyes were on both my cousin and i.. whenever someone enters, everyone will look hahahha cos everyone wore so nice on that day.. wow my friends also went salon.. they looked different man.. pretty.. then we hid at a corner and dun let anyone to see hahah.. but we were being asked to move to another side.. wow the dressing is totally different frm sec 4.. for sec 4 prom, everyone wore gown and dresses.. it's like so formal that time... for jc, omgosh.. pple wore short kind of dresses with a top hat.. boots... omgosh. different dressing.. then got one dress up like a bar girl.. i shall continue another day.. anw im going to genting tmr till thurs.. shall continue on fri..

i think i can only blog tmr. haha. i juz came back only.. super tired.. it's 12 plus plus le..

omgosh.. ever since the last day of A levels which is 17th nov.. frm tt very day till today i went to orchard shopping.. bought like so many stuff man.. it's shopping spree... haha.

it's been more than a mth since i posted an entry. my gosh. anw As OVER!!!! YEAHH!!!!!! i can enjoy myself!!!!!!!

22 DAYS LEFT

30 MORE DAYS TO A LEVELS!!!

36 MORE DAYS TO A LEVELS!

PRELIMS ARE OVER :) HURRAY!

prelim papers are all killers. difficult man.

isnt there any decent person out there. im sure there's one. not all of them are like tt rite. i hope i'll get to meet tt person soon. i really hope so. my life's in a struggle... everything seem so orderly.. but the next moment it's not.

prelims has already started... start of torturing days... it's like a cycle.. study, eat, sleep, exam.. study, eat, sleep, exam.. and it's gonna repeat for these few days.. i cant wait for prelims to be over.. i wan to go out.. hahas.

i dun understand why guys r juz jerks.. not all but some. i dun understand them.. haiz..

wah. i never go in here to blog alr. vv long. anw life is very rushing.. cant catch up.. i heard yjc is going to finish their prelims alr.. they end before the sept holidays. so fast... then sr have study leave next week but need to go back next wed for gp prelim.. tt's my weakest subject.. i really hope to get a pass and im satisfied alr... i better go do some reading up... anw tt's abt it..

it has been long since i typed an entry... we build Singapore's longest sandcastle... cool right??? we took many pics.. the sandcastle's so nice.. im trying to upload the photos here.. but how to?? i dunno how. haha. i shall put it on webbie then...

the link is:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2103241150

haiz why am i always reminded of tt incident. how i wish i can juz forget it but i cant seem to forget. why muz it happen around this time. sigh.

yippie. thnks keng ngee. she persuaded them to go for prom. YEAA!!!! so is 11 pple. HURRAY!!!!!!!!!!

im so pissed off by this thing. all backed out last minute. u know how i feel. im trying hard to find pple to get back all yr deposit. in the first place when i persuaded u all.. u all said ok. now all dun want. u all put yrself in my shoes. what if yr friends are like tt, how u feel. i've no idea what to do alr. haizz. so sorry to minghui's class. im trying to find pple asap.. :( i need 2 replacements.

i bet everyone hate leeches rite. haha. but i actually had one juz next to me. the person juz stick to me all day long. arhhh. imitating my actions.. sometimes following whatever i say... plus many more. sigh. i have no choice. anyway she cant be blamed. life is really hectic. everything's fast-going. i think i better start mugging soon for prelims. they's only 5 weeks left to gp prelims. fast yea. im already freaking for A levels. anyway i got quite alot of holidays for this term. for the 1st 2 weeks for this term, it was our mid-years so there wasnt any lessons. juz last wed, it was srjcian's day so we had celebrations only. on 8th aug, my sch is going down to east coast park to build the longest sandcastle in singapore and i cant wait for tt day to come. 9th and 10th of aug are holidays and 11th too cos my sch has i-learn (like pl's cyberweek). there'll be no sch on 25th aug. this is supposed to be the holiday for the elections tt took place. they decided to put it on 25th cos on the 24th, the teachers will be having teachers day dinner. on 28 aug to 1 sept, it will be study leave.. on teacher's day i'll be going back to pl yea. shld be. then 4th to 8th sept is the sept holidays. yeaaa. but those holidays are meant for us to study. 4 weeks of term 3 has already passed.. i cant wait for prelims to come.. A levels too. i got like so many programs and plans at hand which i want to do after As.. i really hope time will pass very fast.

