wow looking back at the past posts & drafts i wrote, for some i seriously cannot rmb wad happened probably cos it's 2 plus years ago.. this blog was here since 2004.. long haha when i was sec 4 till now unbelievable.. it contains all my anger, sadness everything.. it's like my personal diary.. i cant believe the way i wrote last time haha.. time passes, ive grown.. more matured? hope so. i cant let my life just be a slacking one again. i wanna it be like my sec 1 and 2 life where they're goals in my life which i wanna achieve and i did it.. anw life starts to pick up for me again =) im seriously motivated to do well in everything.. the past few years wasnt like tt since sec 3.. my life was a happy go lucky kind. i treat everything so lightly.. no motivation at all. i think i was a failure and i seriously did. everyone has no faith in me.. everyone seems to haf given up hope on me even me myself.. so right now im slowly picking up.. moral support is impt.. thanks for telling me im the best to u =) everyone wish for their life to be smooth flowing.. in life there bounds to be failures hence right now i always believe that after failures there 'll always be sunshine after tt.. it'll never be failures all the way.. sunshine after rain =)) hope u study hard too and both of us will strive and work hard together to build a future together =)

YEAHHHHH im SO HAPPY!!! GRATSSS TO HIM!!!! dun think too much k. last time i promise..

bananas in pyjamas.. B2/B1 are u thinking wad im thinking?

muah not scared of sachi alr unless she turns aggressive. anw took this while she's sleeping in my room cos both my bro and i in room then she tired jiu sleep le..

this my bro took in car while waiting for parents..

i realised my cousin's gf's bday's also 28 jan oo.. jan rox lol.. fann wong's bday on 27th too lol. i shall continue today since he said so.. wad to blog i rmb got things but forgot.. omgosh im feeling so cold now cos of aircon.. and im sick as well.. throat itchy.. got cough but i tried hard not to cough.. control cos later mum hear i cough sure scold de better not..

UUUUUUU!!! =P i got a super frequent reader..

seod eurt evol yllser tsixe? Ylbaborp s’ti tsuj a lufhsiw gnikniht no ym trap. I tnac ekat ti nehw ehs seod taht.. daw seod ehs naw yltcaxe? i tnac pleh tub kniht s'ti no esoprup soc i tnca pleh tub leef eht neerg eppla. onon i tnac yas taht.. yhw si ti taht ehs swonk tba ti YHW YHW? hgis ehs nac egaruocne u.. daw nca i od? semitemos i yllaer tsuj hsiw ot pets kcab ro esle siht lliw reven eb gnidne. gnirednow yhw u reven llac.. detnioppasid. mi tsuj oot das dna ome ot ees taht enecs niaga.. on doom ot yalp sm.. on doom ot yalp noaip.. i zuj gnab ta ehy syek.. hgis hguone si hguone.. ebyam i dlhs pets kcab.. hgis tub i tnac raeb oot..

oh ya on jan 13 sunday, my cousin celebrated her bday.. this coming sunday my turn HAHA. last sat went east point mall cos mum need to pass and settle clothes stuffs to some boutiques there. so my bro and i went pet safari to look ard.. spent more than 1 hour there zz. saw a super big dog tt looks like a polar bear and the size is even bigger SCARY! oh ya eastpoint mall at that time got this S-POP thingy then saw many superstar pple there.. they look the same on tv and real life.. yesterday at grandma's hse got relatives frm hainan island staying there. it's my grandma's elder sis's daughter and the daughter's 2 children. horror day lols. shall not talk abt it. oh ya then my oldest cousin said he's getting married on 31st aug then he said he bought 99 roses to propose to her so SWEET! cant wait for the wedding. oh ya heard that my grandma's nephew's 2 sons meaning my 2 distant cousins are getting married in april. both bros getting married same time.. and oh ya emily's bro's getting married as well and im helping out yipppiee.. this year so many weddings.. wonder when im getting married lols. cant wait for my cousin's wedding!! last nite super tired cos frm morning till nite then back. then studied econs till wanna sleep. sorry for missing yr calls again argh then make u wait till next morning sorry.

i feel so helpless.. yea any hurdles we'll overcome it.. it's like a test for us..

so saddening to hear tt frm her. anw juz treat it as.. haiz.. at tt moment when i was saying i really wanted to juz cry but i stopped. why cant she be more mature and understanding. sadded la. im alr disappointed wif that post of hers now another one. ive always been keeping it inside.. everything i dun voice here.. this is a public site la everyone can see... it goes the same way as true love.. everyone got different way of showing it. sigh.

anw im not really tt scared of sachi le.. haha. anw i was also afraid cos she's always howling. thnks for my sis for assuring me that the dog is still a puppy then still new to surrounding. thnks for asking her fren.. 2 nites ago i got frightened la cos first nite she howled then at 3.25 my sister woke me up cos she stomachache then she knocked on door i got a shock. then it's like i wanna open door see how is she but i dun dare cos i scared ZZZ. in the end i cant sleep at all till 4 plus plus.. and i took many photos of it lol. first pic is when my parents have not bought her the playpen..

that day went mum's warehse boutique... then saw this dress.. it's a replica of the dress frm southaven.. NICE anw i tried M so it looks big lol.

dots now doing maths differentiation then i wondering why my answer so far away frm the answer then i realised that the qn i did was the answer ZZ. meaning i differentiate the answer and didnt realise it cos i turned to the answer page to check answer then forget flip back to question page so following 2 qns differentiated the answers LOL.

no matter how much ups and downs we haf.. we'll be able to overcome!! may we stand strong and firm as long as possible..

today's sachi (dog) 4th day at my hse. last nite i got freaked out by the howling sound lols dun dare sleep.. anw the female dog's only 6 mths!! i shall post the dog pic another time.

My Life
Filled wif colours once again
I see rays of light at last
The dark days are gone
The bright day marching in

All I want to let you know
No matter what happens
U hold an important place
Deep down in my heart

However it is saddening
When those words are said
It seems like racing arrows
Piercing through my heart

I am sorry for everything
Hoping for your forgiveness
For I wish u trust me in this
To settle and clear the mess

got doggieee at my hse.. female de. my sis's fren give yesterday de. so after tt at 9 plus they went out to dog shop and bought so many things back for the dog. toothbrush, toothpaste, shampoo, drinking water that thingy, dog food, dog plate (forgot wad's tt called), dog vitamins, dog hair brushes, dog collar, dog lesh etcc..
my parents super funny. my dad yesterday said something super lame which i cant rmb wad. this morning he and my mum trying to tell the dog sit down.. then my mum said it fiercely so that she will listen.. my dad's always playing wif her so my dad said look at yr gangster mummy LOL. then my mum was like wad gangster haha.
arh i feel so bad HOW. blur me put alarm wrongly again cos set it in a sleepy mode.. dunno many times le zz.. yesterday set 12.30 instead of 00.30 zzz. then woke up at 5 plus realised i slept till tt time i shocked then immediately missed call but forgot phone no vibration then cos missed call went back sleep then tot vibration then i wake up at 6.47am got 74 missed calls omgosh.. by the time i called back off le.. argh im angry wif myself..

thurs nite was quite hmm.. sorry! anw today met kn, joyce, ps at dhoby ghaut at 2pm. reached there ard 2.05 went cafe cartel to meet kn & joyce. soon ps came then we went in ourselves cos no one serving. took quite long to think wad food to order.. by the time it was past 2.30pm alr. i ordered Hawaiian Pork Chop while they ordered others. so since ps & joyce got the free flow of bread thingy so ate bread first lols. we talked and laughed alot super funny. all talking abt the waiter's hair super funny. soon all theirs came except mine then after which mine came.. when the waiter put the pork chop on my table all of us WAH lol cos it's french fries, vegs wif 3 big pieces of pork chop omgosh la. i never seen so big portion be4 leh. it seems as though it's im eating in australia. so kn and joyce took half of a piece to eat.. they're like i sure cant finish de hahaha. so eat and eat they see the pork chop so nice all say next time come again muz order tt. in the end i was the last to finish and i still left last piece and the way they see me eat and cut they dun feel like ordering next time LOL. we left the place at 4pm plus then decided to go cathy building so walked there to ben and jerry then thinking like too ex or wad then decided not to eat. so walked over to selegie that road selling soyabean.. that was my second time. still rmb that time first time went wif emily, max and his other acs classmates at 11pm then so crowded. at soyabean there we talked abt the hot spring we laughed like mad la. cos my poa teacher was saying tt time she went japan hot spring and it's family hot spring meaning one family no clothes go pao together so er xin rite. then poa teacher said they reached there they gave her a small piece of towel. she was thinking if she covers the top, bottom can see, covers bottom, top can see.. so her fren said cover yr face best cos no one can see who is it LOL. all of us laughed like mad when she said. so at the soyabean there we said and laughed la. then i was talking abt ms.. talked abt lao ah pek thingy then say end of story then they were like huh end of story.. they cant stand me lol cos i always talk wif no main pt haha.. after soyabean went back home.. kn took bus, joyce walked to bugis station.. me and ps walked to dhoby ghaut station.. anw thnks for the gift.. the earrings are lovely..

the earrings..

i wore the earrings..

see im studying..

studying maths.. writing down the formulas..
tt day wore this mango turtleneck top bought recently.. nice leh..

on monday lecture as usual.. wondering and thinking.. oh ya after sch at outram park station.. got this 50 plus years old lady holding a pack of tickets then suddenly she dropped all the tickets over the floor.. so i squatted down and helped her pick then she was like shocked zzz dots do ive the kind of dao face LOL? after tt she thanked me then i said welcome haha then i looked ard everyone looking like so surprised like tt.

wasnt online tt often alr. studying in progress LOL. suprising rite haha! anw so many chapters argh.. yea i muz not take things for granted. learnt my lesson. im still new yep.

today at outram station saw a wheelbound 50 over years old man wif his wife.. then he's so poor thing.. his actions are like those 5 year old kids.. i was seeing the way he behaves and talks even in the train he would play wif his wheelchair moving up and down.. i can see everyone felt pitiful for him.. thank God for giving me such a wonderful life :) oh ya at hougang station saw sweedy wif her bf lols. so qiao..

i shldnt let myself be affected so much.. juz treat it that she's still immature at thinking..


dont think too much k.. im always here.. right here ma.. silly!!

pissed.

on sunday went youth service late then sat first row lols. then i busy thinking and wondering lols. after church decided to make a call.. soon parents came then went hougang mall eat. went ntuc wif mum then aunt met us there oo. went iora to see then mum was telling auntie got 20% discount cos it's my bday mth lol. then my mum also tell other aunts the shoe shop also got 20% cos my bday then cards under my name ma. then yesterday my mum went somewhere bought 2 skinny jeans got 20% discount 17 bucks each only so cheap. now got black, yellow, green, blue.. after tt went aunt came along wif us went grandma's hse put those veges etc.. then my dad's sis (aunt) also follow.. so car rather cramped up lol. sent sis home after which we went my mum's boutique. my 2 aunts there trying then i packing cos on sat many different grps of pple came to buy clothes then the place very messy.. so i hanged back those clothes to the rack.. then helped mum take some clothes stock cos a wholesale lady coming to collect. then aunts try so funny la. then cos they try then put one side. i tot they dun wan.. then always hang back those clothes they wanna buy then everyone laughing lol. then i took one dress frm there!! omgosh my dad asked me try ma then i tried. it's super NICE! wear for new year. that kind of whole suit muz match wif boots lol. then brought home tt dress. after tt sent mum's sis (aunt) to bus stop then we went grandma's hse.

grandma's hse as usual. carrom board :) we played outside the hse cos inside the table was brought to the middle alr.. then squated there.. played many rds then dinner time!! after dinner dr. ho was asking my 2 year old cousin follow him & she followed cos he's gg out lol then my bro also followed then suddenly dunno why both came back. soon after tt he came back wif a cake then pass to me and he said bring in go cut let everyone eat then i was like dots. then i walked in my grandma's hse everyone asking me whose bday then i said nobody's, uncle ho buy de. then after tt we brought in carrom board cos mum cutting hair for 2 cousins - 2 & 5 years old de. then many of us there watching trying to make them sit still and talk to them cos both of them dun like to cut hair de. go salon dun even wan to cut only allow my mum to cut LOL. then ard 7 of us watching my mum cut.. then i also watching pple inside playing carrom board.. after tt i went in.. then 2 year old cousin bathe le then hor i carried her.. then she wanna sleep immediately put her head on my shoulder so cute!! then i stand and let her sleep then i juz sat down then dad took over carried her like a baby kind of position then let her sleep then i think mum put her to sleep. oh ya then ate the cake!! then they were saying celebrate my 15 year old cousin bday ba cos hers on 15 jan. she's turning 16 then she said mine also january ma then i was like zz. then in the end my cousin said too paiseh lol then we juz cut and eat. NICE CAKE. coffee flavour frm bengawan solo. after tt everyone taking turns play carrom but i didnt play. soon i played lor, i partnered wif bro then compete wif 2 uncles. won first game in less than 10 mins lol cos bro la started the game by hitting 3 seeds in zz. then the rest of the seeds he never missed at all ZZZ then my uncles said in chinese zhen de hai shi jia de lol. then second game was the last game at grandma's hse. both parties left 1 seed then everyone so tensed up. then my this uncle missed then he so funny la he aiya so loud then both hands crouched together wif legs then lie on floor backwards. everyone saw it laughing like mad LOL. then left this last seed most tense!!! then my grandma's hse those not playing all watching. more than 10 pple watching. then it's like we cant get in the last seed. then all of us were like ahhhhh damm funny!! then my uncle suddenly hit using backstroke in the seed then won. then both uncles YEA! LOL. then my bro and i aiya. after tt all of us pack and leave le.

thick and thin, we've been through them all!!!

i shld or else.. dunno wad to think of le..

today went spore conference hall for ngee ann poly's band concert. thnks jh for the tixs. both my sis and i went. i met him first cos my sis wanna find her fren.. after tt ate dinner then omgosh all kinds of insects lol. i got a fright out of my life. after tt met sis then went conference hall. not bad the concert except that the songs they played i dun really know. all i know was the revised twinkle twinkle little star.. after the whole concert.. so many pple shouting ENCORE ENCORE!! the conductor came out again and the band played another piece so nice!!! that piece i know cos all mixtures of songs. damm nice then got YMCA part also.. so cute those band pple not playing de do the YMCA actions!! reminded me of chingay 2005 when i joined as a motivator!!! after concert he sent us back home..

this is wad i wore for countdown 2008 at vivo.

yea 3 years frm now =) deal.

today's lesson was as usual. thnks for yr morning call haha i was shocked!!! omgosh i wanna complain to SBS la. i was waiting for 151 express bus then saw it behind the bus 87 then both buses came to the bus stop. so i walked to 151 express bus and i was the only one taking. i was walking towards then the bus juz drove off. i was like !!! then no choice haf to take normal 151. i need to study hard le and i will cos someone ask me to!!!

omgosh i said it.. racing heart.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY BDAY XIAOYAN JIEJIE!

2007 has come to an end finally. 2008 is here!! 2007 was full of ups and downs, happiness and unhappiness. ive learnt plenty of things and ive grown stronger. 2007 is a year where many things happened and frm there i learnt many precious lessons. i wont be that again, i'll change for the better. ive many resolutions hahas..
2008 RESOLUTIONS
1. Find a job
2. Be stronger
3. Do well for prelims and exams
4. Be more diligent
5. Pass my practical for driving
6. Hope to go for piano practical exam
7. Meet up with my sec sch frens
8. Have better time management
9. Get involved in more church activities
10. Take up new activities
11. Be happy always no matter what happens
12. Enjoy myself in 2008!!! FUN!!! WOOHO!!! (lol my cousins typed those<<<)

yesterday was FUN!! reached home at 3.20am only. super tired but we're all high.

last nite, we planned to go for countdown at vivo wif my aunt, uncle & laura. my another 2 cousins wenyi & xinyi wanted to go.. then my another cousin, xiaoyan jiejie wanted to come as well. she offered to drive us there but after which she said she's gg there wif her frens first after which she'll meet us. wenyi & xinyi came over to my hse at 8 plus. dinner then we left home at 9.30pm to go to my uncle's hse.. reached there then my uncle said can go down straightaway.. so went vivo.. crowded like mad. took lift to 3rd floor which is the open area. wow so many pple.. we squeezed all the way to near the barrier.. can only see the stage and the seats.. behind pple squeezing like mad then my uncle said so loudly beware of yr bags LOL. then i also scared of pple anyhow u know cos i was wearing tube dress. then there're like 4 children plus me then those pple ard us looking cos my cousins talking loudly especially my bro. then my 5 year old cousin, laura wanted to squeeze rite in front lol soo funny la. she squeezing like mad then her parents stopped her. my uncle asked if we want to go walk ard first then come back since it's only 10.40.. so we decided to walk first.. went second floor which was the playgrd.. my cousins and bro played.. then went in vivo shopping area.. walked awhile then went back to playgrd then 3rd floor.. then my cousins all walking in the pool zz. so i no choice also went in. i odd one out. only 2 or 3 children there plus my 3 cousins and bro.. then we took photos at the pool. so many pple facing the pool then watching. got this small boy kept on spraying water zz then my bro all wet.. then both of them splashing each other.. after tt xinyi & i walked back to uncle there then she called xiaoyan jiejie. then we went fetch xiaoyan jiejie outside ezone. brought her to there then we went food republic drink tea, coffee. then got this late 20s guy kept taking video of us dots. all of us faster juz turn our heads away.. then soon it was 11.50pm we quickly went out to the open area then worse man the crowd's until the door.. squeezed then still far frm barrier cant see anything only can see the back of the stage.. then we decided go pool there. then suddenly got abit of fireworks then at the view of pool there walked there full like mad zz. juz waited there. suddenly i heard the countdown.. everyone 5,4,3,2,1 then HAPPY NEW YEAR & HAPPY BDAY to XIAOYAN JIEJIE! then fireworks. so nice!!! then everyone shaking hands then sing songs.. then emily called me lols. we took pics then after tt many pple left.. we also left went playgrd again.. cousins playing. me and xiaoyan jiejie juz look and take pics of them. super funny at there. then went burger king to eat.. ate ard till 1.45am.. then left to return to my uncle's hse.. played uno.. fix jigsaw.. then parents fetched my bro, me and 3 cousins. fetched xiaoyan jiejie back first.. then 2 cousins stayed at my hse overnite. they slept wif me.. reached home 3.20 then 4am get ready to sleep but both cousins cant sleep. then xinyi played songs then 3 of us singing then they dancing lol. then 4.30 then sleep. 8 something they woke me up.. meddled wif my phone like mad.. then i continue sleeping.. at 9 something wake me up.. 11 something showed me my phone dots la took me sleeping and put on the phone wallpaper zz.. blah blah... yesterday was FUN!! took many pictures. another day then upload.

these are today's photos for micro gathering. took it frm cheryl cos mine got probs opening.

outside starbucks here taking then actually jasmine's taking me and cheryl de.. then she said the pple at the back do funny actions LOL.

me and cheryl.. i rmbed we're best frens in sec 1 and 2.

the 10 of us girls HAHA. damm cool.

left side frm bottom: xuan ni, wei yun, emily, limin

right side frm bottom: vanessa hong, vanessa tay, yun qian, jasmine, cheryl, me

today supposed to go church hence i would be late for gathering but in the end didnt go church.. so quickly get ready for gathering.. meeting at 12 but.. all of us were late lols. only xn was early.. the rest of us were late lols. then on the way at cityhall gg up the escalator saw cheryl lols then i was on the line wif emily somemore.. then i juz waited for her cos she was rite at the back.. omgosh she changed alot.. her physical appearance haha. then both of us were the latest.. we reached then saw jasmine, limin, xn, weiyun.. then tried calling miss hee but she didnt pick up.. so we went off first..walked to marina sq.. met emily at there. wow i realised everyone in pl all looks toot last time then come out of pl everything also change.. hairstyle, dressing.. all become so feminine lor haha.. cool. in the end we ate at swensens cos cafe cartel dun haf a table for 9 pple.. then sat there ate.. finished eating le.. suddenly yq, vanessa hong and tay came.. i shocked to see them.. didnt know vanessa tay would be coming as well.. then 3 of them as so much changes la.. all so feminine.. all long hair.. wearing skirts, shorts wadever.. all dress up so nice haha.. then 10 of us sat and we had fun talking.. then asked one of the waiter to take pictures for us.. all 10 girls lol. the waiter had to hold 5 cameras LOL. we posed for so long haha. after which we went walk ard.. walked to arcade.. wanna play pool there but some dun wan.. so wanted to play arcade then like quite inappropriate.. we're dressed up ma.. so walked off decided to find one place to sit down.. saw long john, bk, kfc.. no space.. went in mac.. saw a long table but no chairs. it's like a grp of 10 walking in then we juz went out to the open air of mac. then saw starbucks there inside no space at all.. so we juz sat the open air starbucks. the atmosphere quite cold la.. then we seniors giggling to ourselves dunno how to start talking wif the 3 of them.. so in the end talked abit.. then cheryl said take photos since the backgrd there is esplanade.. so we brought out our cameras then some took photos. the 5 of us took.. 4 cameras lols. then soon the 7 of us took cos the 3 of them went toilet.. then got 6 cameras there for wy to take lols. we asked 2 guys to help us take.. they shocked haha so many cameras.. one of them joked 1 dollar for one camera haha. then 3 of them came back.. they took photos.. after which some went off.. 5 of them went off.. left 5 of us.. we went walked ard marina sq.. went dorothy perkins.. jasmine tried jeans there then bought one.. the rest of us so tired lols. then went home after tt.. i took till potong pasir, dad fetched me to grandma's hse..
as usual alot of us.. everyone is present except my cousin cos she's working temp job then too tired.. my grandma's hse is olden days semi detached de.. so super small.. but u know got 29 of us in the hse so crowded..then they bring out the big dining table as usual.. all parents sitting there.. 2 by 2 as in husband, wife.. really nice. then there were 20 plates of dishes on the table.. alot man.. cos my uncle's back frm thailand then he cooked alot cos usually he cook de but ever since he went thailand all the ladies cook.. then it was bday celebration time again. my cousin's 23rd bday!! her bday's on 1st jan.. nice cake frm four seasons.. took pictures, sang songs again.. then we distributing gifts frm beijing lots of it.. keychains, chopsticks, shirts etc.. hang ard.. chit chat.. went off after tt. haiz my com cant open the memory card so cant upload the pics.. tmr gg countdown wif my relatives.. celebrate 2008!!!!