went cycling today. bro wanted to tag along so let him tag.. supposed to meet derick and kong at eunos mrt station at 1.30 then all of us were late lols. kong was still at ica waiting to do his passport thingy so went off wif derick & bro first. took 155 to east coast park and we had to ask the driver if it does go there & he said yea and he said he'll tell us when it's supposed to stop so nice of that uncle (: reached the bus stop alr then we had no idea how to walk there then this kind auntie came to ask us if we need help then she taught us how to walk till the underpass and we found it. reached east coast finally and saw the water skiing thingy so FUN i wan to try lols then saw the banner at every lamp post standard chartered spore marathon.

This is the banner..

After which we went to find the bicycle kiosk and walked rite for 30 mins juz to reach mac there zz. then kong has no idea how to go to east coast then taught him on the phone but then cannot find the underpass so he took cab to mac there wif his fren lols. we 3 went bicycle kiosk first then chose bikes got offer wor. 1 hour then next 1 hour free so it's really cheap. soon after kong came then also rented bike. then put stuffs in locker.. we cycled starting on the left side first.. cycle till we saw another bicycle kiosk then saw a grp of guys walking opposite then i find few of them familiar la then realised one of them is frm sr de.. kaiyuan.. then we both like shocked like tt.. then cycle & cycle go park at bridge there then derick took this photo.

LOL so windy la.

continued cycling then juz took random pics..

then while cycling saw this angmoh cycling and got this small cute little dog following it like mad la. the angmoh quite bad leh cos the dog is that kind not for training type.. it's like maltese that kind but the owner let it run after his bike for the whole east coast park distance then we juz followed it. everyone who go past the puppy all said eee so cute haha. we took a rest when we cycled for 90 mins like tt.. went to fitness corner there then they make me hang at the bar thingy for 5 secs zz then i feel so paiseh lols. wahlao both of them can do chin up man. so many times zz. derick took video of me zz.

turn on volume if wan to hear some voice lol.

After cycling dad fetched us to dhoby ghaut station cos i meeting mum at her facial place for manicure then both derick & kong took train home..

at facial there lols . my nailss.. manicure..

wondering what's he doing these few days..

dead tired.. went vivo today wif my "workplace" fren lols .. ate at superdog.. nice wor.. the ice lemon tea is freshly brewed de... but it tastes like english tea haha but i love it this way.. after that walked rd vivo then went to see the scenary at the 3rd floor.. nice wor. the cable car is so nice.. yea it would be nice to haf dinner up there..

anw knocked down previous table and my room was in a mess. all the internet were disconnected on tues nite then cant find the rite wire to fix it back cos all the wires were unplugged. that's why dced frm msn for 1 hour plus. this is the new ikea table. DIY de. looks empty haha cos haven put stuffs there yet..

where did he go? why not online.. IM him. he's online finally but i dun dare talk dots.

maybe it's time to stop. im not needed.

this is taken frm someone's blog.. i agree wif it. Life makes a sport of all of us one time or another. Things never go the way we want them to and somehow, when things don't go our way, it happens at the worst possible time. When you think that by making some decisions to move on from where you are , to start piecing pieces back together, you end up having more pieces fall apart, more questions unanswered.

this blog tends to be my personal diary. i tend to say everything here and confide in here as well. probably i shld lock this blog or wad. im blogging frequently and i think tt's not good.. i juz shelf all my stuffs aside.. my studies, quiet time, driving etc. and now im thinking whether to change the date of the final theory test.. i wanted to change but the earliest is only in late feb. ive trial test as well but it cant be changed. i think i shld juz go for it. i really hope i can pass.. but i need motivation to study.. Lord i hope u'll give me this motivation to carry on with life..

can someone pls tell me wad shld i do? instead of making him happy, i make him sad and disappointed.. now i think the more i say the worse it becomes. how i dun wan this to happen.. im angry wif myself. now im like making things worse.. i cant even salvage the situation.. i caused more hurt to him. Lord, pray that you'll give him strength & happiness in wadever he does and that yr angels will encamp ard him and watch over him. Pray that he'll recover soon and that u'll guide him throughout this difficult moments..

