today went spore conference hall for ngee ann poly's band concert. thnks jh for the tixs. both my sis and i went. i met him first cos my sis wanna find her fren.. after tt ate dinner then omgosh all kinds of insects lol. i got a fright out of my life. after tt met sis then went conference hall. not bad the concert except that the songs they played i dun really know. all i know was the revised twinkle twinkle little star.. after the whole concert.. so many pple shouting ENCORE ENCORE!! the conductor came out again and the band played another piece so nice!!! that piece i know cos all mixtures of songs. damm nice then got YMCA part also.. so cute those band pple not playing de do the YMCA actions!! reminded me of chingay 2005 when i joined as a motivator!!! after concert he sent us back home..

this is wad i wore for countdown 2008 at vivo.

yea 3 years frm now =) deal.

today's lesson was as usual. thnks for yr morning call haha i was shocked!!! omgosh i wanna complain to SBS la. i was waiting for 151 express bus then saw it behind the bus 87 then both buses came to the bus stop. so i walked to 151 express bus and i was the only one taking. i was walking towards then the bus juz drove off. i was like !!! then no choice haf to take normal 151. i need to study hard le and i will cos someone ask me to!!!

omgosh i said it.. racing heart.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY BDAY XIAOYAN JIEJIE!

2007 has come to an end finally. 2008 is here!! 2007 was full of ups and downs, happiness and unhappiness. ive learnt plenty of things and ive grown stronger. 2007 is a year where many things happened and frm there i learnt many precious lessons. i wont be that again, i'll change for the better. ive many resolutions hahas..
2008 RESOLUTIONS
1. Find a job
2. Be stronger
3. Do well for prelims and exams
4. Be more diligent
5. Pass my practical for driving
6. Hope to go for piano practical exam
7. Meet up with my sec sch frens
8. Have better time management
9. Get involved in more church activities
10. Take up new activities
11. Be happy always no matter what happens
12. Enjoy myself in 2008!!! FUN!!! WOOHO!!! (lol my cousins typed those<<<)

yesterday was FUN!! reached home at 3.20am only. super tired but we're all high.

last nite, we planned to go for countdown at vivo wif my aunt, uncle & laura. my another 2 cousins wenyi & xinyi wanted to go.. then my another cousin, xiaoyan jiejie wanted to come as well. she offered to drive us there but after which she said she's gg there wif her frens first after which she'll meet us. wenyi & xinyi came over to my hse at 8 plus. dinner then we left home at 9.30pm to go to my uncle's hse.. reached there then my uncle said can go down straightaway.. so went vivo.. crowded like mad. took lift to 3rd floor which is the open area. wow so many pple.. we squeezed all the way to near the barrier.. can only see the stage and the seats.. behind pple squeezing like mad then my uncle said so loudly beware of yr bags LOL. then i also scared of pple anyhow u know cos i was wearing tube dress. then there're like 4 children plus me then those pple ard us looking cos my cousins talking loudly especially my bro. then my 5 year old cousin, laura wanted to squeeze rite in front lol soo funny la. she squeezing like mad then her parents stopped her. my uncle asked if we want to go walk ard first then come back since it's only 10.40.. so we decided to walk first.. went second floor which was the playgrd.. my cousins and bro played.. then went in vivo shopping area.. walked awhile then went back to playgrd then 3rd floor.. then my cousins all walking in the pool zz. so i no choice also went in. i odd one out. only 2 or 3 children there plus my 3 cousins and bro.. then we took photos at the pool. so many pple facing the pool then watching. got this small boy kept on spraying water zz then my bro all wet.. then both of them splashing each other.. after tt xinyi & i walked back to uncle there then she called xiaoyan jiejie. then we went fetch xiaoyan jiejie outside ezone. brought her to there then we went food republic drink tea, coffee. then got this late 20s guy kept taking video of us dots. all of us faster juz turn our heads away.. then soon it was 11.50pm we quickly went out to the open area then worse man the crowd's until the door.. squeezed then still far frm barrier cant see anything only can see the back of the stage.. then we decided go pool there. then suddenly got abit of fireworks then at the view of pool there walked there full like mad zz. juz waited there. suddenly i heard the countdown.. everyone 5,4,3,2,1 then HAPPY NEW YEAR & HAPPY BDAY to XIAOYAN JIEJIE! then fireworks. so nice!!! then everyone shaking hands then sing songs.. then emily called me lols. we took pics then after tt many pple left.. we also left went playgrd again.. cousins playing. me and xiaoyan jiejie juz look and take pics of them. super funny at there. then went burger king to eat.. ate ard till 1.45am.. then left to return to my uncle's hse.. played uno.. fix jigsaw.. then parents fetched my bro, me and 3 cousins. fetched xiaoyan jiejie back first.. then 2 cousins stayed at my hse overnite. they slept wif me.. reached home 3.20 then 4am get ready to sleep but both cousins cant sleep. then xinyi played songs then 3 of us singing then they dancing lol. then 4.30 then sleep. 8 something they woke me up.. meddled wif my phone like mad.. then i continue sleeping.. at 9 something wake me up.. 11 something showed me my phone dots la took me sleeping and put on the phone wallpaper zz.. blah blah... yesterday was FUN!! took many pictures. another day then upload.

these are today's photos for micro gathering. took it frm cheryl cos mine got probs opening.

outside starbucks here taking then actually jasmine's taking me and cheryl de.. then she said the pple at the back do funny actions LOL.

me and cheryl.. i rmbed we're best frens in sec 1 and 2.

the 10 of us girls HAHA. damm cool.

left side frm bottom: xuan ni, wei yun, emily, limin

right side frm bottom: vanessa hong, vanessa tay, yun qian, jasmine, cheryl, me

today supposed to go church hence i would be late for gathering but in the end didnt go church.. so quickly get ready for gathering.. meeting at 12 but.. all of us were late lols. only xn was early.. the rest of us were late lols. then on the way at cityhall gg up the escalator saw cheryl lols then i was on the line wif emily somemore.. then i juz waited for her cos she was rite at the back.. omgosh she changed alot.. her physical appearance haha. then both of us were the latest.. we reached then saw jasmine, limin, xn, weiyun.. then tried calling miss hee but she didnt pick up.. so we went off first..walked to marina sq.. met emily at there. wow i realised everyone in pl all looks toot last time then come out of pl everything also change.. hairstyle, dressing.. all become so feminine lor haha.. cool. in the end we ate at swensens cos cafe cartel dun haf a table for 9 pple.. then sat there ate.. finished eating le.. suddenly yq, vanessa hong and tay came.. i shocked to see them.. didnt know vanessa tay would be coming as well.. then 3 of them as so much changes la.. all so feminine.. all long hair.. wearing skirts, shorts wadever.. all dress up so nice haha.. then 10 of us sat and we had fun talking.. then asked one of the waiter to take pictures for us.. all 10 girls lol. the waiter had to hold 5 cameras LOL. we posed for so long haha. after which we went walk ard.. walked to arcade.. wanna play pool there but some dun wan.. so wanted to play arcade then like quite inappropriate.. we're dressed up ma.. so walked off decided to find one place to sit down.. saw long john, bk, kfc.. no space.. went in mac.. saw a long table but no chairs. it's like a grp of 10 walking in then we juz went out to the open air of mac. then saw starbucks there inside no space at all.. so we juz sat the open air starbucks. the atmosphere quite cold la.. then we seniors giggling to ourselves dunno how to start talking wif the 3 of them.. so in the end talked abit.. then cheryl said take photos since the backgrd there is esplanade.. so we brought out our cameras then some took photos. the 5 of us took.. 4 cameras lols. then soon the 7 of us took cos the 3 of them went toilet.. then got 6 cameras there for wy to take lols. we asked 2 guys to help us take.. they shocked haha so many cameras.. one of them joked 1 dollar for one camera haha. then 3 of them came back.. they took photos.. after which some went off.. 5 of them went off.. left 5 of us.. we went walked ard marina sq.. went dorothy perkins.. jasmine tried jeans there then bought one.. the rest of us so tired lols. then went home after tt.. i took till potong pasir, dad fetched me to grandma's hse..
as usual alot of us.. everyone is present except my cousin cos she's working temp job then too tired.. my grandma's hse is olden days semi detached de.. so super small.. but u know got 29 of us in the hse so crowded..then they bring out the big dining table as usual.. all parents sitting there.. 2 by 2 as in husband, wife.. really nice. then there were 20 plates of dishes on the table.. alot man.. cos my uncle's back frm thailand then he cooked alot cos usually he cook de but ever since he went thailand all the ladies cook.. then it was bday celebration time again. my cousin's 23rd bday!! her bday's on 1st jan.. nice cake frm four seasons.. took pictures, sang songs again.. then we distributing gifts frm beijing lots of it.. keychains, chopsticks, shirts etc.. hang ard.. chit chat.. went off after tt. haiz my com cant open the memory card so cant upload the pics.. tmr gg countdown wif my relatives.. celebrate 2008!!!!

