today supposed to go church hence i would be late for gathering but in the end didnt go church.. so quickly get ready for gathering.. meeting at 12 but.. all of us were late lols. only xn was early.. the rest of us were late lols. then on the way at cityhall gg up the escalator saw cheryl lols then i was on the line wif emily somemore.. then i juz waited for her cos she was rite at the back.. omgosh she changed alot.. her physical appearance haha. then both of us were the latest.. we reached then saw jasmine, limin, xn, weiyun.. then tried calling miss hee but she didnt pick up.. so we went off first..walked to marina sq.. met emily at there. wow i realised everyone in pl all looks toot last time then come out of pl everything also change.. hairstyle, dressing.. all become so feminine lor haha.. cool. in the end we ate at swensens cos cafe cartel dun haf a table for 9 pple.. then sat there ate.. finished eating le.. suddenly yq, vanessa hong and tay came.. i shocked to see them.. didnt know vanessa tay would be coming as well.. then 3 of them as so much changes la.. all so feminine.. all long hair.. wearing skirts, shorts wadever.. all dress up so nice haha.. then 10 of us sat and we had fun talking.. then asked one of the waiter to take pictures for us.. all 10 girls lol. the waiter had to hold 5 cameras LOL. we posed for so long haha. after which we went walk ard.. walked to arcade.. wanna play pool there but some dun wan.. so wanted to play arcade then like quite inappropriate.. we're dressed up ma.. so walked off decided to find one place to sit down.. saw long john, bk, kfc.. no space.. went in mac.. saw a long table but no chairs. it's like a grp of 10 walking in then we juz went out to the open air of mac. then saw starbucks there inside no space at all.. so we juz sat the open air starbucks. the atmosphere quite cold la.. then we seniors giggling to ourselves dunno how to start talking wif the 3 of them.. so in the end talked abit.. then cheryl said take photos since the backgrd there is esplanade.. so we brought out our cameras then some took photos. the 5 of us took.. 4 cameras lols. then soon the 7 of us took cos the 3 of them went toilet.. then got 6 cameras there for wy to take lols. we asked 2 guys to help us take.. they shocked haha so many cameras.. one of them joked 1 dollar for one camera haha. then 3 of them came back.. they took photos.. after which some went off.. 5 of them went off.. left 5 of us.. we went walked ard marina sq.. went dorothy perkins.. jasmine tried jeans there then bought one.. the rest of us so tired lols. then went home after tt.. i took till potong pasir, dad fetched me to grandma's hse..
as usual alot of us.. everyone is present except my cousin cos she's working temp job then too tired.. my grandma's hse is olden days semi detached de.. so super small.. but u know got 29 of us in the hse so crowded..then they bring out the big dining table as usual.. all parents sitting there.. 2 by 2 as in husband, wife.. really nice. then there were 20 plates of dishes on the table.. alot man.. cos my uncle's back frm thailand then he cooked alot cos usually he cook de but ever since he went thailand all the ladies cook.. then it was bday celebration time again. my cousin's 23rd bday!! her bday's on 1st jan.. nice cake frm four seasons.. took pictures, sang songs again.. then we distributing gifts frm beijing lots of it.. keychains, chopsticks, shirts etc.. hang ard.. chit chat.. went off after tt. haiz my com cant open the memory card so cant upload the pics.. tmr gg countdown wif my relatives.. celebrate 2008!!!!

went changi village for early dinner. as usual 2 big stingrays, fried egg, lala, kang kong.. wif my favourite soya bean drink.. then my sis bought fried wanton.. then she went support wj's mum juice stall.. went buy fried sweet potato, tapioca.. went home then left again to town. went isetan mango.. bought tops and skirt.. necklace too.. nice!!

today went cycling wif joshua and bro at east coast.. cycled 2 hours.. funny la haha. after cycling went pedicure.. reached home at 11..


my bro and i both haha eating that candy cane. i too kiddy alr LOL.

ive to do it the hard way..

another gathering on 2nd Jan 2008 lunch.. wif diana... anything contact me thnks!!!

beijing trip post coming up!!!
i tried my very best alr and im not so emo alr!!
no choice ive to do it the hard way.