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not just somebody just to get me throught the night

Every morning when I'm awake
I've this nostalgic feeling
I hope to see the familiar message
Of greetings we send to each other
However it is no longer there anymore
No longer there anymore

I'm seriously sorry for what i've done

I sincerely seek for your forgiveness

I regretted what i said and wished

It would be erased away

I hope for things to turn back

Clinging onto every hope I have

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

I wish for that moment to come

For I'm waiting for that day to come

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

ive decided to change my final theory test date cos it's next tues and im not prepared at all & i dont think i can study for the next few days.

the way we talk to each other is totally different now.. so formal worse than how frens talk.. it's not even like the way we talk be4 we're together. right now there's nth i can do to make him happy wor sadded cos i disappoint him too much le. im really sorry.

i really hope things will not continue like this. past 3 days i stop crying alr & yet recently ive started crying secretly again. i cant sleep.. i know my family is worried for me.. my mum cried when we were at church on sunday & i heard she has been crying secretly as well.. she consult ms teo when ms teo called. i dun wan her to worry for me.. i dunno why time seems to passs very slowly. i tot this happened like 2 weeks ago.. but it's last thurs only. 5 days passed only.. sometimes i got no appetite to eat but ive to force myself to eat.. i dun wan to see my parents worried for me again..

i read the news about the dragon-boaters and i feel sad for them. 5 lives were lost juz like that. their families are devastated for losing their precious children. it makes me realise how fortunate am i to be able to live in this world. One of the victims is mr jeremy goh who's frm sim-uol. even though ive not seen him or known him be4, i can tell he's really a good fren to many pple. i saw video clips on straits times interactive where his closest frens were interviewed and his frens were very sad.. It makes me realise how unpredictable our lives are. we must always treasure the pple ard us and cherish the precious moments. i hope that families of the victims & well as the dragon boaters will be strong and they muz pull themselves up..


Pictures for ice skating























haha my 5 year old cousin.. see the small girl rite infront. tt's her. she knows how to skate but she refused to take away the metal bar thingy.























my cousins and bro.. my aunt's at the back..
























my aunt teaching me how to skate.. lols i was scared..

























LOL look at my 5 year old cousin in the middle.. she's so small compared to other pple at the rink..

what am i doing..

Part of the 翅膀 song

空气中藏著你的香味
回忆里躲著你的眼泪
最后拥抱的温暖还有一些
看一看回忆是云朵一朵朵的飘过
若想要回头就无法傲翔
since i love him i should trust him.. why am i not like my fren.. wad the hell am i doing.. now it's his exam period moreover & i didnt even know till i read his blog. yea both of us are confused now. there're many misunderstandings btwn us. i didnt mean to hurt u.. i really wish we can clear all the misunderstandings.. i shldnt just jump into conclusion. it seems that we're drifting apart and i really dont wish to see that. i'll not haf doubts abt him anymore.

i know u all are trying to help me thnks alot but not to worry i know wad im doing and i trust myself k.. i know that wadever is ahead and wadever that happens, God always has a plan for us and he has a purpose for doing that. God will not forsake us & he will continue to live in our lives.

北极星的眼泪

像断了线 消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去 你的脸
再等一会 奢望流星会出现
愿 如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天 或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远

北极星的眼泪 说不出的想念
原来我们活在 两个世界
北极星的眼泪 你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言 淹没在心里面
我抬头看着 爱不见

再等一会 奢望流星会出现
愿 如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天 或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天 越来越远

当对的人 等不到对的时间
就在放开手的瞬间 爱撕成两边

整个宇宙都 流眼泪

我可以

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你
幸福它真的不容易

im currently fine & i tot over it already :) i shldnt think too much. gosh i added more stress to him only. sorry.. only make him sad and stressed up. howhowhhow?.. i borrowed the final theory guide book frm ryuo, thnks alot.. cos he was a student at there so got that book. mine is the 400 qns de no info at all lols have to memorise frm qns which is quite difficult i guess. today's econs lecture was abit dry cos all formulas only meaning those different variables and symbols. can u imagine 10 over pages full of those variables and words. banking was quite interesting cos it's the female lecturer who's lecturing. she's so much interesting compared to jonathon peh. at least i manage to listen most of it and not stone during the lesson. and i juz realised that prelims's in feb when she was talking abt it during lecture. i was shocked. 2 mths plus left only. i better start studying soon.. oh yea this sat i guess im gg ice skating again lols. my cousins are addicted to it haha. there's piano lesson tmr.. replacement lesson..

mh: nope i didnt tell them at all. of course i wouldnt haha or else i'll be in a deep deep trouble haha.