went changi village for early dinner. as usual 2 big stingrays, fried egg, lala, kang kong.. wif my favourite soya bean drink.. then my sis bought fried wanton.. then she went support wj's mum juice stall.. went buy fried sweet potato, tapioca.. went home then left again to town. went isetan mango.. bought tops and skirt.. necklace too.. nice!!

today went cycling wif joshua and bro at east coast.. cycled 2 hours.. funny la haha. after cycling went pedicure.. reached home at 11..


my bro and i both haha eating that candy cane. i too kiddy alr LOL.

ive to do it the hard way..

another gathering on 2nd Jan 2008 lunch.. wif diana... anything contact me thnks!!!

beijing trip post coming up!!!
i tried my very best alr and im not so emo alr!!
no choice ive to do it the hard way.

MICROMOUSE GATHERING on 30th DEC!
lunch at marina square most likely.. thinking of that ice cream buffet thingy cum steamboat.. anw ard there like citylink also got plenty of food.. can see u all after such a long time!!! anything contact me or xn..

i changed my blogskin to beijing scenary de so nice. anw still in the midst of blogging my beijing trip lols. at day 3 only haha. super long. enjoyed myself very much. the best trip ever. best tour group.. best tour guide. everyone's a joker even the ah gong also. the other family ah ma so cute she's 63 yet so young in mind when we talked to her. since 13 of us left beijing first the other 8 leaving the next day. the 8 of them sent us to airport. then everyone is like bu se de. everyone byes here and there. really bu se de lor.. sad la..

this trip makes me happy once and for all and made me think thru many stuffs.
-im not clinging onto it alr. tt's enough.
-haiz stonefish still.. dun wan to give up fine.
-i cant stand it.. so.. ah.. help.. i alr told u liao future i dunno!!
-another irritating argh. let me think of reasons.

im at beijing now!! using sis com cos she brought but cant go blogspot only can go blogger dots. the blogger in chinese somemore lols. beijing super cold.. freezing lols. the river all frozen.. but no snow sobs. but can see traces of snow cos last week snowed. but here fun.. today went forbidden city and tian an men to see.. the palace so big man.. SUPER BIG. the yu hua yuan also got haha saw on tv now can see rl.. anw everything also can see.. like emperor, empress, empress dowager, concubines sleeping rooms.. prince studying place etc.. many stuffs and interesting history.. tmr gg great wall of china and hot spring haha.. continue after i come back..

met jieying, junhao, joshua at orchard mrt station in the morning. i wore dress again wif heels then i think quite kua zhang cos like gg for dinner. then joshua & jieying kept saying cutie voice dots. walked to cine to buy tix for alvin & the chipmunks after which went long john to eat lunch. today's super fun and the whole day was so lame cos both josh & junhao kept saying cold stuffs. very cold today lor haha. "cold" and cold cos of weather so add up together can u imagine how cold it is? then walked rd & we went 9th floor to take a look at the e-max thingy. wow so big & there were so many rooms. soon it was 2.15pm went to 4th floor bought food then went in cinema. alvin & the chipmunks is so nice to watch. i tot enchanted is damm nice alr but this chipmunks can be comparable or rather nicer. damm cute haha. i love their very first christmas song. the hula hoop part so cute. i love the ALVINNNN part haha. the 3 chipmunks the way the move chao funny. but i think enchanted the chipmunk that witch & princess part which he acted funnier. i changed my blog song to tt song and it's part of the movie part. after movie.. went hotel take pictures lols cos no other places to take ma.. after tt went walk everywhere.. then jieying need to leave first at 5pm.. then me and them went to walk till dhoby gaut frm orchard mrt.. then etc blah blah.. then went home..

went out eat wif family to eat.. then i think cos i wear too kua zhang. those pple at the teochew porridge there staring non stop sia. then got this cute boy who's helping out shld be 15 years old ba frm start till end of dinner staring non stop =.= then i stared back then both stare at each other z.

haha juz take at the teochew porridge there. all florescent lights there. super bright. i went there cant look up.. i can only look down. anw pictures for today's de will post after i come back cos quite a number. anw time to go! woah my sis bringing laptop lols. thnks all for wishes too! will bring back souvenirs & kong ask me go buy accessories or clothes for him =.=

at home take de haha cos bringing this cap to beijing. tried to find the other caps but cant find. those like how to say leh. slanted de.. tt kind like fiona xie got wear be4 de.

hmm ahh lost. dots la. dunno wad u talking lor. then suddenly change tone zz. yea i'll la.

shat dunno la. . sorry i dunno wad to say so juz leave those msges alone.

great man jh wanna help me so tt i can overcome future "monsoons" haha.

today's lesson for econs was tiring for me. i nearly fell asleep.. luckily the tea during break kept me awake after tt. banking lesson, yiling and yentinge went too.. so we sat together.. and this joke came along.
yiling: charmaine, this thurs wanna go zoo?
I: (super shocked) huh zoo?
yiling: ya zoo, UOL zoo.
then i thinking huh wad uol zoo thingy? i tot she wanna go zoo then okies lor go zoo lor.. so..
I: Zoo?
yiling: nono, Zouk..
I: oh zouk arh zz i tot u wanna go spore zoo LOL. cannot wor im alr on holiday.
so funny la.. then i told joyce both of us laughing like mad. then stop laughing alr.. then i tot abt it then say out again then laugh again. i heard zouk as zoo. zouk=zoo?

after sch went funan IT mall wif joyce to collect the notebook at service hub. queue no was 1481 while it was 1439 there so we tot it'll be still long. so decided go eat lunch. ate le went back 1485 le dots. so got another number it was 1555. wow it was like so far away. so we decided to juz stay there ba. so sat at the seats inside waited not very long cos many numbers were skipped. pple not there. so it was soon 1555 do those procedures then she got the HP lappy at the redemption zone. i think those lappy can flip de COOL.

after tt went home then left home again to go Taiwan Porridge at Oasis to celebrate mum's bday. it's gg to move next year cos of the building of some sports hall thingy. came back home.. busy talking online etc, phone.. then cake cutting time. damm funny. it's super hilarious. damm funny. my bro so cute la. he every year give present to mum la. then it's like he wraps the present.. then u know guys probably dunno how to wrap.. he wrapped it so cute. then my mum opened up the present it's a sheep LOL cos my mum born in year of sheep. then my mum said no wonder my bro kept asking which year of animal is she born in haha. then my sis tell dad take kawaii pic wif her. then my dad put cheeze at eye there SO funny la. laughing like mad.. many pictures.. but cant find sd card reader. only found the small de.. need bigger de..