MICROMOUSE GATHERING on 30th DEC!
lunch at marina square most likely.. thinking of that ice cream buffet thingy cum steamboat.. anw ard there like citylink also got plenty of food.. can see u all after such a long time!!! anything contact me or xn..

i changed my blogskin to beijing scenary de so nice. anw still in the midst of blogging my beijing trip lols. at day 3 only haha. super long. enjoyed myself very much. the best trip ever. best tour group.. best tour guide. everyone's a joker even the ah gong also. the other family ah ma so cute she's 63 yet so young in mind when we talked to her. since 13 of us left beijing first the other 8 leaving the next day. the 8 of them sent us to airport. then everyone is like bu se de. everyone byes here and there. really bu se de lor.. sad la..

this trip makes me happy once and for all and made me think thru many stuffs.
-im not clinging onto it alr. tt's enough.
-haiz stonefish still.. dun wan to give up fine.
-i cant stand it.. so.. ah.. help.. i alr told u liao future i dunno!!
-another irritating argh. let me think of reasons.

im at beijing now!! using sis com cos she brought but cant go blogspot only can go blogger dots. the blogger in chinese somemore lols. beijing super cold.. freezing lols. the river all frozen.. but no snow sobs. but can see traces of snow cos last week snowed. but here fun.. today went forbidden city and tian an men to see.. the palace so big man.. SUPER BIG. the yu hua yuan also got haha saw on tv now can see rl.. anw everything also can see.. like emperor, empress, empress dowager, concubines sleeping rooms.. prince studying place etc.. many stuffs and interesting history.. tmr gg great wall of china and hot spring haha.. continue after i come back..

met jieying, junhao, joshua at orchard mrt station in the morning. i wore dress again wif heels then i think quite kua zhang cos like gg for dinner. then joshua & jieying kept saying cutie voice dots. walked to cine to buy tix for alvin & the chipmunks after which went long john to eat lunch. today's super fun and the whole day was so lame cos both josh & junhao kept saying cold stuffs. very cold today lor haha. "cold" and cold cos of weather so add up together can u imagine how cold it is? then walked rd & we went 9th floor to take a look at the e-max thingy. wow so big & there were so many rooms. soon it was 2.15pm went to 4th floor bought food then went in cinema. alvin & the chipmunks is so nice to watch. i tot enchanted is damm nice alr but this chipmunks can be comparable or rather nicer. damm cute haha. i love their very first christmas song. the hula hoop part so cute. i love the ALVINNNN part haha. the 3 chipmunks the way the move chao funny. but i think enchanted the chipmunk that witch & princess part which he acted funnier. i changed my blog song to tt song and it's part of the movie part. after movie.. went hotel take pictures lols cos no other places to take ma.. after tt went walk everywhere.. then jieying need to leave first at 5pm.. then me and them went to walk till dhoby gaut frm orchard mrt.. then etc blah blah.. then went home..

went out eat wif family to eat.. then i think cos i wear too kua zhang. those pple at the teochew porridge there staring non stop sia. then got this cute boy who's helping out shld be 15 years old ba frm start till end of dinner staring non stop =.= then i stared back then both stare at each other z.

haha juz take at the teochew porridge there. all florescent lights there. super bright. i went there cant look up.. i can only look down. anw pictures for today's de will post after i come back cos quite a number. anw time to go! woah my sis bringing laptop lols. thnks all for wishes too! will bring back souvenirs & kong ask me go buy accessories or clothes for him =.=

at home take de haha cos bringing this cap to beijing. tried to find the other caps but cant find. those like how to say leh. slanted de.. tt kind like fiona xie got wear be4 de.

hmm ahh lost. dots la. dunno wad u talking lor. then suddenly change tone zz. yea i'll la.

shat dunno la. . sorry i dunno wad to say so juz leave those msges alone.