HAPPY SRJCian's DAY!!!

today is srjcian's day. received alot of stuff.. the sch gave us a plastic water bottle each. nice design. i took the red one.. then they gave us a note pad which has the sch on the cover page... then miss foo gave us a test-tube with some chemical solution inside. got alot of colour. mine is blue.. i think it's copper (II) sulphate. then got a transparency with our name, miss foo's name and a quote.. then got glitters inside.. so when u turn the test-tube it's like glitters all over it.. very nicee.e... love it man. haha. then mrs wong gave us a felt-pen. the $0.90 one. haha. then gave us a small football chocolate and also treated us to can drinks. cant believe she's s generous. my class pple asked her to treat us to mcdonalds but she didnt want. hahahaha.. gave us all kinds of excuses. then mr ang gave us ferrero rocher.. dunno how to spell. haha.. then today's celebration was super funnyyyy. cant stand the 2 guys who wore girl's uniform and acting sissy. so funny lor. then someone was being made into a tiger beer. it was so hilarious when tt person couldnt walk properly. hahahaha. then got superstar... it's really like singapore idol... got supporters holding the posters and stuff... then the winner was frm JC 1.. president of eldds i heard..

got back my mid-year results.. my class didnt perform well... probably due to world cup. hahaha. anyway, the first paper i got back was maths paper 1. i got 62 out of 100. highest in class.. i cant believe it. thank God for it. then i got back chem paper 3 too. i got 42 out of 100. highest was 49. lolx. all so low... physics paper 3 got 44 out of 100. at first i got 40.5 then i asked for marks and got 3.5 marks. haha. i was really thankful for physics cos i didnt really study thoroughly for it. i was still struggling to finish studying them the night before the exam. then highest was 47. chem paper 2 i got 30.25 out of 60.. paper 1 still dunno.. then physics paper 1 got 14 out of 30.. then today got back physics paper 3.. i got 52 out of 90. can get 4 more marks if i didnt make tt amplifier mistake. what a waste la. i was highest in class too and i was shocked. HAHAH. really want to thank God for everything. He guides me thru the exams so that i can do my best.... i was really shocked for my mid-year exams cos i didnt really study way before it like during the june holis. i was playing thruout and even the day before the exam.. i was still playing and studying. in the end i had to stay up till 1 am to finish studying.. i think i better buck up for prelims and study earlier or else im going to be panicky when the time comes.

AT LAST and finally mid-year exams are over. anyway it was the worst exams i ever had... the exams lasted for 2 weeks. pretty long and all were full sitting like A levels. i sat for 2 maths papers and each paper lasted for 3 hours.. but 3 hours seem to pass very fast... juz a moment, the time is up and i need more time to complete the paper lol. anw i can only depend on paper 1 for maths. paper 2 was a gone case. then for chem, paper 1 was disastrous cos i had no time. very little time. then paper 2 was pretty easy. the questions were attempable. but paper 3 was another disastrous one. for physics which juz ended today.. paper 1 was disastrous.. no time. i think i need to speed up alot inorder to finish the paper.. paper 2 was ok too but i realised i memorised some stuff wrongly :( sigh. i lost some marks alr.. i left some questions blank.. 7 marks gone. 4 marks gone for explanation too. paper 3 was disastrous too. so tedious.. haizz.. it seems to be a trend that paper 1 and 3 are more difficult compared to paper 2. haha. hope i can pass all the subjects at most..

i'll update after mid-year.. no time noww....