tmr im gg out wif.. haha. watching alvin and the chipmunks. woah watched enchanted juz last tues now watching chipmunks. enchanted de chipmunks so cute so i think this chipmunks also shld be interesting.

hmm i dunno how to tell u leh.. i dun dare say it straight to u.. sorry now im still recovering and currently not thinking of it.. plus thnks for those msges.. touched but still dun haf tt feelings yet. and i think future also not possible.. sorry. we're of 2 different worlds.

today attended youth service at pl. familiar shadows once seen again.. the sermon today is really applicable to me.. talking about unhealthy souls and emotions. the speaker was saying it's normal to haf emotions eg crying even though guys seldom cry haha. abt the part of unhealthy souls.. the speaker listed out symptoms of it and solutions are to Rest in God, Renew our mind and Restore each other. everything thru bible, prayers etc. hope i can do it.

didnt go grandma's hse today. watched STAR AWARDS 2007 at home juz now.. it's really nice to watch. i'll definitely watch it every year including the qing gong yan. this years results very unexpected. i was really super shocked. the top 10 most popular female artisties is so shocking. cant imagine the 7 princesses only 3 got it & jeanette aw didnt get it. im surprised. when ming dao said 2 chinese characters i tot it was her but it was kym ng. anw kym ng also deserved it having worked so hard.. wow lai yiling got it surprised though. the top 10 most popular male artisties is so super nice. my favourite fann wong and xiao zhu giving out the awards LOL & it's really hilarious. so many 'husbands'. christopher lee is so sweeeeettt.. kissed her twice somemore. mark lee's a joker la. that part of the show was really damm high and funny.. xiao zhu so cute he said wow spore here so high de haha. so funny. i didnt expect zhang dong yao & dasmond koh to get but probably cos new pple shld get it le ba instead of the usual one. terence cao is not really in the limelight wor. i rmbed last year he wore the tuxedo so shuai la. anw christopher lee, bryan wong, zheng ge ping, chen han wei, elvin ng, xiao zhu are all so manly and shuai omgosh la.. not only tt 183 club also ahhh.. tall & shuai plus my 5566 wang ren pu haha. wow qing gong yan they still make fun of fann wong lol so funny. i cant wait for both of them to get married..

im totally wrong. cant believe my eyes. not a need to change it. i seen it all.. not me it's U. get it right. _ _ _ R T! cannot be blamed cos the day has not arrived yet..

i believe God will do whatever that is appropriate.

on tues nite my bro and i watched SEA games. the tv stated live telecast and it was showing the swimming events. it was 800m women's medley i guess, my bro & i was watching closely & we're like so damm excited lols. then she won YEAH. after tt it was 4x100m medley for men then i tot the whole swimming event was repeated cos i rmbed seeing on straits times sports section that the 4 guys got gold medal in a swimming relay hence i tot it was that one. however it wasnt cos they came in 3rd. not bad. the guy swimming freestyle is good man. best in asia woah.

my room is flooded wif clothes.. belts..

Wednesday 12 Dec yesterday watched enchanted at ps GV. nice show it's super funny. everyone shld go watch. it's so cute. when the princess is in the real world when she sang the song all cockroaches, rats, mouse etc came out LOL instead of those chipmunks, rabbits, swallow etc in the cartoon world. then in the real world, she makes dresses using the curtains & rug super funny. the curtains all got that shape of her dress LOL. anw after movie went white sands shopping mall met tatarah pple & sis' frens. went kfc to eat. wow big gang LOL. 10 guys & 2 girls in black. guys all 16 years old zz but one girl is 12 dots. that grp wanted to go escape but i cant go la im wearing dress ma.. so my sis, sis's 2 frens suggested pool so we went lor then the big grp went escape. reached downtown went arcade first.. then we played car racing daytona de. i competed wif my sis's 2 frens advance de cos play be4 ma & also learnt be4 how to turn at sharp bends and i got 3rd sobs meaning last lol. then walked round arcade see after which went pool.. played for 2 hours plus.. we had a fun time laughing LOL it's super funny. both my sis and i dunno how to play but her frens know so teach us lor. then her frens paid for us leh my sis gave him 10 bucks no matter wad he still dun wanna take. my sis tried all kinds of ways even when gg home that time take same bus.. my sis gave him the money. both of them pushing each other to take the money till whole bus pple watching LOL. in the end he faster alight at his bus stop then push the money back to my sis. back to story.. after pool went arcade again. my sis played basketball wif her fren share one machine after tt she played alone.. her fren also took one machine to play.. then my sis play stage 2 then tired asked the other fren take over play.. went mac eat mcflurry yummy then walked past a performance being put up for children.. then home sweet home.

took me unnoticed lol.

performance

after reaching home not long ago piano teacher came.. guess wad i broke down infront of her while playing the 3rd movement sonata by clementi and it was near the end of lesson alr. i was stressed up cos didnt practise tt movement at all rather hardly practise piano at all. then i told her wad happened.. yeps.

SUNDAY 19 DEC last sunday didnt attend youth service so just stayed home. bathed etc to get ready to go to grandma's hse. dad came back ard 3 and sudddenly popped out a bubble tea lols. i was happy :) it's my favourite chocolate milk tea hahas. first time he bought for me wifout me telling him to buy lol. i was really surprised. then my mum jokingly said he pampers me haha. every week i'll drink at least 3 times bubble tea. when i was working, i drank chocolate milk tea frm monday to friday. crazy huh. then ard 4 plus went to grandma's hse. oh ya mum bought a chocolate sponge cake frm bengawan solo (since no more prima deli which we used to buy frm) for my 14 year old cousin cos her bday's on 10th (monday) plus her mum & sis came back only on that day frm msia.. so celebrate for her at grandma's hse.. good man she got 2 cakes lols.. one on 9th the other on 10th wif her family. then we played carrom again.. had to wait quite long so in the end didnt play. this period is carrom be4 that was captain's ball LOL. instead i played wif the 2 year old girl so cuteeee.. i had to feed her dinner haha cos she dun wan her maid to feed her. im used to feeding small kids alr cos ive been feeding my 5 year old cousin since she was 2 as well. taking care of her is really tiring haha. she's hyperactive & i muz make sure she does not fall.. soon it was dinner. my oldest aunt & family came over and guess wad- another cake. we were all so shocked then realised oh it's my oldest cousin bday haha. he bought frm four seasons the mango cake. after dinner my cousins and uncles continued playing carrom while my aunts and i were watching star awards prelude. it was really touching and sad watching tt. all their hard work in the past, those memories.. really nice. i watched till 9 plus.. i LOVE the KOPI-O song haha i watched that show every monday to fri morning 10am de on days which ive no sch. then it was bday time. took out both cakes then my 2 cousins-2 & 5 year old rushed to there and stood on the chairs cos the cake was placed on a mahjong table haha. then everyone were like oh it seems as though it's their bday LOL cos the 2 bday cousins dun wanna stand there.. they paiseh haha. then we took plenty of pics. ate lots of cake cos got 2 cakes YUMMY YUMMY.. took many photos. it's really nice gathering.. Every sunday we'll gather & everyone will bring raw dishes then all cook together de.. after tt we'll haf desserts like ice-cream wif 7-up or coke or grass jelly/almond jelly/longan drink/green bean soup.. depends lor haha. so when it was time to go home.. everyone dun feel like gg home.. that nite we went back late cos bday celebration. then my aunt forgot to bring back fruits etc so we make a trip to her hse to pass to her then after which sent my cousin back to her home.

