didnt blog for a long time already cos i was busy studying and i was sick. this is my 4th day having fever of 38.3 degree celsius though i left the last 2 fever tablets for today. i cried this morning cos my fever always come back every morning when i wake up and i cant study for my exams which make me even more worried and stressed.

omgosh anw thank God i just checked my email and i found out i won the CATS Classified Young Classified - My Most Memorable Holiday contest. Every 2 weeks they will choose 3 winners, we just need to post in a photo of our holiday with a caption less than 35 words and i won $50 taka voucher!! It was published 2 weeks ago sunday (12th April).

this was what i sent in:
Despite the temperature of -12 degrees celsius, my parents and I endured the coldness just to capture the scenery outside the cottage that we stayed in Korea because it was simply too beautiful.

pretty tired with the ongoing lessons. had sch on fri to sun from 10am to 5pm and monday 3.30pm to 6.30pm. sat went out wif family after sch and sun i stayed home after sch didnt go grandma's hse cos i was really exhausted. for march and this april, i was either in school or at home. exams are pretty much a nightmare for me, i am so stressed up everyday as those modules kept running thru my head. i am trying not to scare myself too much or else i can never get those facts into my head. sometimes i kept asking myself what do i want to achieve in my life? i will be graduating next year may. time seems to pass so fast and most of us will be finishing year 2. looking back at past years, i regretted many actions i have taken. My parents are right, this is the time for me to study. I will be helping out at their office after exams but i would love to work at the airport because i wanna see those aeroplanes. Anyway since i am home all the time, my dog is the one who accompanies me and makes me happy haha. i still remember how frightened i was when she was being brought to my house on 14th jan 08. i was standing on the chair all day long lols. my sister was telling me not to be afraid. However, as time goes by, i overcome my fear and simply love her now. She's the fiercest dog i ever seen cos she behaves like a shepherd dog haha. she behaves like a real human kid haha i am serious. i will be studying at the living room everyday and she will be sitting on my lap all the long and my legs become numb and stiff. Her wound is healing but it splits open again cos she loves to run and tends to knock everywhere. she still looks cute in her cone. i took many pics of her while she's sleeping in my room everynite, shall post one day. i dont know why i love to bring her to my room and put her on my bed to sleep with me. she's like a super good buddy to me le -.- hence i cried yesterday when i tot my mum wanna give her away but it was my dad who pulled the trick. she's always there to accompany me when i am lonely and to make me happy when i am sad..

on fri (27/3) went for marketing uol revision lecture 10 to 5pm after which went orchard station to meet them - joycelyn, keng ngee, michelle, samihah, ps and jz. cos i was late so they went 1st den i went there to meet them. i ordered chicken culet with fries not bad but serving's too little.. around 8pm we left cos mich and ps wanna eat ice-cream so they went paragon while me, keng ngee, joyce and samihah went taka shop for wf's present but went to tangs later on to get the present. den mich, ps and jz met us at tangs & wanna go pub at somerset to drink and enjoy the music -.- it was 9pm at that time. me and joyce said we wanna go home lols cos tmr got sch plus we also dont drink -.- and im not gg to enter that place. so keng ngee, samihah, joyce and me went home 1st but 6 of us took a pic outside tangs before leaving. home sweet home.

on sat (28/3) went for corporate finance uol revision lecture 10 to 5pm. i was late so didnt join the 5 of them so i sat at the last row den during break shifted to sit with them cos theirs was 8th row from the front and there're more than 500 students in that lecture hall. lunch we went canteen to eat, overcrowded cos everyone's lunch time is at 1pm -.- my cousin's lecture was also on that day and with 500 over students as well and our canteen and megabites cant even accommodate to over 500 students. then i met my cousin while lining up for my chicken chop spaghetti. ate with weifang, joyce, jiaying while alicia and her fren went ngee ann to eat. after school left with joyce to take train at clementi station and i was thinking of that woman who felt giddy and fell into the mrt tracks at clementi z. met parents at bugis to check smtg den bought mcflurry den went wisma wif mum to check smtg too and collect clothes from osmose den went home fetch bro and we went tampines giant and i drove home. home sweet home.