HURRAY!!! yesterday was bridge competition at CJC. thank God for everything... we improved alot. anw we had to meet at 7.35 am ouside CJC yesterday cos the competition starts at 8 am. had problems getting into CJC cos there wasnt any exit.. finally reached CJC and i was the last one to reach. the time was 7.30.. everyone reached earlier than me. HAHA. after tt, we walked in to CJC... then reached the competition venue which was the dance studio i guess. there were only CJC and HCI pple.. i think HCI brought their whole bridge club there. there were 6 teams.. each team had 4-6 pple. so can u imagine the place filled wif HCI. lolx. CJC also had many teams.. i think 5 or 6.. RJC had 6 i think.. i saw many pple there too.. only 2 girls frm RJC and they're frm china. haha. there were 30 over RJC pple i think. so many.. in a total, we played 7 rounds yesterday and each round has 6 boards. so we played 42 games altogether.. it was supposed to be 8 rounds but due to time constraint, the last round was cancelled. then the whole competition ended at 6 plus. then it was prize presentation. top 5 teams got trophies. there were 36 teams altogether. and one of our teams - Hui neng, jeremy, amanda and khai mun got 5th.. HURRAY!! they got trophy.. they beat so many JCs.. then for minghui, wanyi, charles and me.. we got 7th.. YEAHH!!! we were so happy lor.. the other team also did well.. they did better than what we did last year since they're still new.. WELL DONE!!!

i shall talk abt the 7 rounds tt we played. really exciting.. the first round was against HCI.. two china guys. really humourous and friendly. we won them anyway.. HAHA. in the end they got 8th position for the overall after 7 rounds. we got 7th. above them. lolx. after that round, whenever they see minghui and i, they'll start smiling and say hello. so funny.. they shook our hands after the round and after we finished the whole competition (7 rounds). but they're very friendly. nice pple. second round was against VJC.. the guy was very scared i think.. he took so long to think and got the scared look. haha. then the girl was so confident... but we lost to them badly.. there was one board where the guy got 25 points. so much.. then he bidded.. after bidding, he realised he bidded wrongly and purposely said it so loud... in the end the contract was 6 hearts and it was made.. both of them had more than 30 points.. both minghui and i got less than 6 pts.. 3rd round was played against ACJC. the four of us - minghui, wanyi, charles and i were deciding which opponents shld we play with. so funny lor we took very long to decide. haha. then wanyi and charles decided to play with the 2 guys which i think one is the captain.. then both minghui and i played with a JC 1 chinese girl and a JC 2 malay guy.. the girl only participated for the first time so she's still new.. she was so scared.. can see.. but we lost to them... sighhh.. the 4th round was played against CJC... we played against a girl and a guy.. tot tt the guy was good cos he helped wif the registration of this competition so he shld be part of the committee.. dunno y they screwed up.. those that supposed to go game they didnt go.. those tt cannot go game, they went. in the end, we won them. YEAHH. 5th round was played against innova jc. then i heard tt they're good.. but i think the guy was also nervous.. dunno y he played wrong card then we didnt call director.. juz let him continue playing... so funny lor.. then we won them... yeah... 6th round was played against CJC team 1.. the best team.. the captain was in there.. he was also one of the tournament director.. both minghui and i dare not play against the captain cos he was too quick in thinking.. so quite scary... but i tot normally guys who join bridge r nerdy kind.. but they're (CJC) not.. they're the opposite.. (*hint) haha. we played with the other 2 guys. i think the guy on my right had no more vigour to continue playing on since they lost the first few boards.. he was sitting sloppily.. anw this table was the quietest.. no one talked and asked abt each other.. haiz. what a waste. LOLx. then we won them... everyone was so happy.. i rmbed our table was the last one to play cos we were waiting for one board.. then minghui played the last game. i was the dummy. everyone was watching her play. guess what. the contract was made.. it was 2NT+2.. can u believe it 4NT game. minghui played very well. after tt charles and wanyi clapped so loudly.. yea man.. cos 4NT was impossible to make u see.. wow.. incredible.. last round we played against RJC. the two china girls.. they looked so serious and scary but they took so long to play.. i think i gave them tt kind of sianz and arrogant look cos i was really pissed off by them.. take so long to think.. then both minghui and i forgot they used precision and not SAYC.. gosh.. but nvm.. it was their game anw.. both minghui and i got so little points.. got one game.. i got 21 points but i cant tell minghui the points i had cos i had 6 card hearts... minghui had 3 points. in the end minghui went up for me to 4H and it was made. hurray man!!! actually i can made one more cos i tot it wasnt even distri.. if not it will be 4H+1... eventually we won them. hurray. oh ya cos they were frm china, then the 2 HCI guys we played against know them.. guess wat.. they said hello to us, smiled at us and said good luck to us.. wahhh.. so much.. shld say to their 2 china friends then say to us. lolxx. we won RJC lor.. YEAH man!!! i was so happyyy!!!!!! oh ya saw leonard who was initially our coach.. he graduated and was saying he's very free.. if we want, call him down for bridge... anw.. that's all already... had fun yesterday and it really made my day!!!