TUESDAY DECEMBER 12 i'll go crazy one day.
i think im too slipshod in some stuffs.
i saw this jc photo.. how i wish it was back to tt time but i still miss sec sch days.. im watching enchanted tmr. at last! nice show i heard.

today went winter wear warehse bought many stuffs like beanies, ear muffs, scarfs, warmer etc.. i cant wait to wear the beanie lol. there are so many mirrors there then saw this mirror make me looks tall lol. decided to wear dress today cos it has been long since i wore one.

After which went hougang mall to eat.. watched the Act 3 drama.. bought somemore wool clothings.. went home.. came out an hour later to eat at Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant at Turf City cos auntie, uncle treating my family.. i didnt know they ordered so many dishes.. somemore so little of us.. my sis didnt go.. they ordered big plates zz. 2 different vegs, prawns, salted egg crab, chilli crab, roasted chicken, pork ribs, red garoupa fish plus one more i forgot and their desserts da mai & mango pudding..

this is my little boy cousin so cute.. he's sleeping..

i cannot let my time juz pass like that.. better spend time wisely...



i cant let myself to be in this situation again. i muz wake up man. i wonder when can i really wake up and do my stuffs properly..


it's nice to have someone to be there for u whenver u need. care and concern being showered upon u.. stuffs done together.. so much memories and feelings. yea frens are there for u but they cant be there for u every sec every minute whenever u need them.. they have their own stuffs as well.. wadever it is, i know it's time to let go.. painful and terrible process juz cry whenever i feel like so tt i'll feel better but i know this is part and parcel of life.. life's never smooth sailing for me ever since Os.. many obstacles but i know all these are meant for me to learn my lesson like wad i learn in my bible study.. wad ive to do now is trust in the Lord.. pray that the right person will come by.

i hate it! i'll never take the bus back home alr, it's too torturing and painful. i'll juz take the train.



my fren and i didnt go in maths lecture today cos the teacher taught probability today.. we sat outside the lecture hall doing the probability tutorial haas... during poa cant concentrate at all argh. it's time to stop!



i wan to watch enchanted!! it's so nice..


this is my pair of eyes haha.. i got nth better to do.

YEAHHHhh i PASSED my FINAL THEORY TEST haha. im super duper HAPPY lols. it was rather scary cos final theory is more difficult than basic theory plus they test all the gears, pedals etc.. i was really scared to click on the button 'End Test' lols.. i clicked many times cos it juz dun wanna end test. finally the window popped out asking if i really wan to end test.. i didnt dare to click then rest back on the chair. then i decided juz click yes ba then i click then black screen wondering if it's a pass or fail lols. then it's pass haha i so happy then i went out of the room a big group of pple sitting out there wondering if i pass lols. they kept looking at my expression.. even the guy sitting on my rite during the test also wondering if i pass. then they know i pass cos i was smiling haha. then i printed the receipt out :) at last this burden is off dun need worry so much haha.


wish u are back.

tmr final theory test and i hope i'll pass. Lord give me wisdom for tmr's test and guide me thru the test. i think im really easily affected by pple lols cos my fren said he passed at second attempt and his fren passed at 3rd atttempt making me more worried..

today during banking many pple were collecting stuffs frm the front la so i tot it was notes. so my fren went down helped me collect then realised it was the first banking test. i tot i would just get a 70% or wad la.. then my fren passed my paper to me. i saw 25 out of 25 i so shocked. Thank God for it. i was like really super shocked cos that day he went thru then he was like saying this point muz haf this and tt then i dun haf ma. then came back he all close one eye sia then i got full marks zzz. today's banking test didnt study at all superb man and tt teacher's super lazy la haha same test paper for all. thnks kong but also useless man i didnt even study at all.. but thnks joyce for helping.. no choice i got ftt tmr i busy studying cos all my facts are jumbled out ahh.

like what she said mentality & determination// no answer then juz wait// reading it makes me more uneasy only. maybe i shld juz disappear for a period of time.

this coming tues is my final theory test im mugging hard for it so that i can pass for the first attempt but i neglected my banking test which is tmr.. i really need to buck up for banking, poa and econs & exams are nearing.. christmas and 2008 nearing too and it's gonna be a quiet night again..

this morning went to plmgss for plmc youth service. today's the first day the service was held at plmgss concert hall. my siblings and i went for it and we were late and we had to enter frm the front so embarrassing. most of the ushers are pl pple lols. i didnt really expect so many pple at the TNG(The Next Generation) service. so many teenagers there lols. went in concert hall my sis saw her fren le then sat together. i saw jessie as well playing the organ up the stage.. then other frens which i saw as well. Rev Peter Koh gave the message today.. then Pastor Reuben Ng was there as well to talk about the youth christmas service on 22nd dec. after which there was holy communion had to go down and take it..

after church service went kovan to eat & buy stuffs, went home followed by grandma's hse.. at grandma's hse played carrom board again.. all the uncles and my dad played hahah all pros de LOL. even my phd uncle came down juz to play dots. then juz now 3 of my uncles and my dad playing wif each other DAMM fun to watch. my auntie also play. rather those who knows how to play carrom all went play. so there were many pairs haha all take turns to play like some competition. whichever pair loses goes out then the next pair comes in.. there were 7 pairs wor.. so need to wait damm long for our turn.. then we were discussing to go for relatives outing.. talked abt wild wild wet, ice skating, zoo, night safari, cycling.. cos we went malacca together one whole group.. six cars driving up together then my dad leading lols. then we went lim chu kang farms & sungei buloh together as well fun!! we're planning to go together again to msia next year cos my cousin still young few mths old only..

i sseug mi gniod enif zuj taht nehw mi ton deipucco fiw sffuts i lliw leef ylenol neht trats ot ome niaga dna kniht fo mih. mi gniyrt drah ot pots gnikniht fo mih hgis. won eh si ta pmac tonnac ees mih enilno. i tnod neve erad ot gsm mih ta lla. i decrof flesym ton ot gsm mih neve hguoht i yllaer tnaw ot gsm mih os hcum. nehw i dehctaw esoht citnamor evol dnik fo amard slaires i dnet ot kniht fo mih hgra.

went cycling today. bro wanted to tag along so let him tag.. supposed to meet derick and kong at eunos mrt station at 1.30 then all of us were late lols. kong was still at ica waiting to do his passport thingy so went off wif derick & bro first. took 155 to east coast park and we had to ask the driver if it does go there & he said yea and he said he'll tell us when it's supposed to stop so nice of that uncle (: reached the bus stop alr then we had no idea how to walk there then this kind auntie came to ask us if we need help then she taught us how to walk till the underpass and we found it. reached east coast finally and saw the water skiing thingy so FUN i wan to try lols then saw the banner at every lamp post standard chartered spore marathon.

This is the banner..

After which we went to find the bicycle kiosk and walked rite for 30 mins juz to reach mac there zz. then kong has no idea how to go to east coast then taught him on the phone but then cannot find the underpass so he took cab to mac there wif his fren lols. we 3 went bicycle kiosk first then chose bikes got offer wor. 1 hour then next 1 hour free so it's really cheap. soon after kong came then also rented bike. then put stuffs in locker.. we cycled starting on the left side first.. cycle till we saw another bicycle kiosk then saw a grp of guys walking opposite then i find few of them familiar la then realised one of them is frm sr de.. kaiyuan.. then we both like shocked like tt.. then cycle & cycle go park at bridge there then derick took this photo.

LOL so windy la.

continued cycling then juz took random pics..

then while cycling saw this angmoh cycling and got this small cute little dog following it like mad la. the angmoh quite bad leh cos the dog is that kind not for training type.. it's like maltese that kind but the owner let it run after his bike for the whole east coast park distance then we juz followed it. everyone who go past the puppy all said eee so cute haha. we took a rest when we cycled for 90 mins like tt.. went to fitness corner there then they make me hang at the bar thingy for 5 secs zz then i feel so paiseh lols. wahlao both of them can do chin up man. so many times zz. derick took video of me zz.

turn on volume if wan to hear some voice lol.

