i shall post about mother's day another day since the photos are in the digi cam but is not with me. every year we'll celebrate mother's day with dinner, cake, DIY or presents bought, DIY cards etc.. however this year due to my exams, no dinner, but there's DIY cake, cards etc..

16/5 (pics to be uploaded tmr)

church in the morning with family, it was a great sermon, followed by lunch at hougang mall kopitiam. groceries shopping at ntuc, home sweet home.. soon, left hse for grandma's hse. just helped my aunt to fan the stove for the charcoal to ignite fire. both me and her fanned till... because the fire kept extingushing many times. den helped aunt do green vege, checking & washing.. den sis came in to wash cabbage.. den cos lots of green vege, took quite some time, washed second time after that. washing halfway, sis kept calling me to go out play mahjong -.- cos grandma kept chasing her to start playing den lack of 1 player zz. i kept saying wait but no choice, grandma really wanna play. anyway we play for fun just to accompany her & exercise her brains since she has dementia, no money involved. played for awhile den dinner time.. ate.. den played heart attack with 2 small cousins.. lime juice time.. den cake cutting for cousin's 21st bday.. chit-chat.. home sweet home.

17/5

met J at plaza sing at 12.30pm. coincidentally, qiuyi spotted me lol and i didnt know it was her when i saw her at hougang station. went withdraw money den to cafe cartel for set lunch. was pretty full cos there's main dish, drink, free flow of bread, mushroom soup and cake. after lunch was movie "The Last Song", wasnt that touching but still many of those scenes dots. after that, headed back to my hse. changed and went down for tennis from 5pm to 6pm. fun but my arms & legs are aching z. after tennis, came up to my hse to take a look den played some piano pieces..

my heart is thumping & pounding hard.

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i realised ive not blogged about mother's day yet. shall do that tmr.

i have not gone out with any friends yet after exams, some on holidays, some having exams. i feel lazy to leave the hse too =/ having stayed in the hse or outside for some time studying z. today was time to bathe the hamsters since i didnt bathe them for super long due to exams and found one dead robo hamster suddenly -.- she was perfectly fine yesterday but was found dead under the toilet rolls that i placed in the cage. now there are 8 hamsters left. hais, it's saddening. anyway maid helped me with the washing of cages. soon we finished everything in 2 hours. in the end no time to bathe dog, perhaps tmr. went dinner with family at nite at the new kopitiam at hougang, eating the thai fish head curry, claypot tofu and mixed vege. bubble teas later & bro had his new bag.

Exams ended on 11th which was really early as compared to previous years exams - 23rd may (2008) and 21st may (2009). I ended exams the earliest compared to all my friends.

14th May
went SIM with dad to help sister submit her forms. the room for submission was closed and would only open at 2pm when we were there at 1 plus. my dad didnt want to follow me to the lecture room too and i didnt want him to go cos he and i feel that it's wierd where everywhere are students and he's a parent haha. hence we went down second floor, he waited outside the office and i went in. im glad i can submit the forms there and a helpful lady attended to me. since ive no idea what's the forms about, she checked everything for me and told me to fill up whatever that needs to be filled up like number of subjects my sis passed which i totally have no idea.. thankful that she helped me to see and i just write down what she told me to. after settling, went admin office to pay the bridging course for sis. we went home to fetch sis to let her see doctor, den i drove to office to fetch mum, dad drove mum and me to wholesales centre. as usual, i tried clothes for mum to see what she wanna order. den there was this particular wholesaler who was figuring out about one top as the manufacturer had done wrongly. 2 tailors was there to figure out. i wore it for my mum to see since she likes it, my mum taught them how to alter it.. den the staff immediately brought me to the boss in the office with a client in there, showing how it shld be done lol. after which went facial, was late, reached at 5.30pm with mum.. finished everything at 7.20pm, went raffles xchange to take a look at the boutiques.. den took train to boutique to settle some stuffs and ate dinner. during the train journey, my mum kept mentioning about her DMK shoes. she has been talking about it for days that it's very nice and she wanna buy for me. i told her it's alright, i can buy myself. she's so cute, kept saying nvm i want to buy for u, i said dont want, she also kept saying in the train den give the cheeky smile, making me wan to laugh only. den at boutique, DMK is beside it, she walked in le saying she buy for me cos i look nice wearing pointed heels, i kept saying dont want den walk away lol. den she laughed and walked away. soon dad came to fetch us, brought many stocks back. went old airport road with parents and bro, just drank soya bean, ate rojak & satay. home sweet home.