yesterday sun (29/3) went for corporate finance uol revision lecture 10 to 5pm again. was late again z den joined the 4 of them later on. so lunch took bus to king albert's park mac to eat cos only megabites open dots. so can see mac all full of sim pple -.- 5 of us - joyce, weifang, jiaying, alicia and me ate till 1.50pm den took bus back. 4.15 my lecture ended den went out saw my cousin lol cos my dad was supposed to fetch us to our grandma hse. in the end called dad, he was at dog clinic and it wasnt sachi turn yet cos sachi got infection den got patches of blood on her body poor thing. now that portion of her hair was cut off become botak den she was wearing a cone shape thingy so cute. back to the story, my cousin called her dad & her dad was fetching us so me and her waited in school till 5.45pm -.- den wah got 4 cousins inside the car already plus uncle z so i squeezed wif 4 cousins and the back while the cousin whom i waited with sat infront. went grandma's hse. lots of food during dinner as usual ate alot haha got our favourite lala too, 3kg of lala not enough for us z. after dinner went with aunties, uncle, grace and johnathon baby to prime supermarket and they bought mini cornettos for us children haha and i brought 4 year old grace back first wif the ice-cream. went out road talked to auntie and 11 year old cousin abt the incidents we met when driving car cos my auntie also just passed driving. now among us cousins, my oldest 2 cousins can drive already and are driving. im the 3rd oldest and i passed too followed by my 20 year old cousin also passed le.. next my sister who's learning her practical now taking exam in may i think. went home at 9 plus plus. saw sachi lee with her cone shaped thingy at her head so poor thing but she looks cute in it lol. since she cant scratch herself and when i see her scratching but got blocked i go scratched for her till she's not itchy le z.

as days passed, im getting more and more stressed as exams are nearing. this week revision classes are starting already, i will be having 3 weeks of sat and sun lessons from 10am to 5pm gosh. this fri nite meeting up with jc classmates, joyce, mich, samihah, ps and jz for dinner and to catch up with each other. joyce was saying a way to let us relax and not be stressed for a moment haha. alright gtg study and do my bsf hw le.

on 1st march, went jiaying's 21st bday celebration at her hse. dad fetched me there cos it was at yew tee. wah so many pple including her church, iras, jc and relatives.. her hse was overcrowded -.- so me and weifang took lift then when the door lift opened we were shocked cos the buffet was right in front of us lols. both weifang and i were the only group with 2 of us the rest had more than 10 pple in their group. cake cutting was wierd cos only me and weifang stood there to take photo whereas other groups was btwn 15 to 20 pple there -.- jy's bf and churchmates r so sweet, they formed happy birthday words and her name chinese name in glowsticks at the carpark and they asked her to look down from the balcony. they shouted happy bday jiaying, at that time we can see so many heads popping out and down from the opposite blocks haha. left at 8.30pm den weifang and i waited downstairs for my dad to come. home sweet home.

on 7th march, went yusuf's 22nd bday celebration at Royal Plaza Hotel restaurant Carousel. before going there i heard it was 40 bucks per person. met earlier wif fahmy at ps at 6pm to go buy present for him to top up the one which amanda already bought. went off to royal plaza soon after that. was shocked to see the price for the dinner that sat nite. it was 60 bucks per person -.- best buffet ever eaten. i never seen so much varieties in my life. it was so so so nice! i can even choose spaghetti, shell pasta or linguinie with whatever sauce i wan like pesto, tomato etc and the chef will cook. there's chicken rice station also -.- it's chicken rice balls, roasted chicken, white chicken, 2 different kind of soups. the cakes are so nice! it's not only those small cakes which are already being cut but also whole thick chocolate kind of cake.. cake and brownie that kind. got all kinds of food which we can never ever finish trying all in one night. there's chocolate fountain too, fondue! love it! i kept going there to dip the mashmallows, fruits so many different types on this 3 to 4 layers high of chocolate. yummy!