After cycling dad fetched us to dhoby ghaut station cos i meeting mum at her facial place for manicure then both derick & kong took train home..

at facial there lols . my nailss.. manicure..

wondering what's he doing these few days..

dead tired.. went vivo today wif my "workplace" fren lols .. ate at superdog.. nice wor.. the ice lemon tea is freshly brewed de... but it tastes like english tea haha but i love it this way.. after that walked rd vivo then went to see the scenary at the 3rd floor.. nice wor. the cable car is so nice.. yea it would be nice to haf dinner up there..

anw knocked down previous table and my room was in a mess. all the internet were disconnected on tues nite then cant find the rite wire to fix it back cos all the wires were unplugged. that's why dced frm msn for 1 hour plus. this is the new ikea table. DIY de. looks empty haha cos haven put stuffs there yet..

where did he go? why not online.. IM him. he's online finally but i dun dare talk dots.

maybe it's time to stop. im not needed.

this is taken frm someone's blog.. i agree wif it. Life makes a sport of all of us one time or another. Things never go the way we want them to and somehow, when things don't go our way, it happens at the worst possible time. When you think that by making some decisions to move on from where you are , to start piecing pieces back together, you end up having more pieces fall apart, more questions unanswered.

this blog tends to be my personal diary. i tend to say everything here and confide in here as well. probably i shld lock this blog or wad. im blogging frequently and i think tt's not good.. i juz shelf all my stuffs aside.. my studies, quiet time, driving etc. and now im thinking whether to change the date of the final theory test.. i wanted to change but the earliest is only in late feb. ive trial test as well but it cant be changed. i think i shld juz go for it. i really hope i can pass.. but i need motivation to study.. Lord i hope u'll give me this motivation to carry on with life..

can someone pls tell me wad shld i do? instead of making him happy, i make him sad and disappointed.. now i think the more i say the worse it becomes. how i dun wan this to happen.. im angry wif myself. now im like making things worse.. i cant even salvage the situation.. i caused more hurt to him. Lord, pray that you'll give him strength & happiness in wadever he does and that yr angels will encamp ard him and watch over him. Pray that he'll recover soon and that u'll guide him throughout this difficult moments..

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not just somebody just to get me throught the night

Every morning when I'm awake
I've this nostalgic feeling
I hope to see the familiar message
Of greetings we send to each other
However it is no longer there anymore
No longer there anymore

I'm seriously sorry for what i've done

I sincerely seek for your forgiveness

I regretted what i said and wished

It would be erased away

I hope for things to turn back

Clinging onto every hope I have

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

I wish for that moment to come

For I'm waiting for that day to come

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

ive decided to change my final theory test date cos it's next tues and im not prepared at all & i dont think i can study for the next few days.

the way we talk to each other is totally different now.. so formal worse than how frens talk.. it's not even like the way we talk be4 we're together. right now there's nth i can do to make him happy wor sadded cos i disappoint him too much le. im really sorry.

i really hope things will not continue like this. past 3 days i stop crying alr & yet recently ive started crying secretly again. i cant sleep.. i know my family is worried for me.. my mum cried when we were at church on sunday & i heard she has been crying secretly as well.. she consult ms teo when ms teo called. i dun wan her to worry for me.. i dunno why time seems to passs very slowly. i tot this happened like 2 weeks ago.. but it's last thurs only. 5 days passed only.. sometimes i got no appetite to eat but ive to force myself to eat.. i dun wan to see my parents worried for me again..

i read the news about the dragon-boaters and i feel sad for them. 5 lives were lost juz like that. their families are devastated for losing their precious children. it makes me realise how fortunate am i to be able to live in this world. One of the victims is mr jeremy goh who's frm sim-uol. even though ive not seen him or known him be4, i can tell he's really a good fren to many pple. i saw video clips on straits times interactive where his closest frens were interviewed and his frens were very sad.. It makes me realise how unpredictable our lives are. we must always treasure the pple ard us and cherish the precious moments. i hope that families of the victims & well as the dragon boaters will be strong and they muz pull themselves up..


Pictures for ice skating























haha my 5 year old cousin.. see the small girl rite infront. tt's her. she knows how to skate but she refused to take away the metal bar thingy.























my cousins and bro.. my aunt's at the back..
























my aunt teaching me how to skate.. lols i was scared..

























LOL look at my 5 year old cousin in the middle.. she's so small compared to other pple at the rink..

what am i doing..

Part of the 翅膀 song

空气中藏著你的香味
回忆里躲著你的眼泪
最后拥抱的温暖还有一些
看一看回忆是云朵一朵朵的飘过
若想要回头就无法傲翔
since i love him i should trust him.. why am i not like my fren.. wad the hell am i doing.. now it's his exam period moreover & i didnt even know till i read his blog. yea both of us are confused now. there're many misunderstandings btwn us. i didnt mean to hurt u.. i really wish we can clear all the misunderstandings.. i shldnt just jump into conclusion. it seems that we're drifting apart and i really dont wish to see that. i'll not haf doubts abt him anymore.

i know u all are trying to help me thnks alot but not to worry i know wad im doing and i trust myself k.. i know that wadever is ahead and wadever that happens, God always has a plan for us and he has a purpose for doing that. God will not forsake us & he will continue to live in our lives.

北极星的眼泪

像断了线 消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去 你的脸
再等一会 奢望流星会出现
愿 如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天 或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远

北极星的眼泪 说不出的想念
原来我们活在 两个世界
北极星的眼泪 你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言 淹没在心里面
我抬头看着 爱不见

再等一会 奢望流星会出现
愿 如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天 或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远

当对的人 等不到对的时间
就在放开手的瞬间 爱撕成两边

整个宇宙都 流眼泪

我可以

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你
幸福它真的不容易

im currently fine & i tot over it already :) i shldnt think too much. gosh i added more stress to him only. sorry.. only make him sad and stressed up. howhowhhow?.. i borrowed the final theory guide book frm ryuo, thnks alot.. cos he was a student at there so got that book. mine is the 400 qns de no info at all lols have to memorise frm qns which is quite difficult i guess. today's econs lecture was abit dry cos all formulas only meaning those different variables and symbols. can u imagine 10 over pages full of those variables and words. banking was quite interesting cos it's the female lecturer who's lecturing. she's so much interesting compared to jonathon peh. at least i manage to listen most of it and not stone during the lesson. and i juz realised that prelims's in feb when she was talking abt it during lecture. i was shocked. 2 mths plus left only. i better start studying soon.. oh yea this sat i guess im gg ice skating again lols. my cousins are addicted to it haha. there's piano lesson tmr.. replacement lesson..

mh: nope i didnt tell them at all. of course i wouldnt haha or else i'll be in a deep deep trouble haha.