:) im feeling better today.. at last he msged me wifout me msging first. i was overjoyed lols. anw wishing him all the best in his exams.. jiayou all the way. dun be stressed up. once this hurdle is over u can enjoy yr holis le :)

the post after this post is abt the ice skating thingy & at grandma's hse. since the post too long i create another new post ba..

anw i shall reply the tags here.
ryuo: yup i try not to post emo de. yep next time go ice skating muz be well prepared. didnt know u know how to skate wor haha.
josh: di faster come back spore wor (:
mh: yep hope God will open up my parents' mind but partly cos im the kind who takes up easily but cant put down easily. i'll be very emotional cos i put too much feelings into it.. they're afraid it'll affect my studies since it has alr happened be4 during A levels.
kong: wad u think ur doing lols. tt's lame.
mel: yupp hope so.. i'll remain strong (: thnks alot. u too take care as well.

thnks for concerns.. it's like i went msn then pple asking me how am i etc.. thnksss alot (: anw today had fun cos i went ICE SKATING! haha first time. actually i didnt wan to go cos of usual reason but my bro and cousin kept forcing me to go haas so i went. however all of us didnt wear jeans. i wore shorts, my cousins, bro and aunt wore till knee that kind of pants.. then my aunt said nvm juz go.. reach there realised no socks no gloves lols but they provided gloves.. then we didnt wear socks.. since first time skate.. my aunt taught us how to tie the laces of the shoes.. after which all of us were looking for the metal bar thingy then i was the only one who dun haf then i dun dare go in the rink.. after which my uncle managed to get one for me cos i cant walk wif that shoes thingy. after which he helped me to get in the rink lor.. then i realised every single one wore jeans. i was the only one who wore shorts dots. then the metal bar so low somemore, i had to make sure the front is okies cos my top is loose.. moreover those holding the walker thingy were only 5 year old kids. i felt so paiseh la. then i skate and skate and i fell dots on my knee cap. it was painful ouch. then i juz stood up and continued skating. not long after tt, this young guy who's one of those pple who watches the safety of everyone suddenly talked to me.. he said i teach u how to skate.. juz bring up yr 2 hands and skate v shape kind can de.. then i said i scared to fall moreover i fell juz now.. then he talked so much only to realised that he wanted me to give the metal bar to smaller kids cos he said many of them dun haf. then he added this metal bar thingy is only for 1.2m and below. at that time the small kids were surrounding me alr to ask me for it. i damm ps. then i juz give them.. then my bro was there then he argued wif the guy la.. then all of them waiting outside the rink cos they got blisters. i didnt have any at all haha but i juz went out as well then i took out the shoes only to realise there's BLOOD on my knee cap ahh. then i quicky went to the shoes counter there and tried to get my the other shoe back cos i said my knee's hurt. the same guy was there again instead he gave me a plaster zz cos cant take back shoe. anw thnk him for giving me a plaster even though i din know they have haha. after which my uncle came back wif socks and plaster wow. thnk my uncle.. he's so nice and thoughtful. then continued skating but i was the last one to go in again cos no metal bar thingy. then my aunt held me and taught me to skate.. quite fun though it was scary. then juz skate at the side.. my aunt told me to balance and skate wifout holding anything and i did it wif a few steps yippie but most of the time one hand was grabbing something.. thnk my aunt for teaching me so patiently. anw it was fun overall. my uncle took photos and videos.. i shall post it when he sends me.. after ice skating went back grandma's hse at 7pm.. and it was juz nice for dinner time.. all of us ate together.. as usual cousins all sit at those olden time tt kind of chairs there all gathering.. some of us at floor cos no space.. then all chit chatting.. adults all sat at the usual big oval table.. be4 that my cousins were playing carrom board.. after dinner all of us played and challenged.. my uncles and dad played as well.. they're good at it haha but we kids aint bad as well.. my cousin participate in the carrom board competition be4 and won.. but we're better than her LOL =x. all of us can play well LOL. played till 9 plus i guess then went back then brought carrom board back.. back home bro and dad competing wif each other... my bro's good at it. same as my dad ba.. so hard to say who win lor. normally i pair up wif my bro play against 4 other pairs de haha.. many pple play carrom at my dad's side..