on 14th march, went with family and relatives to NUS guild hse. my aunt and uncle is a member of the NUS guild hse hence they got vouchers and were asking us to go there for karoke and to eat dinner there. so in the end only my family can make it for dinner out of the 5 families my aunt asked so we ate with them. my aunt and uncle ordered so much food -.- we didnt know what they ordered cos we were late. too much food -.- after that went wif grace, my 4 year old cousin to find my other aunt's family upstairs then i went in the karoke place first wif my cousin cos she wanna see -.- so we stood there to see a lady sing "If we hold on together" after which we left the karoke place. den i left my cousin with aunt went in jackpot place to see. wah so many pple den took their free mocca drink to drink haha den i brought out one more cup for my cousin cos they cant go in. den my aunt and uncle who are the members came up and we went for karoke at 8.30pm.. den my sis and i singing with my uncle only -.- i sang lao su ai da mi lol plus some others like if we hold on together too. den soon the adults went missing -.- mostly went jackpot and dad won 120 bucks! den cousins and bro missing went out play pool z den join them awhile den soon my 20 year old cousin came cos she went for NUS concert that nite. den me and her went in jackpot place bring out drinks for her siblings and my bro haha. den went back sing till 11.30pm z. den all of us went out den my aunt and uncle wanna go jackpot so we watched pple play till 12.25.. den some of us already too tired hence waited outside.. den my cousins and bro playing daiti -.-

on 15th march, went grandma's hse for dinner. so much food gosh! played daiti with cousins and bro cos they short of one player z. every sunday it's really heartwarming to see all of us gathering and all relatives so close together. when i was seeing, i was really happy to see this sight. all of us left at 9 like that den i drove home. my 2nd uncle going to open up a nasi lemak stall at buona vista but he stays at hougang z. anw cos my 3rd uncle's wife is a dentist and it's currently at holland village just upstairs coffeebean. they even had a website http://www.hollandvillagedental.com.sg/ and my cousin's (their daughter) photo was up there with theirs too z. then they want to move to a bigger area hence was asking my 2nd uncle to join with them at buona vista and i heard the renovation fees are so ex. anw they gonna call it dental cafe -.- however my family does not go there for dental z, we go to our granduncle de at Parklane, Dr Leong Joo Kee and partners. famous dentist and super experienced. that nite i had nth to do and i went compare the 2 dental websites lol.

anw im not able to use com le z. one week once maybe -.-

anw.. decided to concentrate on studies for 2 years as in after degree do masters if possible =x provided my results r good. i so sian of ms already. last nite me and ms dear playing mega like tt dots. time to study!

after all we are not meant to be ba. our thinking is different but it does not mean im open-minded. those who knows me real life knows what kind of person i am. it's best in a r/s the guy loves the girl more and hence he will love everything of her. since im not the type of girl, i guess there's no point le. anw exams are over today! final paper today haha! but tmr i'll start mugging again and i planned my time table for it z for may exams.

poa's over but right now im so stressed up cos tmr's macroecons -.- super stressed up till i dont know what i can do right now. anyway i console myself by saying this is only prelims, like mock exams which they dont even really mark. besides that, poa question paper has so many typo errors dots, questions also not clear, can see the ang moh lecturers from london set it in a hurray. saw the news abt the indonesian chinese, a eee student who stabbed his lecturer twice z, i guess there must be some disagreements btwn the 2 of them previously hence they were arguing during the final year project discussion. i wonder why he cut his wrist before jumping down? so that he will die cos he jumped frm 4th floor only? it's such a pity, it's his final year already yet this has to happen. the girl who witnessed him jumping will sure be traumatised, cant imagine she witnessing the jump and blood just ooze out.. my uncle edited all the bday and photoshoot photos le.

anw back to that day, fetched parents from airport with sister guiding me phew cos ive no idea the way to airport. i freaked out in car cos i was driving at 90km/hr only whereas all other cars drove a 120km/hr and all overtook me -.- finally reached airport parked and went find parents at belt 37 SQ117 i think. den forgot the angmoh came back with my parents also -.- in the end all of us wore home clothes z. she was so funny. my parents told us stories of her, all of us laughing like mad haha.

back to just now, my fren was using my xfannx to train and i was using my didi acc to find my fren but my fren didnt know it was me. so solosinz123 from hollywood came along asking to buy white essence i said alright so i asked my fren to sell him but my fren didnt know it was me and just ignored me. solo asked his fren dess to trade me but i didnt accept cos it shld be my character xfannx. in the end solo scolded f words at me and my fren becos he waited so long & no one wanna trade him to sell. so pissed off. wanted to pm million888 but wasnt online nvm forget it. i stopped playing ms for a period of time till june. my fren will be using it to spam z.

yesterday whole day have been driving ard, drove bro to sch den back home, den drove to buy lunch den same time drove bro back, den drove him to his tuition den back home, den fetched him from tuition den bought dinner back same time. lol i drove over the kerb at my hse downstairs. later driving to airport to fetch parents cos sister suggested den parents also ok with it.