great man jh wanna help me so tt i can overcome future "monsoons" haha.

today's lesson for econs was tiring for me. i nearly fell asleep.. luckily the tea during break kept me awake after tt. banking lesson, yiling and yentinge went too.. so we sat together.. and this joke came along.
yiling: charmaine, this thurs wanna go zoo?
I: (super shocked) huh zoo?
yiling: ya zoo, UOL zoo.
then i thinking huh wad uol zoo thingy? i tot she wanna go zoo then okies lor go zoo lor.. so..
I: Zoo?
yiling: nono, Zouk..
I: oh zouk arh zz i tot u wanna go spore zoo LOL. cannot wor im alr on holiday.
so funny la.. then i told joyce both of us laughing like mad. then stop laughing alr.. then i tot abt it then say out again then laugh again. i heard zouk as zoo. zouk=zoo?

after sch went funan IT mall wif joyce to collect the notebook at service hub. queue no was 1481 while it was 1439 there so we tot it'll be still long. so decided go eat lunch. ate le went back 1485 le dots. so got another number it was 1555. wow it was like so far away. so we decided to juz stay there ba. so sat at the seats inside waited not very long cos many numbers were skipped. pple not there. so it was soon 1555 do those procedures then she got the HP lappy at the redemption zone. i think those lappy can flip de COOL.

after tt went home then left home again to go Taiwan Porridge at Oasis to celebrate mum's bday. it's gg to move next year cos of the building of some sports hall thingy. came back home.. busy talking online etc, phone.. then cake cutting time. damm funny. it's super hilarious. damm funny. my bro so cute la. he every year give present to mum la. then it's like he wraps the present.. then u know guys probably dunno how to wrap.. he wrapped it so cute. then my mum opened up the present it's a sheep LOL cos my mum born in year of sheep. then my mum said no wonder my bro kept asking which year of animal is she born in haha. then my sis tell dad take kawaii pic wif her. then my dad put cheeze at eye there SO funny la. laughing like mad.. many pictures.. but cant find sd card reader. only found the small de.. need bigger de..

tmr im gg out wif.. haha. watching alvin and the chipmunks. woah watched enchanted juz last tues now watching chipmunks. enchanted de chipmunks so cute so i think this chipmunks also shld be interesting.

hmm i dunno how to tell u leh.. i dun dare say it straight to u.. sorry now im still recovering and currently not thinking of it.. plus thnks for those msges.. touched but still dun haf tt feelings yet. and i think future also not possible.. sorry. we're of 2 different worlds.

today attended youth service at pl. familiar shadows once seen again.. the sermon today is really applicable to me.. talking about unhealthy souls and emotions. the speaker was saying it's normal to haf emotions eg crying even though guys seldom cry haha. abt the part of unhealthy souls.. the speaker listed out symptoms of it and solutions are to Rest in God, Renew our mind and Restore each other. everything thru bible, prayers etc. hope i can do it.

didnt go grandma's hse today. watched STAR AWARDS 2007 at home juz now.. it's really nice to watch. i'll definitely watch it every year including the qing gong yan. this years results very unexpected. i was really super shocked. the top 10 most popular female artisties is so shocking. cant imagine the 7 princesses only 3 got it & jeanette aw didnt get it. im surprised. when ming dao said 2 chinese characters i tot it was her but it was kym ng. anw kym ng also deserved it having worked so hard.. wow lai yiling got it surprised though. the top 10 most popular male artisties is so super nice. my favourite fann wong and xiao zhu giving out the awards LOL & it's really hilarious. so many 'husbands'. christopher lee is so sweeeeettt.. kissed her twice somemore. mark lee's a joker la. that part of the show was really damm high and funny.. xiao zhu so cute he said wow spore here so high de haha. so funny. i didnt expect zhang dong yao & dasmond koh to get but probably cos new pple shld get it le ba instead of the usual one. terence cao is not really in the limelight wor. i rmbed last year he wore the tuxedo so shuai la. anw christopher lee, bryan wong, zheng ge ping, chen han wei, elvin ng, xiao zhu are all so manly and shuai omgosh la.. not only tt 183 club also ahhh.. tall & shuai plus my 5566 wang ren pu haha. wow qing gong yan they still make fun of fann wong lol so funny. i cant wait for both of them to get married..