my final theory test is coming omgosh la it's on dec 4th and banking test's on dec 3rd. at this point of time i wonder how am i gg to survive. final theory test is more important but these few days my mind got no mood to do anything. hope i can persevere on. i muz study my final theory test alr. thnks ryuo for offering to help me in revising for the final theory test and also for talking wif me last nite.. today had bbq supposed to be a bbq for my bro's, sis's and my frens de. but due to some stuffs it was changed to family bbq.. so my relatives came over.. i was at first rather not into the bbq thingy cos ive no mood. but during bbq.. i enjoyed myself talking wif my relatives and cousins.. it's like whenever im wif my relatives we play and talk and it's really like a big family gathering. it's really warm and it's really nice.. then we play the party streamers.. i ate fried bee hoon, curry chicken, satay, chicken wing and i bbqed mashmallows. many others like prawns, pork chop, sweet potato etc i never eat.. i got like no mood to eat much. after tt i ate chocolates frm japan. it's like so nice never seen that kind of chocolate be4. one was like crisy kind de the other chocolate is all chocolate but muah kee that kind soft de.. i used my hand to take then it's like gg to drop LOL. then suddenly all my cousins are gone except me and xy.. then we busy bbqing mashmallows.. then went up to my hse cos we know they muz be playing carrom. so went up then only seen 3 pairs of slippers-my bros and 2 cousins. then the rest were at the playground playing wif the small children.. soon after tt they came up.. ard 10 of us children were at my hse plus my uncle.. then my sis and i need to take care of the 2 year old de. suddenly she said she wanna go urinate then both my sis and i brought her to the toilet and i carried her up the toilet bowl lol. then after toilet she wans to play piano.. then let her sit and play.. then she anyhow play haha then she flipped the books then ask me hold the page for her zz then i hold.. then she plays and my 14 year old cousin and i wanted to play but she shoo our hands off haha. then after she played she flipped again and asked me to hold the page for her LOL. so cute rite. then my 9 year old cousin saw the rush hour mind boogling puzzle in my room and she wans to play so took it out to living room. me, she and 5 year old cousin played rush hour. woah my 5 year old cousin knows who to play rush hour cos she has one that is almost similar at home as well. then my 2 year old cousin wans to join in and she tries to put those trucks and car on top of the puzzle thingy haha then my 5 year old cousin stopped her and got pissed off lols. after tt they wanted to play heart attack so i played wif them.. so 3 of us playing. then 2 year old cousin wanted to play and she joined in. she said "heart attack" so loudly HAHA and placed her hand down on floor so cute la. she dunno how to play so my 5 year old cousin was angry and said told her to get away cos she dunno how to play.. then she was super angry la haha. then my 2 year old cousin still heart attack all the way haha. they were 27 pple in my hse all at living room. everyone sitting ard on floor and chair.. then whole hse very noisy can feel the warmth :) then my dad switched on the 2 big aircons in the living room.. everyone stayed till 11pm then they went off.. glad that my mind was distracted tonite..

this is the worse period of my life.. why are things getting this way. why am i so affected? i put too much deep feelings inside it alr. i must rmb the fact that i do not have much experience and hence i cant take this situation well. it's true that eventually we may not end up forever someday somehow we muz be be prepared for this heart breaking day. since it's 1 mth and im alr so sad wad more few mths.. thnks to all who comforted, persuaded and counselled me.. thnks kong for helping to distract my mind frm this till near 3 am last nite.. and my junior for talking wif me for the whole afternoon. i know all yr good intentions & yr concerns for me.. i've to pyscho my mind so that i wont feel that sad.. some tell me juz forget abt this some tell me no juz wait.. i think time will tell everything that's wad my frens say.. sometimes i wonder how he feels abt this but i dun dare to ask.. i still rmb he tells me dun put haiz. so every post i always rmb not to haiz cos he dun wan to see me sad. i wan things to turn out tt way but it's not. actually the hurt ive now cannot be compared cos it's really great. wad i can do now is to be strong :)

last nite i slept at 3.30 am.. i woke up at 6 something and suddenly tot of it and cried again. after which i never sleep at all. im super tired. mentally and physically.