13th May
went interview yest at 2pm, i thought it was the postponed one but wasnt. quickly rushed there and it was raymond low organisation company. filled up forms and a girl was interviewing me and it turns out she's 22 as well. we chatted like frens too and she was telling me about the offers she got from banks and asked me to try as well LOL -.- though she's recruiting for her company. left an hour later at 3pm, headed to mum's boutique since parents are heading down as well. bought my lunch at 4pm.. ate at boutique, left with dad to send goods. i took over and drive to buona vista, den jurong, back to tanjong pagar to fetch mum & to ubi for tea break with parents den office.. dad dropped mum and i at hougang mall.. we went to a boutique, as usual i helped mum to try clothes to buy clothes samples.. after purchasing, to kopitiam for desserts den bought carrot cake for dad, home sweet home.

12th May
On 12th I went for an internship interview by strategic partners, honestly i didn't know what company it was, not even knowing the name, all i knew was the building at fuji xerox and the unit number. When i reached, i saw prudential & strategic signage and in my head was 'prudential again?'. while i was waiting for the other interviewee to arrive, i filled up forms and waited in a conference room. the lady told me both me and a girl will be interviewed by two managers and hence i gave her a stunned look. soon, one manager came and we were chatting happily lols like friends -.- talking about our lives & the other manager soon came in as well and joined in. 3 of us were talking about our personal lives Z. the girl arrived about 30 mins later i think, i saw her before since coincidentally she's from SIM too and they started the powerpoint presentation about the internship programme. pretty interesting and intensive, but whenever i see the word financial consultant or manager, my mind just shut off. im not interested in selling saving plans or insurances. so i asked the two managers what it's meant by financial consultant. one of them explained and i knew it's those sales line and i gave him that kind of look. he wasnt happy and some sort told me off indirectly that if we are not interested in that line, he suggested we shld not go into this internship programme. After everything ended, i left to go to mum's boutique to take a look den head home about 6 plus.. bought lunch zz. had piano lesson, den ate dinner.

how i wish i know what you are thinking.

finally my exams are over, Thank God but this year's time-table is really terrible, all cramped up, in the end had many overnight studying BUT i survived haha! one exam is 3 hours long. On 5th had exam as well as 6th, no choice I had to stay up till 5.30am and woke up at 8am. 2 nites ago i slept at 5am and woke up at 9am to study yesterday. Last nite studied till 3am and was awake at 8.20am.. had 2 papers today that's why. i only touched & studied msm at 1am last nite ever since my prelims in march but im glad the paper was manageable. but i had headache thruout the whole day, i had 6 hours of paper today like last year -.- didnt eat too since few thousands of us at hall 6 and 7.. it's impossible to find places to eat my lunch.. hence just walked to hall 3 after msm exam to use the toilet since the rest had super duper long queues. met DF, couldnt find him but only to realise he was only opposite me at the long walkway smoking -.- den went hall 9 for my exams.

back on 11th May nite.

Thank God for that 2 papers i took no matter what outcome it will be. 2 more to go. went meet jiamin for dinner, bro came along.. we ate at coffeeshop near hougang plaza de.. bought drinks too zz den bro still wan somemore drinks z cos thirsty.. den went walk ard as jm needed to buy her shoes, and her fren's sister bday present.. anyway meeting her tmr nite again. i got attracted to the bow clips i saw at chameleon. been finding that for ages online but so ex, and now it's at hougang mall, affordable price too.

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next sunday is mother's day! so fast one year has passed. running out of ideas lol. stressed with exams, no idea why i felt so stressed up in my brains that i cough and vomited out but swallowed back =/ so hectic period. really prayed hard that God will guide me thru this period, for his wisdom, strength and understanding as i study.. so ultimately, working is still the best. realised many stuffs need to be done after exams. working from june onwards hopefully. den meeting up for joyce's bday in may. parents going overseas business trip from may 27th to may 31st, hopefully nth crops up in their office. attending talks in may. sis graduation on may 20th. attending the big seminar which parents are involved in june. parents are also busy with the new office, will be even busier when it comes to renovation. relatives organising genting trip - 17/6 to 19/6, wanna go but tough also.. wanna follow jm to msia too.. but i think the seminar date & trip dates will clash. cant meet up with marg baby & the rest on sat & next thurs with cheryl and phyllis cos of my exams but will meet up after my exams. and the movies are so tempting. almost everyone is discussing about iron man 2 and ip man -.- pathetic us can only watch after exams, by that time perhaps the movies aint on the cinema anymore.


sians my mind kept wandering about. concentrate on studying!!!