im totally wrong. cant believe my eyes. not a need to change it. i seen it all.. not me it's U. get it right. _ _ _ R T! cannot be blamed cos the day has not arrived yet..

i believe God will do whatever that is appropriate.

on tues nite my bro and i watched SEA games. the tv stated live telecast and it was showing the swimming events. it was 800m women's medley i guess, my bro & i was watching closely & we're like so damm excited lols. then she won YEAH. after tt it was 4x100m medley for men then i tot the whole swimming event was repeated cos i rmbed seeing on straits times sports section that the 4 guys got gold medal in a swimming relay hence i tot it was that one. however it wasnt cos they came in 3rd. not bad. the guy swimming freestyle is good man. best in asia woah.

my room is flooded wif clothes.. belts..

Wednesday 12 Dec yesterday watched enchanted at ps GV. nice show it's super funny. everyone shld go watch. it's so cute. when the princess is in the real world when she sang the song all cockroaches, rats, mouse etc came out LOL instead of those chipmunks, rabbits, swallow etc in the cartoon world. then in the real world, she makes dresses using the curtains & rug super funny. the curtains all got that shape of her dress LOL. anw after movie went white sands shopping mall met tatarah pple & sis' frens. went kfc to eat. wow big gang LOL. 10 guys & 2 girls in black. guys all 16 years old zz but one girl is 12 dots. that grp wanted to go escape but i cant go la im wearing dress ma.. so my sis, sis's 2 frens suggested pool so we went lor then the big grp went escape. reached downtown went arcade first.. then we played car racing daytona de. i competed wif my sis's 2 frens advance de cos play be4 ma & also learnt be4 how to turn at sharp bends and i got 3rd sobs meaning last lol. then walked round arcade see after which went pool.. played for 2 hours plus.. we had a fun time laughing LOL it's super funny. both my sis and i dunno how to play but her frens know so teach us lor. then her frens paid for us leh my sis gave him 10 bucks no matter wad he still dun wanna take. my sis tried all kinds of ways even when gg home that time take same bus.. my sis gave him the money. both of them pushing each other to take the money till whole bus pple watching LOL. in the end he faster alight at his bus stop then push the money back to my sis. back to story.. after pool went arcade again. my sis played basketball wif her fren share one machine after tt she played alone.. her fren also took one machine to play.. then my sis play stage 2 then tired asked the other fren take over play.. went mac eat mcflurry yummy then walked past a performance being put up for children.. then home sweet home.

took me unnoticed lol.

performance

after reaching home not long ago piano teacher came.. guess wad i broke down infront of her while playing the 3rd movement sonata by clementi and it was near the end of lesson alr. i was stressed up cos didnt practise tt movement at all rather hardly practise piano at all. then i told her wad happened.. yeps.