to him if he's reading this. thnks for the moments we spent together for a period of 1 mth. i had many happy memories like at airport, amk hub, bishan park, stadium etc. u added colours to my life and make me haf a different perspective of r/s in my life. thnks for being there for me & for being caring and concern towards me..

why must this happened at this point of time when we're doing well. 1 mth only. im glad to know him.. my life became different.. i'll never forget 21st oct.. it will forever be in my memories.. if there's fate.. even after a period of time.. there's still chance. i must always rmb it's not the end. we're still frens and we can still go out wif each other.. the only difference is the status which is impt to me as well.. i really hope things can turn back.. im juz too affected. actually i dun mind if it cannot be an open one.. dun be too obvious can alr.. i really wan to be wif him. the pain i have is terrible rite now. i really hope my parents' mindset can be changed. although they dun mind me going wif him alone as frens but wad's the point.. frens only. Lord, i know that u want the best for yr children.. it's not that we're doing something that is dishonourable & disgraceful to yr name.. i know we muz be honourable to our parents but they're juz being too narrow-minded. I really hope their mindset can be changed.. our thinking is not that far yet but seriously if someone ask me if he's suitable to be part of my life i'll say yes. i still rmb during my workplace when ashikah was asking jason if he ever tot if his gf is suitable to be his wife.. he said he dun mind and as long as they're together till they're of marriagable age why not.

yes? no? i dont know.


time passes fast yeaaaa. coming 1 mth alr.. 25 days..


i think it's time for me to meet my frenss.. didnt meet them for so long alr.. miss themm..

ouch the mosquito bites are still there.. so itchy cant stop myself frm scratching.. argh. went facial wif mum and sis today and all of us did pedicure as well.. i chose a dark pink colour.. when the beautician was doing i was feeling quite bad cos it's like she's helping us to massage, scrub etc our feets. then she needs to move the stuffs here and there.. quite poor thing leh. i did facial first followed by pedicure. i love the ambience there.. the lightings and interior design are nice.. there's also those classical music being played.. everything ended at 7.45 after which walked over to plaza sing. since sis had piano tonite we juz bought stuffs at bysi.. i think their clothes are modern even though they're quite matured.. after which went back to haf our dinner..

omgosh die die ive been slacking all day long. i better buck up and work hard.

today's maths lecture was just purely teaching on simple, & compound interest and also savings. apparently we learnt it during our sec sch days. the lecture notes are only 4 pages but she took 3 hours to do that topic cos she went thru some egs. mrs mena told us today's lesson will be her last lesson teaching us, another teacher will teach us stats frm next week onwards. it seems sad like tt but then everyone cant wait for her lessons to be over. after maths was poa and it was rather fast. the teacher wrote many stuffs on the board & rushing like a bullet train then many of us are copying it hurriedly. we're behind time i guess.. after poa went meet at amk hub.. went arcade to see a while be4 heading to the library. the books there are rather little even though the library is big.. after which went walk rd the park and i got 8 mosquito bites frm there lol. then he bought bubble tea and cheese fries then we ate at the void deck then headed home.. then.........

i guess im too free ba hahas. time passes super fast and now's coming to christmas..

HAPPY BDAY PENG SIANG & MING!

today's rather boring.. i think i shld do something meaningful. anw im gg to beijing for 5 days frm 19 dec to 23 dec. im super excited cos this will be the first time ever to sit SIA flight lols. oh ya not forgetting my first time experiencing snow as well. cant wait for tt day to arrive..


anw i recd another msg in the morning at 5am.. the msg is 'hey.. just a short msg here to let u know i haven't forgotten u nor given up.. i really hope things will return to e past one day.. take care'. pls for goodness sake juz leave me alone. wad u've done is a great impact in my life. i cannot forget wad u did and how u treat me. this ending is wad u deserve. i really dont wish to be cheated anymore.