it's over OVER :( sigh. i hope there's a new ray of light.

anw there's another teacher which i dun like.. it's a pe teacher.. the thing is that i dun even know the pe teacher and u know what he did.. he kept pulling my shirt when i was helping him with my friend to count the laps for some guys which are his students.. and his words are rude... so terrible teacher.. not only tt.. the pe teachers are so impatient... hot-tempered. they're like not willing to take us for napfa test. i want to complain already.. haiz.

this is so nonsense la.. my class is like broken up into 2.. so the way we sit in class was also like tt.. then today had debate.. guess what.. my teacher told me to go over the other group.. then two guys frm that grp came over.. i was like WHAT!!! ok.. this is still alright.. worse still.. i got sabotaged in becoming the leader for the proposition.. i immediately protested but then tt gp tutor dun care... then she found another leader.. so there are two leaders for proposition.. i was made to speak and debate in class. nonsense la.. i was so pissed off..

that day.. she told me .. yr gp compre marks has been moderated.. added half more mark to it so i passed. she told me to go back and tell my mum and even said it was FIRST TIME!!! she said so loud lor.. some of my friends think she's nice to moderate.. some think she's being sarcastic. but i think she's sarcastic too..

anw thnk God for my Maths results.. i got A.. yea.. 3rd highest in class but the highest was 61 out of 70.. then 51 out of 70 then it's me 50 out of 70.. so great difference from the highest but it's alright.. they are still As.. hahaa..

cant wait for elections. i didnt rmb any election thingy in 2001.. probably because i was only sec 1 at that time and the previous area i lived in had no elections.. so i didnt even know there were elections.. this shows how much i know about the happenings in singapore. HAHA.. then there are like so many holidays. may day.. then fri afternoon probably off too. after which there will be another holiday for teachers to rest cos they're going to help out for the whole saturday. following tt will be vesak day.. lots of holiday yea which im looking forward to. haha.

pheww. thnk God for my chem results.. i improved from the first common test i took in feb. i got F at that time.. now i got 59 which is a C.. but there was 1 qn which was not marked and one which was marked wrongly.. hope i can get 60 which is a B.. shld be able to get B.. haha. then for gp i got 22.. need half more mark to pass. that teacher's so biased and it's very obvious. she favours boys more than girls. most of us girls got only 0 or 1 out of 8 for AQ then the guys got 3 marks out of 8... there were 5 pple who passed. 4 guys and 1 girl.. can see how biased she is rite. most of the girls got like less than 20.. haiz. i want to change my gp tutor..
for physics.. my teacher didnt want to say anything.. all he said was majority of us got AO and F.. im freaking scared now cos only a handful had marginal pass...
for maths so far.. no news yet. haha.

common test 2 is OVER :) im so glad and happy. another hurdle's gone.. but there's still 3 more to go.. mid-year, prelims and most imptly A levels..

3 cheers for pw results. oh mine la. 89.7 % of this year cohort got band 1 and 2 for pw results in sr.. cant believe. everyone got above band 3.. only 10.3 % got band 3.. i got band 2... im happy cos i tot i'll get band 3.. thank God.. sr did better than the national average (76 or 78 %.. around there).. we improved by more than 50 % compared to the previous batch which has only 30 over % with band 1 and 2.. it was really a huge jump.. HURRAY!!!

can u believe it. common test 2 juz next week. arhh. the topics are really a killer. the most difficult topics i ever seen in the whole syllabus of physics.. and for maths, i still cant get the integration part for volume.... this is confusing.. i juz hope i can perform better than my common test 1.. the funny thing is tt im only confident of chem. haha. for all tests and exams, i would be confident for phy and maths.. not chem.. this is the first time im confident for chem probably because it's on organic chem.. pure memory.. but muz also know how to apply too.. im still stuck at gp aq and summary.. i juz dont like gp. hahahhaha. gosh tmr collecting pw results.. i hope to get a band 2.. but it's quite difficult.. i think a pass will do.. kk.. i go watch "da chang jin" already...