SUNDAY 19 DEC last sunday didnt attend youth service so just stayed home. bathed etc to get ready to go to grandma's hse. dad came back ard 3 and sudddenly popped out a bubble tea lols. i was happy :) it's my favourite chocolate milk tea hahas. first time he bought for me wifout me telling him to buy lol. i was really surprised. then my mum jokingly said he pampers me haha. every week i'll drink at least 3 times bubble tea. when i was working, i drank chocolate milk tea frm monday to friday. crazy huh. then ard 4 plus went to grandma's hse. oh ya mum bought a chocolate sponge cake frm bengawan solo (since no more prima deli which we used to buy frm) for my 14 year old cousin cos her bday's on 10th (monday) plus her mum & sis came back only on that day frm msia.. so celebrate for her at grandma's hse.. good man she got 2 cakes lols.. one on 9th the other on 10th wif her family. then we played carrom again.. had to wait quite long so in the end didnt play. this period is carrom be4 that was captain's ball LOL. instead i played wif the 2 year old girl so cuteeee.. i had to feed her dinner haha cos she dun wan her maid to feed her. im used to feeding small kids alr cos ive been feeding my 5 year old cousin since she was 2 as well. taking care of her is really tiring haha. she's hyperactive & i muz make sure she does not fall.. soon it was dinner. my oldest aunt & family came over and guess wad- another cake. we were all so shocked then realised oh it's my oldest cousin bday haha. he bought frm four seasons the mango cake. after dinner my cousins and uncles continued playing carrom while my aunts and i were watching star awards prelude. it was really touching and sad watching tt. all their hard work in the past, those memories.. really nice. i watched till 9 plus.. i LOVE the KOPI-O song haha i watched that show every monday to fri morning 10am de on days which ive no sch. then it was bday time. took out both cakes then my 2 cousins-2 & 5 year old rushed to there and stood on the chairs cos the cake was placed on a mahjong table haha. then everyone were like oh it seems as though it's their bday LOL cos the 2 bday cousins dun wanna stand there.. they paiseh haha. then we took plenty of pics. ate lots of cake cos got 2 cakes YUMMY YUMMY.. took many photos. it's really nice gathering.. Every sunday we'll gather & everyone will bring raw dishes then all cook together de.. after tt we'll haf desserts like ice-cream wif 7-up or coke or grass jelly/almond jelly/longan drink/green bean soup.. depends lor haha. so when it was time to go home.. everyone dun feel like gg home.. that nite we went back late cos bday celebration. then my aunt forgot to bring back fruits etc so we make a trip to her hse to pass to her then after which sent my cousin back to her home.

TUESDAY DECEMBER 12 i'll go crazy one day.
i think im too slipshod in some stuffs.
i saw this jc photo.. how i wish it was back to tt time but i still miss sec sch days.. im watching enchanted tmr. at last! nice show i heard.

today went winter wear warehse bought many stuffs like beanies, ear muffs, scarfs, warmer etc.. i cant wait to wear the beanie lol. there are so many mirrors there then saw this mirror make me looks tall lol. decided to wear dress today cos it has been long since i wore one.

After which went hougang mall to eat.. watched the Act 3 drama.. bought somemore wool clothings.. went home.. came out an hour later to eat at Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant at Turf City cos auntie, uncle treating my family.. i didnt know they ordered so many dishes.. somemore so little of us.. my sis didnt go.. they ordered big plates zz. 2 different vegs, prawns, salted egg crab, chilli crab, roasted chicken, pork ribs, red garoupa fish plus one more i forgot and their desserts da mai & mango pudding..

this is my little boy cousin so cute.. he's sleeping..

i cannot let my time juz pass like that.. better spend time wisely...



i cant let myself to be in this situation again. i muz wake up man. i wonder when can i really wake up and do my stuffs properly..


it's nice to have someone to be there for u whenver u need. care and concern being showered upon u.. stuffs done together.. so much memories and feelings. yea frens are there for u but they cant be there for u every sec every minute whenever u need them.. they have their own stuffs as well.. wadever it is, i know it's time to let go.. painful and terrible process juz cry whenever i feel like so tt i'll feel better but i know this is part and parcel of life.. life's never smooth sailing for me ever since Os.. many obstacles but i know all these are meant for me to learn my lesson like wad i learn in my bible study.. wad ive to do now is trust in the Lord.. pray that the right person will come by.

i hate it! i'll never take the bus back home alr, it's too torturing and painful. i'll juz take the train.



my fren and i didnt go in maths lecture today cos the teacher taught probability today.. we sat outside the lecture hall doing the probability tutorial haas... during poa cant concentrate at all argh. it's time to stop!



i wan to watch enchanted!! it's so nice..


this is my pair of eyes haha.. i got nth better to do.