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now is 18th feb 12am! sms-ed to my dad happy birthday le!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

so busy today. parents left for KL this afternoon. left hse at 6.30 quickly went hougang mall buy dinner for bro den rush back. wanted bro to go with me cos i will be late for bible study, 1st lesson somemore. in the end reached home left hse waited for bus for so long still didnt arrive. hais no choice didnt go for bible study so went back home. reached home ate my dinner, went wash up kitchen so many ants -.- den washed bro's uniform till my whole body all wet z and washed mum, sis and my "stuffs", 12 of it cos never wash for 4 days. no maid so everything need to do le. after that went down iron bro's uniform for his sch tmr. went bathe, cleaned dog's poo and urine so many times z la. den i haven even touch any of my studies at all dots. tmr need to wake up at 6 plus am to wake my bro up z den drive him to school or hougang station zz hope my driving will be alright haha.

sobs i wan my xFaNNx get HT neck, egg, gene 30, mw haha! AR also sian. guess need to do service ba. quit ms ba. what's the point of high level.

im gonna stop blogging for a moment.

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im always been seen online often these few days reason being my time-table! so frustrated abt it. it was first said to start on 9th feb at 3pm and i had lessons on that day at 3.30pm. i tot of going to school earlier to the school's computer lab. but at 10 plus, joyce called me to tell me not to go to school cos the school's computer lab are all filled up cos she's at sch at that time. no choice i didnt go to school, i glued to the com at 12 plus logged in did survey first. all of us just glued to the com getting ready for 3pm to chiong in and book. in the end at 2.30 we recd a msg that the school's server was down again -.- waste my time. den recd another msg saying the eRev time-table selection will be postponed till further notice. after which 13th feb morning at 10 plus i recd a msg from sch saying eRev will be on that day at 3pm -.- i got school at 12pm den joyce called me to tell me cannot go school again have to stay home to choose. glued to com till 2.45pm recd a msg saying system down -.- dots la. den another msg saying it will be postponed den another msg again saying it will be postponed till further notice. wah so angry. den today morning 10 plus while i was sleeping recd the sch's msg again saying eRev will be today at 7pm dots and i got woke up by that msg. soon after joyce called my home phone cos my hp was diverted to mac delivery lols. i still went sch as usual but left earlier and i reached home at 6.56pm. just nice z. before that in shuttle bus called mum tell mum help me switch on the com cos i dont have the pw. jy also called me z. that period we are like so busy -.- den we all conference z choose till wan vomit blood. den 7.54pm confirmed den later my frens callled me again ask me change again cos suddenly got earlier dates available dots. i keep changing diao. only can make changes for 3 times now left last try le. my time-table like shat, so many saturday and sunday 10am to 5pm -.- sian.

after so long i feel that nobody understands me better than he does. all of a sudden i miss him so much, those memories we had and my tears just rolled down my cheeks. i really do miss him hais.

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today i went to grandma hse den cousin got hamster i carry den kept shouting z den my cousin put on my leg haha. came back home have to spin clothes den put in dryer. den washing machine spoilt so left this lump of soap lol. the washing machine new de. den i took pic of sachi on my mattress. den i went iron clothes. parents came back we cut the cake. super nice! tastes like ferror rocher for the middle part of cake super nice.

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v day was wow. on the streets saw so many couples -.- somemore bouquet of flowers z. anw nite time supposed to go out with family eat. in the end inside car hais den mum no mood eat all go dabao go home eat. dad bought vday cake in the end didnt cut.