:) im feeling better today.. at last he msged me wifout me msging first. i was overjoyed lols. anw wishing him all the best in his exams.. jiayou all the way. dun be stressed up. once this hurdle is over u can enjoy yr holis le :)

the post after this post is abt the ice skating thingy & at grandma's hse. since the post too long i create another new post ba..

anw i shall reply the tags here.
ryuo: yup i try not to post emo de. yep next time go ice skating muz be well prepared. didnt know u know how to skate wor haha.
josh: di faster come back spore wor (:
mh: yep hope God will open up my parents' mind but partly cos im the kind who takes up easily but cant put down easily. i'll be very emotional cos i put too much feelings into it.. they're afraid it'll affect my studies since it has alr happened be4 during A levels.
kong: wad u think ur doing lols. tt's lame.
mel: yupp hope so.. i'll remain strong (: thnks alot. u too take care as well.

thnks for concerns.. it's like i went msn then pple asking me how am i etc.. thnksss alot (: anw today had fun cos i went ICE SKATING! haha first time. actually i didnt wan to go cos of usual reason but my bro and cousin kept forcing me to go haas so i went. however all of us didnt wear jeans. i wore shorts, my cousins, bro and aunt wore till knee that kind of pants.. then my aunt said nvm juz go.. reach there realised no socks no gloves lols but they provided gloves.. then we didnt wear socks.. since first time skate.. my aunt taught us how to tie the laces of the shoes.. after which all of us were looking for the metal bar thingy then i was the only one who dun haf then i dun dare go in the rink.. after which my uncle managed to get one for me cos i cant walk wif that shoes thingy. after which he helped me to get in the rink lor.. then i realised every single one wore jeans. i was the only one who wore shorts dots. then the metal bar so low somemore, i had to make sure the front is okies cos my top is loose.. moreover those holding the walker thingy were only 5 year old kids. i felt so paiseh la. then i skate and skate and i fell dots on my knee cap. it was painful ouch. then i juz stood up and continued skating. not long after tt, this young guy who's one of those pple who watches the safety of everyone suddenly talked to me.. he said i teach u how to skate.. juz bring up yr 2 hands and skate v shape kind can de.. then i said i scared to fall moreover i fell juz now.. then he talked so much only to realised that he wanted me to give the metal bar to smaller kids cos he said many of them dun haf. then he added this metal bar thingy is only for 1.2m and below. at that time the small kids were surrounding me alr to ask me for it. i damm ps. then i juz give them.. then my bro was there then he argued wif the guy la.. then all of them waiting outside the rink cos they got blisters. i didnt have any at all haha but i juz went out as well then i took out the shoes only to realise there's BLOOD on my knee cap ahh. then i quicky went to the shoes counter there and tried to get my the other shoe back cos i said my knee's hurt. the same guy was there again instead he gave me a plaster zz cos cant take back shoe. anw thnk him for giving me a plaster even though i din know they have haha. after which my uncle came back wif socks and plaster wow. thnk my uncle.. he's so nice and thoughtful. then continued skating but i was the last one to go in again cos no metal bar thingy. then my aunt held me and taught me to skate.. quite fun though it was scary. then juz skate at the side.. my aunt told me to balance and skate wifout holding anything and i did it wif a few steps yippie but most of the time one hand was grabbing something.. thnk my aunt for teaching me so patiently. anw it was fun overall. my uncle took photos and videos.. i shall post it when he sends me.. after ice skating went back grandma's hse at 7pm.. and it was juz nice for dinner time.. all of us ate together.. as usual cousins all sit at those olden time tt kind of chairs there all gathering.. some of us at floor cos no space.. then all chit chatting.. adults all sat at the usual big oval table.. be4 that my cousins were playing carrom board.. after dinner all of us played and challenged.. my uncles and dad played as well.. they're good at it haha but we kids aint bad as well.. my cousin participate in the carrom board competition be4 and won.. but we're better than her LOL =x. all of us can play well LOL. played till 9 plus i guess then went back then brought carrom board back.. back home bro and dad competing wif each other... my bro's good at it. same as my dad ba.. so hard to say who win lor. normally i pair up wif my bro play against 4 other pairs de haha.. many pple play carrom at my dad's side..

my final theory test is coming omgosh la it's on dec 4th and banking test's on dec 3rd. at this point of time i wonder how am i gg to survive. final theory test is more important but these few days my mind got no mood to do anything. hope i can persevere on. i muz study my final theory test alr. thnks ryuo for offering to help me in revising for the final theory test and also for talking wif me last nite.. today had bbq supposed to be a bbq for my bro's, sis's and my frens de. but due to some stuffs it was changed to family bbq.. so my relatives came over.. i was at first rather not into the bbq thingy cos ive no mood. but during bbq.. i enjoyed myself talking wif my relatives and cousins.. it's like whenever im wif my relatives we play and talk and it's really like a big family gathering. it's really warm and it's really nice.. then we play the party streamers.. i ate fried bee hoon, curry chicken, satay, chicken wing and i bbqed mashmallows. many others like prawns, pork chop, sweet potato etc i never eat.. i got like no mood to eat much. after tt i ate chocolates frm japan. it's like so nice never seen that kind of chocolate be4. one was like crisy kind de the other chocolate is all chocolate but muah kee that kind soft de.. i used my hand to take then it's like gg to drop LOL. then suddenly all my cousins are gone except me and xy.. then we busy bbqing mashmallows.. then went up to my hse cos we know they muz be playing carrom. so went up then only seen 3 pairs of slippers-my bros and 2 cousins. then the rest were at the playground playing wif the small children.. soon after tt they came up.. ard 10 of us children were at my hse plus my uncle.. then my sis and i need to take care of the 2 year old de. suddenly she said she wanna go urinate then both my sis and i brought her to the toilet and i carried her up the toilet bowl lol. then after toilet she wans to play piano.. then let her sit and play.. then she anyhow play haha then she flipped the books then ask me hold the page for her zz then i hold.. then she plays and my 14 year old cousin and i wanted to play but she shoo our hands off haha. then after she played she flipped again and asked me to hold the page for her LOL. so cute rite. then my 9 year old cousin saw the rush hour mind boogling puzzle in my room and she wans to play so took it out to living room. me, she and 5 year old cousin played rush hour. woah my 5 year old cousin knows who to play rush hour cos she has one that is almost similar at home as well. then my 2 year old cousin wans to join in and she tries to put those trucks and car on top of the puzzle thingy haha then my 5 year old cousin stopped her and got pissed off lols. after tt they wanted to play heart attack so i played wif them.. so 3 of us playing. then 2 year old cousin wanted to play and she joined in. she said "heart attack" so loudly HAHA and placed her hand down on floor so cute la. she dunno how to play so my 5 year old cousin was angry and said told her to get away cos she dunno how to play.. then she was super angry la haha. then my 2 year old cousin still heart attack all the way haha. they were 27 pple in my hse all at living room. everyone sitting ard on floor and chair.. then whole hse very noisy can feel the warmth :) then my dad switched on the 2 big aircons in the living room.. everyone stayed till 11pm then they went off.. glad that my mind was distracted tonite..

this is the worse period of my life.. why are things getting this way. why am i so affected? i put too much deep feelings inside it alr. i must rmb the fact that i do not have much experience and hence i cant take this situation well. it's true that eventually we may not end up forever someday somehow we muz be be prepared for this heart breaking day. since it's 1 mth and im alr so sad wad more few mths.. thnks to all who comforted, persuaded and counselled me.. thnks kong for helping to distract my mind frm this till near 3 am last nite.. and my junior for talking wif me for the whole afternoon. i know all yr good intentions & yr concerns for me.. i've to pyscho my mind so that i wont feel that sad.. some tell me juz forget abt this some tell me no juz wait.. i think time will tell everything that's wad my frens say.. sometimes i wonder how he feels abt this but i dun dare to ask.. i still rmb he tells me dun put haiz. so every post i always rmb not to haiz cos he dun wan to see me sad. i wan things to turn out tt way but it's not. actually the hurt ive now cannot be compared cos it's really great. wad i can do now is to be strong :)

last nite i slept at 3.30 am.. i woke up at 6 something and suddenly tot of it and cried again. after which i never sleep at all. im super tired. mentally and physically.

to him if he's reading this. thnks for the moments we spent together for a period of 1 mth. i had many happy memories like at airport, amk hub, bishan park, stadium etc. u added colours to my life and make me haf a different perspective of r/s in my life. thnks for being there for me & for being caring and concern towards me..