Using mum's iPhone to blog since I'm studying at living room. Saw the photos, somehow reminded me abt the photos taken that time, same position too and smiles are there. and looking back at all my pasts, they're all celebrating 1.5 years to 3 years anni with their partners -.- amusing thing is, all right after me -.-

anyway, now it's about me.. nothing much, living life happily (:

z im spending my money again cos i saw little miss tees which i didnt get to buy last nite when i was at hougang mall with parents & bro . i saw the stuffs in cotton on, wanted to buy but didnt buy cos thinking of my $ lol. den mum & bro went cotton on but i was up the mall shopping, den my mum called me if i wan stuffs from cotton on, i said i dont want. even if i like the stuffs very much when im with my mum, i dont ask her to buy. everytime i follow her to get her clothes stocks, she's always asking me want this, want that. i said dont want, in the end she always tell the clothes pple, my this daughter dont want waste my money de, everything also dont want de, mummy wants to spend on her, she dont know how to take this chance not like my.. LOL =.= so the clothes im wearing are mostly worn by my mum once, den i wear cos my mum seldom wears them for second time. but since her clothes are matured, i kept buying clothes from online & cotton on. if im out with my mum is to buy her boutique working clothes samples and i'll be trying for her. i never let my mum know what kind of clothes i like or what i want cos i wanna buy it by myself. my mum was shocked to see me buy back bandaged skirts, she didnt know i like hence she asked me if i want the bandage skirt she bought for my sis, i said nope it's alright. working in their office & for the boutique, i can really see how difficult it is, like labourers' job. sian my moda poala shoes white with black bow shoes heels kept dropping out, it's my favourite pair of shoes which i bought for 20 plus when i was with my aunt shopping before cny. But I know everyone got different views abt this.

last fri, stayed back after my school cos my bro has 4 hours break in the afternoon, and im afraid he'll be lonely ma.. my dad also tells me to eat lunch with him which i alr wanted to. i even told him, in the end i waited from 11.30am to 1pm till his class ends, he was eating with his fren -.- so i went to find them.. after that library and my bro tells me to go study and not follow him zz. so i went study.. den 3pm, he came to find me cos his fren got lessons le. we stayed till 5pm in the library den went find my cousin.

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just cant wait for my exams to be over. soon. 13 more days =/ so fast -.-


impression of you totally changed already.

time to change my blogskin. there for ages.

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guess i've to trust in the Lord for my exams and hope for the best. not much time left. had very bad headache yest morning till 6 plus that i decided to take 2 panadols & was fine after that. i can feel that im getting sick soon. ulcers, pain throat.

z nowadays mum seldom cook soup le.. and ive been studying with different frens outside.. spending alot of money. today decided to come home after school cos raining heavily, no mood to study outside lol -.- bought chicken bite set meal, 6 onehs onehs, one bubble milk tea, spent 6 over bucks le just for lunch -.- broke. waiting to work from june onwards! later still need to xfer $ for my shorts & hammies stuffs =/

last sun (18/4) - church wif parents & bro, lunch, grandma's hse till nite. lots of fun at grandma's hse as usual haha.

did this sand thingy with grace cousin at grandma's hse. i still rmb my siblings and i love it alot!

monday (19/4) - went with dad to pet lovers centre at serangoon gardens at 10.50am to send sachi doggie for grooming & i drove there! went to the country club to study with my fren B. at 12 plus decided to buy a drink & take a look at sachi. the staff was cutting her hair & she saw me, after which she kept whining so loudly LOL, kept wanting to come out. the staff was cheesed off & said aiyo LOL. so i faster run away. den lunch at 2.15pm, i went with my fren to see sachi again, her grooming was done & she saw me & started whining loudly again, wanting to come out. my fren said wahlao my fault, in the end the whole street can hear her whining LOL! ate laksa for lunch, went back to study till 7 plus.. dad came, fetched sachi & she was so happy, jumping & licking like mad haha. den went up and down to the car den sat in the car wif sachi while dad went chomp chomp to buy dinner. drove back home.

so called katong laksa.

tues (20/4) - ate maggie hor fun to save money lol. bible study at nite.