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i learnt to bake brownie from sister and baked this lol. it's very nice.

got scolded so badly just now from start of dinner 8pm hence i cried thruout till now cos i lost my hse main door key.. den she started scolding me for studies, maid everything that she could say me. i was so sad, really depressed that i kept crying. den i recd a msg and read which made me even worse. i msged back and cried while msging. even till now im typing this post. im crying now cos not for her scolding but the msg. double blow to me. maybe it's really time to let go?

my mum scolded me thruout the journey last sunday on the way to fetch my cousin for the photoshoot. she said if i want to do things shldnt do halfway cos for eg photoshoot since im going for it for my 21st bday kind of shoot and i should just go enjoy it. i didnt pack the clothes and everything for the photoshoot, i did it last minute at 3 plus after my poa lessons hence my uncle waited for me for hours :/ my mum said i always like to procrascinate, true. hence my mum said since got my bday pt, cny den photoshoot, i just enjoy myself first, after everything is over seriously concentrate on my studies (: so yeah from now on pure studying.

now there isnt any maid, im back to ironing clothes for whole family -.- my hse clothes too much to iron, we changed too many times in one day le. all dishes everything all need to wash ourselves le, floor also need to mop, toilet also, even dog poo and urine also need to clear and clean up. sachi the doggie purposely poo and urine dunno how many times, i changed 6 times for her in one day plus my parents 2 times, 8 times -.- busy period again plus prelims are coming -.- i can just go flunk my prelims (:

last sunday went uncle's hse for photoshoot. my 24 year old cousin came along too to take with me (: my uncle is a senior lecturer in tp but he has interest in photography. my bday pt that day he brought those umbrella shape props for photo taking. reached his hse was shocked to see the studio being set up, he bought the whole set of equipments -.- he's very high tech, he will buy those latest IT and electronics gadgets de, he even had a room just for watching movie with big screen and full range of those audio and sound systems. IT stuffs we saw a look alike photo frame at the stairsway and it turned out to be an LCD screen showing slide shows of all the photoshoots he took, it was so COOL! my cousin and i wore formal at first den dress den casual/sports wear. we reached late.. supposed to be 3.30 but cos i got something on, we reached there only at 5.30. so make up everything already near 6.30, sis helped me make up lol cos i dunno how z den took till 7.40 den we rest, changed to casual and went down for dinner. continued after dinner, we took face emotions shots, sports attire shorts and we held tennis rackets haha. rich the doggie so cute, it seems he knows we are taking photos hence he walked over to the front of us facing the camera and sat down and posed with us LOL. finished everything at 10 plus it was so late le, luckily my uncle has no lectures the following day. my cousin and i enjoyed ourselves, it was an experience. uploaded pics that were taken by sis wif digi cam on that day. my uncle will pass the soft copies when he finished editting my bday and this photoshoot photos.

for those who are asking the photos for my bday, i uploaded the digi cam photos, just abit of pics., not clear as well so sorry about that. click under 21st bday thanks.

http://s217.photobucket.com/albums/cc36/pinkblooms/
(it's locked, ask me for the pw)

2 years passed and suddenly contacted me again. i didnt reply but he called as usual and i just ignored. why is it at this time suddenly, everything just start popping out. sian vday coming also, this year like everything in a rush cant do anything.

my uncle's still editing my bday party photos. hope he will pass me the soft copies soon.

hais no mood to post. always in my mind all day long yet i hurt another. what decision shld i make? this time im really lost.

busy new year, shall update when im free and i when i can use com cos now using sis com for a while only.

so busy this whole week. super busy. dont even have time to touch the com, no time to practise piano and study as well..

cant wait for every friday ((: oops forgot i went watch red cliff on fri actually haha. next movie will be jack neo's new movie & fann wong's one. jack neo's one is so funny, saw the trailer before the red cliff started. one part is a woman asking a man, "are u really benny's father?" the man replied "then do i look like his mother?" LOL so funny! then got one part hui ge was so funny he said he can form a sentence using colours which is.. "When the phone rings "Green, Green", I "pink" up the phone and say "yellow", "Blue" is this? "White" do you want? You dont "purplely" call me. If you make me angry, I wont call you "black". lols so funny la. It should be, when the phone rings "Ring, Ring", I pick up the phone and say hello, who is this? What do you want? You dont purposely call me. If you make me angry, I wont call you back. hahas.

trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzVgbZE22Jk

nites off to bed.

went to watch red cliff 2 last fri at amk hub. nice movie! so funny, we kept laughing hahaa.