why must this happened at this point of time when we're doing well. 1 mth only. im glad to know him.. my life became different.. i'll never forget 21st oct.. it will forever be in my memories.. if there's fate.. even after a period of time.. there's still chance. i must always rmb it's not the end. we're still frens and we can still go out wif each other.. the only difference is the status which is impt to me as well.. i really hope things can turn back.. im juz too affected. actually i dun mind if it cannot be an open one.. dun be too obvious can alr.. i really wan to be wif him. the pain i have is terrible rite now. i really hope my parents' mindset can be changed. although they dun mind me going wif him alone as frens but wad's the point.. frens only. Lord, i know that u want the best for yr children.. it's not that we're doing something that is dishonourable & disgraceful to yr name.. i know we muz be honourable to our parents but they're juz being too narrow-minded. I really hope their mindset can be changed.. our thinking is not that far yet but seriously if someone ask me if he's suitable to be part of my life i'll say yes. i still rmb during my workplace when ashikah was asking jason if he ever tot if his gf is suitable to be his wife.. he said he dun mind and as long as they're together till they're of marriagable age why not.

yes? no? i dont know.


time passes fast yeaaaa. coming 1 mth alr.. 25 days..


i think it's time for me to meet my frenss.. didnt meet them for so long alr.. miss themm..

ouch the mosquito bites are still there.. so itchy cant stop myself frm scratching.. argh. went facial wif mum and sis today and all of us did pedicure as well.. i chose a dark pink colour.. when the beautician was doing i was feeling quite bad cos it's like she's helping us to massage, scrub etc our feets. then she needs to move the stuffs here and there.. quite poor thing leh. i did facial first followed by pedicure. i love the ambience there.. the lightings and interior design are nice.. there's also those classical music being played.. everything ended at 7.45 after which walked over to plaza sing. since sis had piano tonite we juz bought stuffs at bysi.. i think their clothes are modern even though they're quite matured.. after which went back to haf our dinner..

omgosh die die ive been slacking all day long. i better buck up and work hard.

today's maths lecture was just purely teaching on simple, & compound interest and also savings. apparently we learnt it during our sec sch days. the lecture notes are only 4 pages but she took 3 hours to do that topic cos she went thru some egs. mrs mena told us today's lesson will be her last lesson teaching us, another teacher will teach us stats frm next week onwards. it seems sad like tt but then everyone cant wait for her lessons to be over. after maths was poa and it was rather fast. the teacher wrote many stuffs on the board & rushing like a bullet train then many of us are copying it hurriedly. we're behind time i guess.. after poa went meet at amk hub.. went arcade to see a while be4 heading to the library. the books there are rather little even though the library is big.. after which went walk rd the park and i got 8 mosquito bites frm there lol. then he bought bubble tea and cheese fries then we ate at the void deck then headed home.. then.........

i guess im too free ba hahas. time passes super fast and now's coming to christmas..

HAPPY BDAY PENG SIANG & MING!

today's rather boring.. i think i shld do something meaningful. anw im gg to beijing for 5 days frm 19 dec to 23 dec. im super excited cos this will be the first time ever to sit SIA flight lols. oh ya not forgetting my first time experiencing snow as well. cant wait for tt day to arrive..


anw i recd another msg in the morning at 5am.. the msg is 'hey.. just a short msg here to let u know i haven't forgotten u nor given up.. i really hope things will return to e past one day.. take care'. pls for goodness sake juz leave me alone. wad u've done is a great impact in my life. i cannot forget wad u did and how u treat me. this ending is wad u deserve. i really dont wish to be cheated anymore.

shall blog abt today.. guess wad i forgot to set my alarm on my phone. freak arh lol cos i went to charge my phone overnite. talked last nite till my batt left 4%. phew my maid woke me up at 6.50am but it's still late lols. i quickly rush like mad.. brush up, bathe, choose my clothes etc.. by the time it was 7.25am alr.. then when i reached the bus stop.. i waited so long for the bus argh by the time it was 7.40.. then i took 112 bus to the busstop of 151.. the 151 express bus had left quite long ago so i was left wif no choice but to take the usual 151 bus. as usual the bus was quite filled up alr and the time was alr 7.55. apparently i was late for sch and moreover it was econs lecture.. reached the lecture hall at 8.50 and when i walked in many eyes turned and looked at me. was late plus rite the lecture hall is the the small group kind ard 100 pple there. after econs was banking. the teacher is so boring sigh and practically everyone was stoning at the teacher haha. he's the worst teacher i ever seen. i can juz study banking on my own. the study guide's much better than his lecture notes seriously. after banking lesson i went wif joyce to vivo cos we're meeting peng siang there for dinner at 5pm . wow it has been long since i last visited vivo. went to walk round the 1st and 2nd floor. went in build a bear shop to see.. all the bears are so cuteeeeee haa :) we went many many boutiques.. then when we're at zara.. ps called joyce and he came to find us.. after which we went marche to eat.. i think heeren village is better than marche even though both's almost the same. we finished ard 7 plus then went starbucks to chill. shared wif joyce java chip while ps bought some hot coffee stuffs?? not sure.. then we were talking abt econs lecturer cos he's super lame. the egs he gave are "cold". then told ps abt that particular crocodile and ck brands eg. all of us laughed like mad la lol. after which since it was joyce's dad bday today we had to go back early. so after which we went back le....




im super disturbed.. got flooded wif msges and calls juz now. can u juz leave me alone pls. i know ur trying to make me think of u using psychology methods. argh.
irritating.. called me but i purposely miss it then he msged hey charmaine i cant understand why u're doin this to me, but all i wanna let u know is tt i miss u v much n i've realised ur importance to me so pls come back. so i replied back sorry im not able to do so. then he called and i miss it again and he msged i know ur're there but u just cant forgive me or sth right..? all i wanna let u know is tt i really just wish for one last chance to love u like how i should.. then he called twice and i missed it. then he msged honestly running away wont solve anything.. it'll just make me worse than i alr am n i aint gonna give up really.. pls just gimme five mins of ur time pls. then called 3 times i missed it then he msged alrite shall not bug u anymore.. good luck to ur current relationship hope he treats u well n u'll be happy.. pls take care of yrself.. i miss you. then tt's the end he never calls or msg le. called 7 times in juz less than 20 mins. crazy.

hmm sch started alr ever since 31st july. i purposely chose my time-table in such a way that i go to sch for only 2 days. great rite haa? anw because there're only 4 modules which ive to take meaning 4 lectures to attend per week. each lecture is 3 hours and there's no tutorials at all. all the tutorials are gone thru during lecture.. the bad part is there are no classes so it's like everyone goes for the lecture then after lecture everyone heads outside the sch alr. luckily be4 sch started i went for the 1 day freshman orientation.. make frens there and found out some of my sec sch frens are there & i think quite a number of my jc schmates r there too.. not only there, i went wif jiaying to the tennis camp.. make even more frens and coincidentally pearl lam is in the same group as me.. i was so glad haa. tennis camp was fun. we had those pick up lines stuffs of games which was super funny. we had post camp dinner after tt as well at heeren village but not many turned up. mostly were seniors and there were quite a number of them.. back to school stuffs, lessons are boring especially banking.. maths teacher was like quite boring as well and most of us have no idea wad's she talking abt due to her indian accent.. but gradually we get used to it and we slowly understand her lecture.. oh ya exams are like next year end may only pretty long to exams lol. hope i can do well for the exams..


ive long forgotten that person.. ive alr thought for very long and it's juz impossible.. anw that's past and history alr. wish tt e person wont contact me anymore i hope. but even if that person wans to contact i also wont reply nor call back cos wad he done to me was far too great an impact on me alr. besides now im currently doing well.. leading a happy life :) hope this can last forever :)


i'll update my blog often whenever ive time yups.

i decided to revive my blog yesterday.. so i continued changing the skin and stuffs. my blog's really deserted lol. many pple changed links alr... i think i'll update pple tmr..

