decided to get back to blogging & put it on fb. actually i dont really like pple to know my blog cos it's quite personal.. this blog has been with me since 2004. time really flies.
anyway this is just a random post, nothing in particular. love is so unpredictable. im asking myself if im the one having problem. no idea why my pasts whom went into another r/s all lasted till now. i really do envy them. who does not want to be loved? but ultimately, it's best to get a guy who loves me more than i do because for every relationship, i put in my 100% hence i suffer 100% hurt as well if the guy leaves me. But i shld trust in God for this.
did nothing much today, supposed to be studying. was teaching wenyi maths over the phone as she needed help with some questions. after which, just fried egg for sis, warmed up canned meat den took half for sis. maid deep-fried fries, took half out for sis. den the rest of everything for bro. ate my lunch, love the soup my mum cooked. after that, just took a bath & started studying. but distractions are indeed distractions, switched on tv =/ but i muted it lol. den after reading my notes awhile, i decided to go sleep. went sleep, woke up, cooked rice for dinner. slacked around hse. i was pondering the whole day, i took out all the pasts and looked. had piano just now, after that since my dad was using the desktop in my room, i lied on my bed and thought again. will i have happiness at all in my life? i dont believe in that anymore. it's really so painful and torturing. i hate it. crying so much is also useless. enough of all these. PRELIMS ARE FINALLY OVER but yet TONS OF REVISION CLASSES ARE HERE sian and REAL EXAMS IN MAY!!! MUGGING PERIOD!
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