shall blog abt today.. guess wad i forgot to set my alarm on my phone. freak arh lol cos i went to charge my phone overnite. talked last nite till my batt left 4%. phew my maid woke me up at 6.50am but it's still late lols. i quickly rush like mad.. brush up, bathe, choose my clothes etc.. by the time it was 7.25am alr.. then when i reached the bus stop.. i waited so long for the bus argh by the time it was 7.40.. then i took 112 bus to the busstop of 151.. the 151 express bus had left quite long ago so i was left wif no choice but to take the usual 151 bus. as usual the bus was quite filled up alr and the time was alr 7.55. apparently i was late for sch and moreover it was econs lecture.. reached the lecture hall at 8.50 and when i walked in many eyes turned and looked at me. was late plus rite the lecture hall is the the small group kind ard 100 pple there. after econs was banking. the teacher is so boring sigh and practically everyone was stoning at the teacher haha. he's the worst teacher i ever seen. i can juz study banking on my own. the study guide's much better than his lecture notes seriously. after banking lesson i went wif joyce to vivo cos we're meeting peng siang there for dinner at 5pm . wow it has been long since i last visited vivo. went to walk round the 1st and 2nd floor. went in build a bear shop to see.. all the bears are so cuteeeeee haa :) we went many many boutiques.. then when we're at zara.. ps called joyce and he came to find us.. after which we went marche to eat.. i think heeren village is better than marche even though both's almost the same. we finished ard 7 plus then went starbucks to chill. shared wif joyce java chip while ps bought some hot coffee stuffs?? not sure.. then we were talking abt econs lecturer cos he's super lame. the egs he gave are "cold". then told ps abt that particular crocodile and ck brands eg. all of us laughed like mad la lol. after which since it was joyce's dad bday today we had to go back early. so after which we went back le....




im super disturbed.. got flooded wif msges and calls juz now. can u juz leave me alone pls. i know ur trying to make me think of u using psychology methods. argh.
irritating.. called me but i purposely miss it then he msged hey charmaine i cant understand why u're doin this to me, but all i wanna let u know is tt i miss u v much n i've realised ur importance to me so pls come back. so i replied back sorry im not able to do so. then he called and i miss it again and he msged i know ur're there but u just cant forgive me or sth right..? all i wanna let u know is tt i really just wish for one last chance to love u like how i should.. then he called twice and i missed it. then he msged honestly running away wont solve anything.. it'll just make me worse than i alr am n i aint gonna give up really.. pls just gimme five mins of ur time pls. then called 3 times i missed it then he msged alrite shall not bug u anymore.. good luck to ur current relationship hope he treats u well n u'll be happy.. pls take care of yrself.. i miss you. then tt's the end he never calls or msg le. called 7 times in juz less than 20 mins. crazy.

hmm sch started alr ever since 31st july. i purposely chose my time-table in such a way that i go to sch for only 2 days. great rite haa? anw because there're only 4 modules which ive to take meaning 4 lectures to attend per week. each lecture is 3 hours and there's no tutorials at all. all the tutorials are gone thru during lecture.. the bad part is there are no classes so it's like everyone goes for the lecture then after lecture everyone heads outside the sch alr. luckily be4 sch started i went for the 1 day freshman orientation.. make frens there and found out some of my sec sch frens are there & i think quite a number of my jc schmates r there too.. not only there, i went wif jiaying to the tennis camp.. make even more frens and coincidentally pearl lam is in the same group as me.. i was so glad haa. tennis camp was fun. we had those pick up lines stuffs of games which was super funny. we had post camp dinner after tt as well at heeren village but not many turned up. mostly were seniors and there were quite a number of them.. back to school stuffs, lessons are boring especially banking.. maths teacher was like quite boring as well and most of us have no idea wad's she talking abt due to her indian accent.. but gradually we get used to it and we slowly understand her lecture.. oh ya exams are like next year end may only pretty long to exams lol. hope i can do well for the exams..


ive long forgotten that person.. ive alr thought for very long and it's juz impossible.. anw that's past and history alr. wish tt e person wont contact me anymore i hope. but even if that person wans to contact i also wont reply nor call back cos wad he done to me was far too great an impact on me alr. besides now im currently doing well.. leading a happy life :) hope this can last forever :)


i'll update my blog often whenever ive time yups.

i decided to revive my blog yesterday.. so i continued changing the skin and stuffs. my blog's really deserted lol. many pple changed links alr... i think i'll update pple tmr..