omgosh. i highlighted my hair. wanted a colour that blends wif my hair. but it turns out like golden. the hairdresser insisted on me cutting my fringe also cos she thinks i'll look like wif short fringe. i said dun wan. but she said juz try... looks cute. i was like i dun wan to be cute. zz... in the end she cut. at first cut still okie.. the shorter she cuts.. looks too short alr. sigh. my fringe became so short.

wow after such a long time. i finally changed my skin and updated this blog. im finally quitting iras hahas. last day 4th july.

it has been long since i posted lols. anw it seems that i deserted this blog eh. i'll update the links one day when im free.. now working too busy le..

no time to change the background and blog.. cos im currently working at iras.. it was tough.. need to attend the training then ans calls.. i think admin is better lor.. same salary also.. 6.50 per hour..

i changed the background.. add something to the pic.. links not done yet.. but the background seems too bright and striking.. it doesnt match like tt..

under construction

i juz hope each day will be filled with happiness and that the next day will be a new beginning for me..

i went back to pl wif mel today. wow the whole sch's changed.. when we reached there, some teachers were there.. HODs plus vp. then both of us dare not go in frm the front cos there were reporters there. lol. then rite.. we decided to walk in frm the side gate. lol. saw few seniors there. we walked rd the whole sch... saw some teachers and said hi to them.. the sch's really very nice.. but the toilets were divided into 2. then the murals cant be properly. wat a waste.. then the sch hall is big.. 4 court size.. then the auditorium too but there were some works going on.. oh there's lift too.. finally... i wonder who is it for.. teachers only? then mr tang talked to us.. lol... i saw my cousin.. then saw esther wong too.. she came wif huiwen, shuyan and cherlyn.. oh 3 of them went back to become relief teachers. lol... after that juz see then went off le..

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

i dun feel like continuing the post abt prom.. cos i wan to blog abt my trip to genting. my cousin came along wif us cos my sister complained that my bro and i dare not sit space shot so she wans my cousin to accompany her for tt ride lol. first day of genting. everyone woke up at 6am. my sis didnt sleep at all cos she was afraid she couldnt wake up. left the hse at 6 something to fetch my cousin from her hse. we went to tuas checkpt.. to our surprise there was no jam at all.. only 4 cars were there.. so went past the checkpt quickly.. reached genting abt 1pm cos ate lunch too.. waited very long to check in first world hotel not because there were too little counters.. there were lots of them.. 20 over.. it's the processing of the keys and rooms.. my dad was at the counter at least 45 mins.. the lady said the room was no ready.. so haf to wait. we booked 2 superior rooms cos my cousin came along wif us.. actually we booked the world club room.. it's spacious.. has living room... very big.. but not enough for 6 pple which includes my cousin. at last the rooms were ready.. we went to the hotel rooms.. but they are non-connecting and the rooms are not side by side.. there was a room inbtwn.. so we had to walk to and fro.. my sis, cousin and i stayed one room.. my parents and bro stayed the other room.. it's at the 12th floor.. after that, we unpacked the stuff and rest for a while.. then we went shopping at first world.. my mum shopped as usual but we decided to go play.. so my dad brought us.. and my bro, cousin and i rock-climbed... it's indoor.. juz beside the one and only food court there.. omgosh. at first nobody was there... then i started to rock climb first cos my cousin and bro dun wan to do first.. they forced me to go first.. fine so i went first.. i never rock climb before so i was afraid i couldnt get up. lol. but quite ok la.. but once i started to climb, there were more and more crowds.. so embarrassing.. i was stuck when i climbed cos no suitable stone (is that called stone?) was there for me to hold on and step.. then i got no more strength so i decided to stop climbing and jumped.. then when i jumped, i hit the other side of the wall.. everyone was laughing like mad lol.. then next was my bro.. he's so thin but he managed to climb.. he had no strength halfway thru. lol. then my cousin climbed. she got so much strength.. she climbed higher than both of us.. but none of us can complete cos it's 2 stories high.. after that we walked and decided to go to the arcade.. but my sis, dad and i were tired cos we slept very little hours the night before.. my sis didnt sleep at all.. then my mum called to meet us cos she needs the world card frm my dad to accumulate pts. then we decided to go back to the hotel and rest first.. so my dad, sis, cousin and i went back to the hotel.. my bro wans to play so he followed my mum.. at the part where we went to different ways, we were outside the casino.. i wanted to go in to see.. so i asked my dad. then my dad dun wan cos he said see only then not fun.. he wans to play.. but i was not sure if it's 18 or 21.. so i went to the rules and regulation board.. it stated 21 and above.. dots.. i wanted to go in to fake but my dad dun wan to go... so we went back to hotel.. instead of resting we went down to starbucks to use the laptop till 6.30pm before we brought it up.. we bought lollipops frm starbucks cos need to buy some stuff as we used the wireless internet there.. i had only 10 ringgit wif me so cant buy drinks. not enough money.. the drinks cost at least 10 bucks. then i brought my cousin and bro across the big road to the outside of outdoor theme park. we saw the flying coaster.. so fun and decided to take that ride the next day. we went back hotel then went to the food court without my sis (she's sick) to eat hot rock. very nice food.. they heated the stone to over 100 degree celsius.. then put it on the plate.. put raw chicken on it with cinnamon.. there's also plain rice. we are supposed to cook the chicken ourselves and eat it.. yummy.. then we went to play arcade.... fun.. we got 428 tix.. after that went back hotel.. ate supper.. played uno till 1am.. shall continue tmr..

it's has been long since i blog.. anw i shall talk abt prom.. it was on nov 30th at marina mandarin.. ya it's marina mandarin again. sec 4 was there too lol. i wanted to wear that black dress which my mum bought early this year when we went shopping. my mum tot it shld be ard the hse since it's not worn before. ive been askin mum to find it... there are like too many clothes in the whole hse.. all stacked up.. very difficult to find.. 2 days before prom nite, my mum realised it's wif the manufacturer. omgosh i was so sad.. cant wear that dress.. so the next day my mum and i went orchard to find.. i dun even like the dresses.. went to future london.. i saw deepa.. then went daniel yan i saw 1 sr girl.. but i dun like the dresses there.. later my sis came to meet us.. then we left orchard at 9 plus to go to city plaza cos there's one gown shop there. my mum's shop there anw. tried the dresses there.. and finally found one. yippie. the bottom is super duper fluffy man. all lace.. it's black. wanted to buy white. but i think too attracting attention.. haha. then white's easily dirtied so bought black more class anw. haha. then on the prom day.. my cousin came to my hse. tt day was super busy for my mum cos she needs to collect my dress as it was being altered. then my mum came back to send me to a nearby salon for styling my hair. new hairstyle.. it's super high lol. then went back home. my mum and sis busy doing my cousin hair plus our make-up.. my cousin's hair done by my sis and touched up by my mum. omgosh every thinks my cousin went to salon to do... she didnt lol. they said her hairstyle looks like it's been done by a professional. wow my sis is so tt good haha. so both of us chose our heels and bags.. all last minute hahah. then my mum sent us to the hotel.. she wanted to go down to see.. i stopped her cos so embarrassing. entered the hotel.. so many pple there.. eyes were on both my cousin and i.. whenever someone enters, everyone will look hahahha cos everyone wore so nice on that day.. wow my friends also went salon.. they looked different man.. pretty.. then we hid at a corner and dun let anyone to see hahah.. but we were being asked to move to another side.. wow the dressing is totally different frm sec 4.. for sec 4 prom, everyone wore gown and dresses.. it's like so formal that time... for jc, omgosh.. pple wore short kind of dresses with a top hat.. boots... omgosh. different dressing.. then got one dress up like a bar girl.. i shall continue another day.. anw im going to genting tmr till thurs.. shall continue on fri..

i think i can only blog tmr. haha. i juz came back only.. super tired.. it's 12 plus plus le..