pple.. help me to do this. thnks...
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i juz want to get out of this sch asap. i cant stand my gp tutor. what u mean by yr friends cant be trusted and they're not reliable. this is so frustrating. she's the worst teacher i ever met. since she always wants to teach in a particular jc, why dont she go there. i bet they dun want her, that's why she's stuck here. ohh.. heard tt a new student's gonna join my class.. i pity tt person cos he's gonna suffer under that ct tutor.. i think i better go off already need to study for chem spa... haven study yet and it's tmr..

today had riverside bbq at my hse... the whole bbq pit is really crowded. haha. then we went to the big field to fly kites... so many pple were flying kites too.. then one man was saying its seems as though it is at marina south. haha. then we eat and eat and eat.. sotongs, satays, chicken wings, otahs, sweet potatoes, bee hoon, prawns, stingrays, bbqed marshmallow, bbqed fishballs & fishcakes, grass jelly, agar-agar, longan with rambutans and aloe vera that small cube thingy... green bean soup.. home-cooked chrysanthem tea.. mango juice mixedwith 7up drinks... still got alot more. haha. then we played catching.... and guess wat. i fell.. i hurt my bottoms and right hand. i think my right hand is injuried. cant move alot. but for typing which im doing now is possible.. writing's quite difficult... ouch.. pain....

hurray. dont need to take chinese as a subject already. i think for the rest of my life? i was realllyyy nervous before collecting my results... and my ct tutor had yet to come.. i was so shivery when my teacher distributed the result slips slowly. taking her own sweet time. we were so nervous already and she was still giving out so slowly.. when it was going to be my turn, my friends said that my face looked very pale. haha. cos i was too scared.. i was so afraid that i'll fail cos i didnt study. moreover, i still rmb tt day when i checked my ans with my friends and mine was practically all wrong.. but thank God i passed with a B4... im happy with a B4.... cos i dont expect much for chinese.....
i shall continue later on cos my mum wants me to cook rice.... haha.

sigh. is this an illusion or wad? ive no idea what's happening.. it seems real but it seems superficial too..

i realised tt ive too many uncompleted posts. i juz dont feel like continuing. there is supposed to be a chem re-test on thurs but it was postponed to yesterday. all of us are not really prepared for it. if we took it last thurs we'll juz fail again. giving us one more day to study at least ensure tt we'll pass... MUAHAHAhAHahha. chem re-test was really very easy cos it's almost the same as the common test. all u need to do is to read thru the answer scheme for the common test and u'll be able to do the re-test..

life is getting more hectic. hw is piling up and im accumulating last week's work till now... and there's ton of it to do. it's really alot. ohhh at last i finish my chem assignment but ive yet to complete the chem, physics and maths tutorial.. sigh.. i think i better go and do the tutorials now...

went acjc fun o rama today. wow. the sch's really big. ive no idea where to walk. there's 3 lifts in the sch. oh mine. there's so many places which are air-conditioned. the pple there are totally different from sr. there's really a distinct difference. their dress code and sch spirit.. and the guys there were different too. haha. oh ya their height too.. i seemed short among them. haha. but in sr i was average or considered rather tall. lolx. but if i were to go there, i'll juz die there. haha. no offence here :) overall it's ok. the sch compound's really really huge. after the funfair, went to NTU for bridge competition. this's even bigger. haha.. shall continue tmr. im too tired..