wed (21/4) - went out with fren R to study at kovan.. went mac to study.. den ate lunch at yoshinoya. it has been long since i ate there, ever since jc till now.. lots of memories.. bought the terriyaki chicken student meal.. went back mac to study. bought mcflurry to eat. really studied alot that day. home-cooked dinner at home (:

sat (24/4) - was at home studying, but cant study -.- at nite went with parents and bro to eat dinner at hougang ave 5.. den went to hougang plaza novena to look at furnitures. spent long time there.. i love this swing.. kept swinging haha. drove home after that.

sunday (25/4) - church with parents, giant at tampines, lunch there too, drove whole day, den home.. couldnt study also -.- den watched star awards from 5.30pm till 10pm den the party also.. eating dinner & watching star awards at same time, parents cooked (:

ouch, im having ulcers =/
the facts cant get in my head sians.

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wondering what are u doing now hmm.



just saw that you found your.. again, sorry i didnt know hence.. =/ and seeing each time ur even happier, really makes me think the past is really nth much in your life perhaps & whatever time we had was really little due to my personal reasons. anyway it's past le. im happy for you. jiayous!

sometimes i really dont know what my brains are thinking. im so confused =/ i wish exams could be over soon, it's torturing but i hope for more time to study as well.. fruitful day of studying today.

shall update today's & yest's another day.

let the pics do most of the talking.

SAT (17/4)
was home all day long. procrasinating again. den was playing piano again, that wedding dress =.= put dog beside me lol. ate ice-cream, lollipop. etcetc. den wrapped cousins' presents, buffet dinner at cousin's party.

sachi looking at lollipop lol.

was bored, so took picture of the view from living room window.
grace and laura's present.
just took a corner of the dining area at aunt's hse when everyone's waiting for the cake.

swensen's 2.5kg ice-cream cake.

the incredibles!

cousin in middle, with her grandma & family.

my aunt, this handsome boy and me. lol i've been seeing him yearly at my cousin's party, eveyone calls him handsome boy. 5 years old, really handsome. i requested to take pic with him lol and my aunt helped me bring him here lol.

FRI (16/4)

Had school at 8.30am.. wore that floral skirt haha. den was msging bro since he had orientation but too bad his orientation ended late. so took train to raffles place, had my lunch. den my facial & it was free since this month is their anniversary. went home at 2.30pm, bought bubble tea haha. ate ice-cream. maid helped me to do temp straightening. played piano again. bro came home. dad bought dinner back i think, cant rmb.

THURS (15/4)

Had school at 3.30pm. after school at 6.30pm, took bus back. reached hougang at 8pm. was walking to hougang mall, wanna buy dinner & have a look at cotton-on lol & i saw xiang & yin. so went cotton on.. saw the floral bandage skirt, was so happy to see it on sales $7.50 for a skirt, unbelievable lol cos i nearly bought it online. tried 3 skirts and bought 2, decided not to buy the sailored orange/white one. bought that or fillet meal from kfc. home sweet home. dad bought sushi, ate 4..

took pic in the fitting room.

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i admit im getting more and more stressed & emo each day but im glad today i had fun teaching jiamin piano & den playing tennis with her! she's good at remembering the keys.

i ate ice-cream today again at home, it's really nice.. and the way E types really make me laugh, kept laughing non-stop =.= with the *xxxxxx* lol and more -.-

went out studying yest at airport, really love the airport. anyway was thinking thru about how my parents brought us up cos even till now when i leave my hse, i'll let my parents know if im going out to walk or going out to shopping. even if ive informed my parents the day before, on the day itself when i leave hse, i'll let them know whether or not they're at home or in office. since im their first-born, they're super protective of me hence i became sticky to them. i cried when i go for camps, cried when they go on holiday business trips till only jc that i stopped crying -.- and also perhaps cos im the oldest hence there're many responsibilities for me to take on, running errands for parents etc, buying food or cooking for siblings when im home but nowadays due to my exams, my mum despite her being busy, cooked soup for lunch & i just fried some little extra stuffs for siblings, appreciate that & my dad will cook dinner at nite, my parents also inform me about the happenings in the family.. however, im soft-hearted hence i dont grumble or scold my bro harshly even when he makes a grave mistake cos i didnt wan my parents to keep scolding him. im just satisfied with the life i've now, im glad that i dont have to worry about supporting family & as compared to africa, im much better than them so i dont demand much from parents, just happy that ive food to eat & hse to sleep. i just need freedom to go out. moreover, i worked with my parents everyday for 7 months, hence i became even closer to them & that my mum would tell me everything about her boutique stuffs. but there tends to be tension & my sister would help me because i didnt have my own personal time at all even though my mum says i can just inform them & go out but i didnt want to just go out as and when i like though im working for them, i must have a sense of responsibility, so i'll only go out on sunday afternoon. my bad point is not being firm & decisive, i cant be a leader. soon there was a big quarrel in dec, somehow i need to concentrate on my studies alr cos i didnt touch at all ever since school started plus work. plus hammies & doggy stuffs already made me very busy. right now, no work but im studying everyday hence i cant wait for MAY to be over. i cant wait to start my internship.

just applied yesterday for my internship.. applied a few, hope i can be recruited haha. anyway after my exams gonna help out in my mum's boutique first, she's really busy. den i shall start internship in june, im broke cos supporting myself & hamsters too for quite long alr. i still rmb helping out my parents at office and boutique till last year dec due to quarrels =/ but now thinking i do miss working there haha. reflecting back the past again, due to the fact that im quite an introvert hence i dont know much people, so those who entered my life hurt me cos i put my 100% in every single one. i dont ask for much, i just need to be in the guy's heart. now everything is about studying daily -.- ive bible study tmr, glad that it's my 3rd year running, really know the bible indepth, that's good. time to sleep. made some reflections. im proud to say i never exceed my phone bills, not even a cent for a year le since my parents are paying ^^ gonna take up this responsibility when i start my internship (:






















thinking of the past of me and D, how we started though we're worlds apart. i didnt expect much from him cos i know i myself cant meet him often too, once per week or once every 2 weeks & also denying to others about us due to personal problems. I am glad he is understanding towards me due to personal reasons, hence most of the times i went to find him and went home myself cos i dont want him to waste his $ and time to send me home. im understanding and not demanding at all. even we da-bao food from coffeeshop & eat in his room sitting on the floor, it's kinda sweet too. we seldom quarrel cos we give in and take, and i only initiate to contact him and no others. i did whatever i could to make him happy, making & buying many stuffs on vday like gummy jellies forming heart shape, heart-shaped brownie, diy card, styrofoam roses wif bears placed in fanciful glass bottle & on his bday like making mini album+card, folding 268 straw hearts as his bday was 26 aug, adidas dry fit top, iron out heart shapes & his nick with those beads, glow sticks forming his nickname, 12 fancifully designed cupcakes from crystal jade kitchen.. he surprised me with the bear+rings on vday & lovely bears bouquet on bday. i still rmb when he was sad, i went to jp to DIY a cake for him & to bishan to pass to him & back hougang. he bought my siblings and i mac at midnite. he gave me hamsters & bought the rest of the stuffs when i wanna keep them. we went bottle tree park tog, walked around and saw so many interesting stuffs, we even sat the swan ride, super fun. we watched plenty of movies at the beginning, 1 to 2 weeks we watched 4 movies, i kept insisting to pay but he doesnt want den managed to pay once i think. both of us got no time cos im helping and working for my parents that time which includes sat & sun sometimes & he was working for his dad, hence i had hard time to find him. still we felt that it was impt to help our parents hence we didnt quarrel over it at all. thinking about it, we never quarrel much since i was faithful to him, i seriously only contacted him, that's what i do to all my pasts too. i thought i had same views with my pasts, but yet all broke my heart =/ i felt that in a r/s, a couple must trust each other, compromise, talk it out when there's quarrel and solve it, no point flaring up. i never flare up before to them, only cried. and to him, i cried & was angry for awhile but ultimately, we'll sit down and talk. i still rmb everytime, he'll talk those stuffs to me when i was going home, which really touched me and my tears dripped. but everything turned out wrongly, he said he does not deserve me? maybe cos im not his type.

everyday is about studies, either outside studying with frens or at home o: i wish the month of may would come soon but somehow i wish time will pass slowly too as im slow in my revision, im dead :/ just cooked rice just now for bro's and my lunch since mum alr cooked favourite black bean soup. time to study.

and..

seeing my frens so happily in long-lasting r/s, does really make me envy them. it's best if the guy loves me for who i am.

dead tired. blogged one post that day but decided not to publish it. will blog another one some other day. many stuffs took place. complicated.