YEAHHHhh i PASSED my FINAL THEORY TEST haha. im super duper HAPPY lols. it was rather scary cos final theory is more difficult than basic theory plus they test all the gears, pedals etc.. i was really scared to click on the button 'End Test' lols.. i clicked many times cos it juz dun wanna end test. finally the window popped out asking if i really wan to end test.. i didnt dare to click then rest back on the chair. then i decided juz click yes ba then i click then black screen wondering if it's a pass or fail lols. then it's pass haha i so happy then i went out of the room a big group of pple sitting out there wondering if i pass lols. they kept looking at my expression.. even the guy sitting on my rite during the test also wondering if i pass. then they know i pass cos i was smiling haha. then i printed the receipt out :) at last this burden is off dun need worry so much haha.


wish u are back.

tmr final theory test and i hope i'll pass. Lord give me wisdom for tmr's test and guide me thru the test. i think im really easily affected by pple lols cos my fren said he passed at second attempt and his fren passed at 3rd atttempt making me more worried..

today during banking many pple were collecting stuffs frm the front la so i tot it was notes. so my fren went down helped me collect then realised it was the first banking test. i tot i would just get a 70% or wad la.. then my fren passed my paper to me. i saw 25 out of 25 i so shocked. Thank God for it. i was like really super shocked cos that day he went thru then he was like saying this point muz haf this and tt then i dun haf ma. then came back he all close one eye sia then i got full marks zzz. today's banking test didnt study at all superb man and tt teacher's super lazy la haha same test paper for all. thnks kong but also useless man i didnt even study at all.. but thnks joyce for helping.. no choice i got ftt tmr i busy studying cos all my facts are jumbled out ahh.

like what she said mentality & determination// no answer then juz wait// reading it makes me more uneasy only. maybe i shld juz disappear for a period of time.

this coming tues is my final theory test im mugging hard for it so that i can pass for the first attempt but i neglected my banking test which is tmr.. i really need to buck up for banking, poa and econs & exams are nearing.. christmas and 2008 nearing too and it's gonna be a quiet night again..

this morning went to plmgss for plmc youth service. today's the first day the service was held at plmgss concert hall. my siblings and i went for it and we were late and we had to enter frm the front so embarrassing. most of the ushers are pl pple lols. i didnt really expect so many pple at the TNG(The Next Generation) service. so many teenagers there lols. went in concert hall my sis saw her fren le then sat together. i saw jessie as well playing the organ up the stage.. then other frens which i saw as well. Rev Peter Koh gave the message today.. then Pastor Reuben Ng was there as well to talk about the youth christmas service on 22nd dec. after which there was holy communion had to go down and take it..

after church service went kovan to eat & buy stuffs, went home followed by grandma's hse.. at grandma's hse played carrom board again.. all the uncles and my dad played hahah all pros de LOL. even my phd uncle came down juz to play dots. then juz now 3 of my uncles and my dad playing wif each other DAMM fun to watch. my auntie also play. rather those who knows how to play carrom all went play. so there were many pairs haha all take turns to play like some competition. whichever pair loses goes out then the next pair comes in.. there were 7 pairs wor.. so need to wait damm long for our turn.. then we were discussing to go for relatives outing.. talked abt wild wild wet, ice skating, zoo, night safari, cycling.. cos we went malacca together one whole group.. six cars driving up together then my dad leading lols. then we went lim chu kang farms & sungei buloh together as well fun!! we're planning to go together again to msia next year cos my cousin still young few mths old only..

i sseug mi gniod enif zuj taht nehw mi ton deipucco fiw sffuts i lliw leef ylenol neht trats ot ome niaga dna kniht fo mih. mi gniyrt drah ot pots gnikniht fo mih hgis. won eh si ta pmac tonnac ees mih enilno. i tnod neve erad ot gsm mih ta lla. i decrof flesym ton ot gsm mih neve hguoht i yllaer tnaw ot gsm mih os hcum. nehw i dehctaw esoht citnamor evol dnik fo amard slaires i dnet ot kniht fo mih hgra.