yesterday went out with kn, cy and joyce.. met them at the merlion place there. both joyce and i have not been there before.. it seemed as though we were tourists yesterday cos kn brought us around.. haha. and the place was filled with tourists. lolx. we took photos then walked to esplanade... both joyce and i were new to the esplanade too.... haha. we have not entered in before. i only went for the esplanade opening a few years back but didnt get a chance to view inside.. took photos outside esplanade where there's a sea view. it's very nice.. took many photos... and joyce was teaching us how to use the cam cos she's frm media. haha. after which we went to the esplanade's roof terrace and wanted to take a group photo. we approached an angmoh.. but at tt time, my cam had no batt.. lolx. then i do not know how to change. ridiculous rite. haha. after 10 mins, we managed to open the batt cover thingy. but the angmoh went off already. waited too long. haha. then we wanted to ask the others but all were busy doing something.. haha. didnt know the roof terrace at esplanade is meant for tt.. oh my.. so we walked to citylink mall... went to adidas shop cos kn wanted to buy a shirt for her bro but didnt buy in the end... went off to raffles city's food junction to talk there and drink..... after tt we took trains home.. haiz today supposed to go to pan pacific hotel to eat at the 62nd floor restaurant... i heard there's buddha jumping over the wall and more.. but too bad i didnt go.. i have serious cough... so stuck at home.. gosh la. there're lots of activities going on next sat. how to fix them all into one day???

HURRAYYYyyYYy.. common tests are over. so HAppYyy.. WaAHhhhH. lolx. too overjoyed. yesterday's chem was horrible. all my reagents and conditions were mixed up. phy aint better too.. the formulas all look similar to me.. all the E terms are mixed up. i've no idea if it's emf or energy. haiz. then i mixed the chpts up too.. electric field and capacitance formulas.... i swopped them up.. i wonder how i did tt. haha.. now common tests' over, im juz waiting for march holidays to come. haha. oh yea tmr is the release of O level results... wow one year has passed. i can still rmb the day i collected my results. it's real fast. now it's my juniors' batch.. *panic.. haha. i better catch up wif my sleep. have been watching the police show on channel U the past few nights. i shall continue on wif * too....

my hse's really crowded today. haha. my room's filled with all my cousins and there's barely space to walk abt. juz enough to put my two feet there. haha. really tireddd. there's lion dance today and everyone's juz following the lion.. hahaha. then there's God of fortune walking ard the swimming pool area and everyone's touching him like mad and trying to get an hongbao frm him.. it isnt money in it but toto tix which is a $1 bet.. (oh gosh juz heard tt a lizard went into my hse frm the roof garden.. haha)... oh yea the doggie rich came to my hse.... all my cousins played wif him.. and i realised how his name came abt.. it was my cousin who saw the shampoo LUX super rich.. hence giving the dog the name rich. lolx. and we played sparklers.. those which are whistling.. there's sound.. some sparklers are really scary.. they juz 'pop' infront of you and the part where the fire is juz broke off from the main stick... really gave all of us a shock........ haiz there's common tests tmr.. and im not really prepared.. sigh.h...

i posted some photos on shutterfly abt cny... it's under the links...

juz came back. late.. visiting hses and eating titbits.. i've grown fatter. haha. quote frm my cousins, "yesterday was fann wong, today was rui en then tmr will be jeannette aw.." haha.. today went to my aunt's mother-in-law hse to eat.. distant relative.. 6 cars went there..

to be continued..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :)

haha. okie.. shall type abt the leap camp and my birthday celebration in the next post.. oh ya.. that day went to Han River to celebrate my bday.. saw 2 pl-lites there.. and also the star idol albert who was already out of the competition...

im supposed to attend bible study.. but i wasnt inside... im on waiting list... my friends frm last year's bsf grp are inside this bsf grp for this year.... sighhhh... nvm... shall talk abt leap camp. it has been long since i entered a post. had a busy and hectic life. haha. leap camp was fun but's also quite boring. many things happened. haha.

to be continued...

can u believe it.. haha. im going for camp tmr... it's a 2 days 1 night camp... will be playing amazing race tmr.. whole of singapore.. then go pulau ubin.. i think there's campfire.. then stay over at pulau ubin.. the next day go to sentosa.. i think there are some activities to play.. not very sure....

sch started real fast. it's the beginning of year 2. need to get ready for A levels. fast.. sch has been quite boring.. at least there isnt pw and chinese. sch's ending quite early.. earlier than the usual time for last year.. most of the days were 12.30.. except for monday which is 5.30.. thurs till 4.30.. the earliest is tues.. 12.. cant believe it. earliest i ever have.. haha. tmr is a holiday.. yeahhhh.. oh ya bought ac funfair tix. going with mh.. cant believe tt metro was one of the sponsers.. then long john silver too... wahhh..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006 :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOYAN!