.:thE gaL's r00m:.

my mum scolded me like hell for playing ms every single day. problem is what can i do? i wanna win them not only that, that's the only chance of me talking to him. everyone in my family said im addicted. nope im not at all. if there're other ways of communicating with each other, why i bother going in there to play all the time. hais last nite i cant sleep kept thinking of what happened inside there. still rmb he asking pple to accompany him. what am i there for then? so what she's alr married? what if i asked ku to pei me isnt it wierd? not only that still ask if she's his best fren. i feel so rejected and so terrible. last nite cant sleep kept crying. now eyes swollen. is God trying to tell me to forget him? are those actions he did to tell me something? his nick alr changed so much. no more mr goh. still rmb the msges i sent to him, poems, sorry msges.. i read all of them last nite. as i read, i cried even harder. sometimes, i really feel like questioning God, i know there's a purpose and lesson learnt for what he's doing. right now life is so torturing, thinking of him all day long yet not able to get hold of him. what a failure and useless person am i.